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Wannabe Writer

whatever comes to mind at the time

Like a tulip
Posted:Mar 30, 2009 9:16 am
Last Updated:Sep 13, 2010 6:14 am
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Have you ever thought about the dangers of being a tulip? Along with its friend daffodil they have the awesome task of announcing to the world, "Hey look, Spring really is here!" I don't know about your part of the country but they've been putting little snowflakes up on the extended forecast for a couple of weeks. It has been cold with artic winds blowing for the last few days - I have the head cold to prove it.

But once those tulip leaves are out-there's no turning back. Once they've put their best leaf forward well, they are fully committed. Good or bad the process of coming to full maturity is going to happen and our expectation is a beautiful garden of lovely tulips. Can the leaves freeze? Once there is a blossom can a pesky rabbit come along and bite it right off leaving only the stem and a leaf to show for what was once a beautiful flower?

As Christians we start out as the tulip the day we accept Jesus Christ into our hearts, you become a new creature in Christ. As a mature Christian each day we have this chance to start anew, for His mercies are new each and every morning. Halleluiah! We are on that course like the tulip to bloom.

But it doesn't always happen. We make choices. Choices to divert into sin. Unlike the tulip without free will and the means to stop the cycle of destruction we do have a choice. We can stop to say, no more. We can go somewhere to ask for someone stronger to assist us when we are too weak to fight the battle alone. We all have a Higher Power that loves and cares for us. He will meet us right where we are at not judging or condemning but rather opening the path to lead you home along a tulip-lined, foot worn path so you might remember others came before you and many will follow.

Peace be with each and every one of you. Blessed be the name of Our Lord.
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I'm lovin the storms in my life...
Posted:Mar 1, 2009 9:17 pm
Last Updated:Mar 30, 2009 7:29 am
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I still don't have a job and I finally understand what all the teachings are about the quiet in the midst of turmoil. Stepping out of the boat in a leap of faith when the storm is raging all around only to cry out to the Lord to save me as I fall into the stormy sea. There are so many more illustrations in His word...you get the picture.

Wait long enough and a storm will pass through your village or life or body or job or best friend or spouse or . What we do with our storms really says alot about the kind of person we have become in our walk with God. It wasn't until this recent storm in my life that I came to find out how out of balnce I had let my life become. How neglected I had let my time with the Lord and secondly my love ones rate in the sphere of influence I had chosen in my life.

I'll take a storm any day because I know that God is getting my attention to teach me a valuable truth that will change and mold me into the woman He has created me to become. I am so glad He never walks out on the imperfect. He loves us where we are at and gently and lovingly brings us into new knowledge of who we are in Christ.
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On the 6th day of the New Year ....
Posted:Jan 6, 2009 9:57 pm
Last Updated:May 26, 2024 2:52 am
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the good Lord said to me...it takes faith to believe in me.

Believe in:
1 God of all
2 flesh becoming one in marriage
3 in the Holy Trinity
4 letters in the word LOVE
5 golden rings (ding dong ding dong ding)of melodious church bells
6 intercessors praying
7 day God rested and admired the beautiful creation He formed

Can we not take one minute of each day to stop and challenge ourselves in such a way as to say, What do I believe? Why am I thankful on this day for the faith I have in my Lord and Savior?
When we do this on a daily and regular basis perhaps we will begin to hear what the Lord would have us do before tomorrow's reflection. Don't let another day go by without constructing your 2009 strong connection with the Lord this year. It isn't about the quantity of time you spend together start with spending a good quality portion of time with Him. As your relationship deepens you will be surprised at how everything in your relationship with Him will change and grow.

Peace to all,
K.

