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god's servant's blog

this used to be god's garage

harassee remains unknown
Posted:Feb 27, 2014 8:42 am
Last Updated:Feb 28, 2014 8:42 pm

i got this letter from the dean of academic services concerning the harrassment matter i have been posting about. they have not disclosed the nature of the harrassment complaint, and i really don't care. i am sure that i am not harassing anyone. it likely was marky. thanks again marky.

February 26, 2014

Dear Rocky,

As you know, the seminary recently received a complaint concerning your online behavior. Your involvement was alleged in online harassment of another individual of a serious kind. While I am
disappointed that you refused to meet with me to discuss this issue, I do note your categorical denial of any such involvement.

I therefore trust that the allegation is completely unfounded and do not propose to take any further action. However, for future reference I would like to draw your attention to the policy of XXXXXXXX University on harassment:

XXXXXXXX strives blah blah blah....

I hope that this clarifies the current situation and the position of the seminary. No further discussion would be necessary at present had you not complicated the situation through the public nature and content of your most recent e—mail. This will be the subject of a separate communication from the Dean of the Seminary.

maybe they will give me my degree?
seminary update: eerie silence
Posted:Feb 26, 2014 8:13 am
Last Updated:Feb 27, 2014 7:44 am
it has been a week since i told my old seminary to leave me alone, and suprisingly, they have. completely. i have not received a single response from them in a week. that is kind of scarey.

the new dean, who probably will lose his job over this, was emailing me every day, sometimes twice or more a day. i complain about it, and POOF, nothing at all in a week.

while it is nice, it is also kind of terrifying.

as i have said before, i am peace over this whole thing. it was feeling like dark and shady dealings and i shined god's light on it. i am ready for whatever will be.

come and get me if you dare. or do the right thing and give me my forking degree already.
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where are the pictures?
Posted:Feb 24, 2014 1:35 pm
Last Updated:Feb 26, 2014 2:23 pm

my last few blog posts had pictures with them, but BC is not posting them? anybody else having this problem?
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lonliness (re-blog)
Posted:Feb 23, 2014 5:00 pm
Last Updated:Feb 26, 2014 8:14 am
lonliness Jan 29, 2006 10:22 6:35 pm 276 Views

i know that i am never alone now that i am in christ...but sometimes it still gets unbearable. i wish church lasted all day and night.

this was the first paragraph of my first blog post ever. i thought on it as i was preparing for church tonite. i had considered not going tonite...i have never missed a wednesday since i began going to church last september, and i have only missed sundays when i had to work, and hated it even many, many things have changed in my life, but i guess that i am still this lonely. starting next week tuesday, i will be taking ministry classes on tuesdays. i think now that i have become kind of attached to my 'other' church which meets saturday nites.that means that mondays, thursdays, and fridays are the only days that i won't be in church. and pastor eric is considering friday nites for letting me run an open christian mic at our church. that will leave only mondays and thursdays.i best be more careful what i wish for.ummm...i wish that i had a good christian wife.

when i read this now, it is like somebody else's life. it has only been 7 years, but it feels like 30. the church i am talking about here closed in a scandal the next year. i ran the friday night open mic until then. i also married a 'christian' i met in a chat room here. and i wish i did not wish for her
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imaginary gnat (re-blog)
Posted:Feb 22, 2014 5:41 pm
Last Updated:Feb 26, 2014 2:21 pm
imaginary gnat Aug 20, 2006 9:16 pm 205 Views

imaginary gnat
buzzing in my ear,
i try to squish you flat
but you're not even here.

imaginary gnat
flying 'round my head,
i don't know where you're at
but i'm gonna make you dead

old school, new school,
uncool old fool,
leave me the f*** alone,

governmental, detrimental,
going mental
put me in a f***in; home.

cause i can only honk my horn so many times,
i can only wait in so many lines,
i musta called a thousand times,
but i'm still on hold;

please do not hang up,...
your call will be answered in the order in which it was recieved:
L A S T ! !

imaginary gnat
nesting in my hair,
i pound you with a bat,
but you're not really there.

imaginary gnat
spawning in my brain,
i can't imagine that
i'm imagining this pain.
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slandered by someone at BC? (flippant faith)
Posted:Feb 21, 2014 7:01 am
Last Updated:Feb 24, 2014 1:34 pm

this is a follow up on my last post. somebody has contacted the seminary i attended and told them that i am harassing them. while i fully admit that i am sometimes a buttwipe, i am very certain i am not harassing anyone. i really hope it is marky, because i have already weathered his stalking slander and it doesn't have any substance to it to worry about.

on the other hand, i really would rather the seminary did not review me here at BC. for starters, the 666 on my name will be viewed as bad, and i don't really look forward to trying to explain my sordid sense of humor to scholarly pastors. not to mention, i am sure there are a few posts on this blog that will raise thier eyebrows some.

