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RockyG666 63M
1746 posts
5/22/2015 7:35 pm

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5/24/2015 8:22 pm

god's garage is no more

i have been removing the remnants of the church building that was my dream, god's garage.

it has been sorrowful and sad. most of the stuff is in boxes or thrown away. it has left me empty , but god still loves me. now i just need to love myself

RockyG666 63M
1357 posts
5/23/2015 7:52 pm

my career already came to its end. this was my hail mary dream that i went to seminary for.. god will give me something else to hope for. god provides

Urban_Hermit 70M
319 posts
5/24/2015 2:49 am

There is a reason for everything. Perhaps your dream was too small or needs another direction and He wants something even bigger for you. My job came to an end 5 years ago. I've been on a merry-go-round of wondering what's happening, depressed, some dreams shattered also etc, but all through it I've been sustained. I'm trying to look at what I have and not what I have not. Being unemployed for 5 years is not a nice feeling, but I guess something is being outworked in me. Hope He gives you a wonderful vision for the future soon. God bless.

Judgement Day will be interesting.

RockyG666 replies on 5/24/2015 7:25 am:
this is what ruins me. i am listening to james mcdonald now telling me not to quit, to have faith. i have heard a 100 sermons telling me he can do it, 100 biblical passages telling me to trust god. but i can't do it, i am weak. it is killing me not to trust that god can do anything. but i am weak, i can't. i am sick and weak

Sojourner06 60M
1768 posts
5/24/2015 7:53 am

The Question, Rocky, is are you the one who has to produce/bring forth a lot of Faith, and then God - according to the amount of Faith you brought forth - will give you what is needed?

I see a man who turns his head and heart towards the Lord for help. he asks God what to do, and what's next. So this man has faith in the Lord. Remember the mustard seed. It's very small, especially compared to a watermelon, and in itself it can do nothing. But given what it needs, it will become a huge plant...

You look too much on what you think you have to perform/provide/deliver so God will answer you and look to your side.

I think in fact a lot of people should envy you your present position. I know it's not easy to be in your position for time being, but you have several times and places admitted you have laid down your own ideas, plans, and doings. And found out you now have to wait for God to do something because you can't do it yourself.

So you are not interrupting Him any more, and now He can do as He pleases.

Remember: God says that He knows which plans He has for you, and it's not plans of misery or disaster but plans of peace that you might get a future and a hope.

He has not thrown you away, but you are at His next step of learning to trust.

So be silent and know He is God.

Keep blogging



I Can Explain It To You, But I Can’t Understand It For You

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RockyG666 replies on 5/24/2015 7:34 pm:
sojo, thanks for trying to lift me up. if that is what you are doing. not thanks. i don't need any more gruff. god bless you

Urban_Hermit 70M
319 posts
5/24/2015 8:02 am

As I dont understand your situation fully and can only now see there are other issues. I can only say dont listen to others, or me either if I'm out of tune with your issues. Just wait on God, listen to Him. Of course you are weak, join the club, we are all weak. But I'm sure you know it's not until we are weak and broken that we find our strength in Him. Regroup my friend, in other words renew your mind. Stop. Just stop. Stay calm and remember God loves you. I'm saying simple basics here but just close your eyes, let it all go and leave it to Him. Do not let clutter fill your head. Get back to simplicity, God is a Father, you are His child. If you have children, do you love them? Of course! It's family, not a striving effort. I admire the fact you want to do so much, but if it kills you doing it then it hurts me to hear this, and I believe God also. Time out on the mountain for a while, rest, relax ....... wait, just wait, as hard as waiting is .... then your strength will return, find your direction without pressure. I will pray for you bro, personally I think you have similar traits to myself. I can get lost in 'good advice' but the reality is for me that I just have to learn what is and isnt for me. Hang in there, you are precious even if you are weak. In a sense the regcognition of that has a strength to it. If your heart is for Christ, then nothing, I repeat nothing will reduce His faithfulness towards you. I'm seeing your heart - I also have faith in you. "Do not worry ...." Is repeated often in Scripture and it is yet probably the sin I commit the most as I do worry too. You are not alone. Hang in there.

Judgement Day will be interesting.

RockyG666 63M
1357 posts
5/24/2015 7:38 pm

i am waiting on the lord, i know my strength is in god. it has just been rough lately sometimes. god bless all of you that are just trying to help, and god bless all of you that are just there for whatever you are trying to do. god bless all of you