PS. still looking for the job God would have me hold this year
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When you lose it all...He is your all.
Posted:Dec 27, 2008 9:44 am
Last Updated:Jan 6, 2009 9:25 pm
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Wow it's been awhile but when you're full time job is trying to find a full time job coming to the website where you used to encourage others just isn't on your list of "things to do today". Perhaps it should be. Something to think about... I do alot of that these days. I've been unemployed since Oct. I guess I really didn't think it was going to be a problem to get another job so the gravity of my situation never hit me until about a week ago when I had a bit of a meltdown, Christmas, a new year with no job prospects in sight.... becoming fearful but trying very hard to hide it. I know God is my provider, I know his timimg is perfect, I know He will not leave or forsake me. I just want to say to those of you who know someone in my situation-go to them. Give them a person to trust. A person they can voice this burden to that has been piled on top of them,in a tangible way. Let them pour it out(not daily but once or if this goes on for a long time maybe every three months or so). Let them cry on a real shoulder and help them dry their tears and give them a hug and assure them they are not only alone because God is with them but that you too know now how they feel also. Noone else needs to know just one other tangible person. Preferably not a spouse either because they too are in the day to day stress of it. This is what I would call Jesus with skin on. That's all I want to say for now. Have a Christ-filled New Year filled with hope.
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Peace in the Home? or People Cold as Stones?
Posted:Sep 19, 2008 10:03 pm
Last Updated:Nov 13, 2008 8:59 pm
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I read a blog but it was over a week old the guy talked long and hard about men need to have a relationship that is peaceful to come home to. Many of us experienced the "cold war" during a previous relationship where it got to the point where you just really didn't want to be with that person at all. Thus the scenario of the guy sitting in the bar rather than going home etc. ect. Then lots of people wrote in saying how now they were a Christian and understood we need to have homes filled with peace, the opposite damages , this is God's will ... Ok I'm going to play devil's advocate here. That should get a reaction... If the answer is to never "fight, nag, stay out too late, complain..." then please tell me why is the divorce rate in Christian marriages almost as high as the non-Christian rate of divorce? I too have had the "marriage from hell" so to keep from yelling in front of the I just removed myself from the situation and spent a few years cooped up in an upstairs bedroom seething with anger I turned inward toward myself. Eventually since he couldn't fight with me he started picking fights with the which led to the restraining order I finally got because
I was angry enough to move out.

It is about communication. The whole proverb on don't let the sun go down on your anger is actually saying you need to resolve your conflicts within that day. Families when that was written spent their time/evenings together. So if after the dinner dishes were put away if mom and dad needed to talk there was still time in that evening to do so. What do we have now? 2 income families that sometimes don't even see each other in a day. When they finally do both end up in the same room do you think it is to talk about their feelings or their frustrations? Ya,and no one is around to wisk the off so they can have a little alone time to have that talk in a calm and rational manner because the family support system of 2 sets of parents, grandparents,aunts,uncles and cousins all within a mile or two of your home - that doesn't exist any longer.

Folks we made our bed and now we have to lay in it. I just hope the next generation finds enough role models to bring this Godly marriage, commitment for life concept back around. Talk is cheap. Seeing is believing. I see it once in a while in the little white haired old people I see in grocery stores. The true courtesy and regard for one another. They look like companions - now there's a word you don't hear anymore. Holding hands...smiling...eyes holding their gaze at one another---I can't explain it but I know it when I see it and I'd give God all the glory to have it before I'm old and gray and alone on this earth.
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?
Posted:Aug 25, 2008 8:02 pm
Last Updated:Aug 26, 2008 7:41 pm
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You don't know me...
I won't let you in.
You can't show me...
I've put up a wall within...
The jagged edges of a torn-up heart still standout in front of everything I've been
I'm glad it's all still so new
Not much invested here
Oh yes I know I will shed a tear
It's better than hours of broken down, busted up faith...
Because I let my guard down long enough for you to get it all
It wasn't the way I thought it would be
But seldom ever is with you or with me.
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Perfect message
Posted:Jul 27, 2008 9:27 pm
Last Updated:Jul 30, 2008 9:38 pm
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A girl sat on the top of the highest hill hoping to catch a glimpse of God. The sky was the color of blue water color paint when you wash off your brush in the cup of fresh water. The soft breeze caused her hair to come out from the band that held her pony tail and tickle her neck ever so gently that she turned once or twice thinking her brothers had followed her up the hill to play pranks.

This was a private conversation, no one could know the depths of her longing to hear her Father's voice, to know his love was lavished upon her this day. She began by singing a song that always made her feel close, it stirred her heart and melted the chill of loneliness from her soul. The sweet notes were carried high into the heavens surely the angels were joined in harmony.

As the girl finished a single tear traveled down her cheek. Perfect in its message to say, "All I have I bring to you today meet me Lord, meet me on the hill, this is what I pray."

I cannot say for sure because this story is one that has been passed down from those that met her on that day. The friends that knew her say the girl that descended from the hill was glowing. Not with a physical light but with a power from within. She and the Lord had an encounter those ornery brothers never knew what happened to their sis. Fear was replaced by a quiet peace, control gave way to a gentle spirit, a kindness toward others that was apparent each and everyday. It wasn't a contrived show, she never went on and on. It's only by the example of the life she lived that we know something was different from that day forward. I never saw her again.
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Have you ever just not known...
Posted:Jul 7, 2008 10:29 pm
Last Updated:Jul 27, 2008 8:23 pm
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WHY? What is wrong with me? I would just like an honest answer to that question. Is the day that I will ever meet another human being (man) that is compatible to me past hope? Is 49 the limit? There are no more chances to pass Go, no more chances to collect $200 and for God's sake I'd really like to avoid visiting or going to jail if at all possible. (even with the get out of jail free card)

I think I'm funny sometimes. People laugh at me if not with me - that's for sure. Ok I could stand to drop another 20-25 pounds. But the fact that I used to top the scales at 196 only 4 pounds from 200 still makes me feel a whole lot better about myself than I did eight years ago. I'm only 5 feet tall. For the most part give 10-15 pounds I've maintained the weight loss I've had. Weight loss=ALOT....

I'll admit I do have trust issues. But I haven't been with anyone so I don't know if all the years of theraphy since my divorce have paid off. I just can't seem to put myself out there. I'm at a loss. I do still have I'm raising and so to get really serious is really not in my best interests but some fun, some friendship, something besides the girls night out would be a great change of pace. I think I get along better with guys as friends more so than women. I like sports, I hate gossip and I can be really competitive in a fun sort of way. There I've said it. Not to anyone I know but I've said it in black and white and it feels so much better. I'm dreading turning 50 that feels like it will be a whole new set of problems and new realities that I really don't want to face.

Is this a pity party? If so, I sure wish someone would call me a cab and get me the heck outta here....
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wish I may wish I might...
Posted:Jun 12, 2008 9:42 pm
Last Updated:May 26, 2024 2:52 am
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have the wish I wish tonight. Do you remember looking into the night sky and saying those words? Tragically four young boy scouts lost their lives when a tornado went through a nearby camping area this week. The same sky I love to look at for peace also turned it's wrath against us in a twist of fate. My heart goes out to the families, Boy Scout organization, the camp workers, rescue workers and fellow campers for the pain and sorrow they must be experiencing right now.

The wish I wish is for all to know the saving grace of Our Lord. Did those young men in their final moments have the peace of knowing they would be seeing their Savior? Wish as I may, today is the day God has given me to do His work here on this earth. Oh Lord please help me become a stronger vessel, a sharper arrow to go forth in penetrating the darkness all around with the sheer brilliance of the Gospel.

I don't think the times we face are going to get any less dramatic I think God is calling believers everywhere to look at the signs and heed the call to truly be disciples in a tangible way to those in need. What are you experiencing? How have you been able to make a difference in your home, neighborhood, workplace, school, community, city, nation and/or world?

Peace be with all of you...
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movies...
Posted:May 27, 2008 6:45 pm
Last Updated:Aug 17, 2009 10:16 pm
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Ok I'll admit I'm anxious to see Indianna Jones once again thrill us with his ability to defy the bad guys against all odds. Or is it that I just love a good Steven Spielberg movie? Either way I'll be going to see it this weekend since I was too busy last.

Do you like to go to the movies if so what kind? I was talking to my boss today and we were discussing how sometimes you go to some types of movies just because you know you are going to get to have that "good cry" you've been needing. Let it all out- there now don't you feel better? Sometimes yes or sometimes it's off to the freezer section of the nearest g-store. Triple dip anyone?

I don't believe in burying my head in the sand -so I go to the movies even some that the Christian critics wouldn't approve of. I hate porn and extreme violence of course but if I'm not aware of what is going on in the generation around me how can I possibly relate to them? How will I ever reach out and relate to the things they are going through?

I would be interested in others thoughts around this subject.
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