meow has already condemned me. he says this is my punishment for my "flippant faith." firstly, it rains on the just and the unjust pete. god never punishes us specificially in this life. the wages of sin is death. secondly, my faith is anything but flippant.

i love god and his word with all my heart and soul and they are the reason for my life. even though i am often a little harsh in the name of humor, i NEVER joke about the gospel. it is everything to me. i try to serve god and my brothers (and sisters) 24/7 in my life. that i like to laugh at myself and others, and that i question everything is not "flippant." it is REAL dude. most of the other people here PRETEND to be all prim and polite but are hiding thier real selfs behind pretty painted personas. i mite be ugly on the outside, but i am all gushy and cream filled on the inside.

in any case, i have decided to push the envelope instead of waiting around for the bureaucrats to hang me out to dry. i compiled an email of all of the email corespondance regarding this 'harassment issue' and sent it to EVERY email address at the school i have. which is at least a couple dozen. i premised it with this:

To Whom It May Concern:

xxxxxxxxxxxxx continues to harass me over online heresay even after I clearly demanded him to cease and desist and to contact legal authorities. He has made several veiled threats against me. I am disabled and he is causing me undue stress. If he continues to contact me about this matter without legal authorities, I will file criminal charges.

The saddest part of all of this is that I have been begging someone at xxxxxxxxxxx to consider my illness and grant my degree for the past year and NOBODY has addressed my concerns and complaints. This feels as if Mr. xxxxxxxx is trying to sweep me under the rug.

Thank You.

ok, ok. it is a little over the top and i am leaning on the disabled thing a little heavily, but this is war. i have to cover my butt. at the very least, it will insure that they have real proof before they railroad me for these bogus harassment charges. it will also make them very leary about railroading me at all.

putting the light onto shady dealings is a double edged sword. if they can come up with ANYTHING verifyable about me, i am history. i have turned the on the light on my own life as well, which has more than a few shady sides to it.

i am happy in any case. now my plight is out there and everybody knows it. nobody can make stuff up and use it to hurt me. if they don't come up with any real dirt on me, it might even lead to me FINALLY getting my degree.

thank you marky
who told my school that i am harrassing them?
Posted:Feb 17, 2014 12:54 pm
Last Updated:Feb 20, 2014 8:02 pm
i have been in a sort of arguement with the school where i attended seminary. they are holding up my degree over minor piddly stuff they want me to do, and i am saying i am a grown ass man and i have completed the requirements for my degree. please give it to me. we have been at a stalemate for almost a year.

it really doesn't matter to me, god has put me where he wants me and i am set for life here. it would be nice to have the degree, i DID all the work and had a great GPA, but it really has no practical reason in my life. i went to seminary to gain a good foundation in the bible, and i accomplished this very well.

anyways, the dean has been emailing me lately, it seems that he received a report that i am harassing someone online?

i have been polite, but made it clear that the school needs to give me my degree before i will even discuss ANYTHING else. the dean wanted me to come in to his office. i declined and invited him here to open mic ANY friday nite. i am terrified that he might come.

SO...the big question is who has gotten a hold of my seminary and lied about me?

the first suspect is marky, he has stalked me before, and told lies to my pastor. he has also done this to other members here. i have never told anyone here where i went to seminary, but anyone with half a brain and determined to do me harm could figure it out. that describes marky pretty well, but i don't think it was him?

marky has been behaving and he says he has changed his ways. others say he has changed and i WANT to believe in him...but i can't imagine who else would say i am harassing them?

do we have another stalker here? could it be wireclub rod? i am not harassing him, but i am really ticking him off. i don't know who else is mad at me? i have not been harassing anyone that i am aware of. i barely ever go on facebook or other social networks. it really hasta be here or wireclub.

any inside information will be greatly appreciated.
Recycled Bloggery
Posted:Feb 17, 2014 8:48 am
Last Updated:Feb 17, 2014 7:14 pm
once upon a time, i had a SERIOUS blog here. i never had as many posts as pete, but i was definitely second as far as quantity of posts. i can't even remember the first problems i started having with big crutch, i only remember that they deleted my account and my blog.

i found a back door and was able to get to the blog text and names of pictures i used, and i copied all of that to a word file. they can take my blog off thier site, but they can NEVER silence me.

earlier today i was searching my hard drive for old song lyrics. i had come up with some new music that i thought would fit an old song. i found the song (following this), it was in my old blog here. that reminded me of that old blog, and as i looked through it, i saw that there were a lot of good posts in it.

it was from a time when i was especially close with god, and i was moved by reading through it. as long as nobody even comes here anymore, i thought that i would start recycling old posts again.

once upon a smile there lived a young man,
with a heart made out of glass.
everybody knew him,
cause you could see right through him
at a glance.
he couldn' help but show it
he didn't even know it
he never stood a chance

he fell in love with all the wrong girls,
they had hearts made out of clay.
they'd see thier own reflections,
and he'd make a good impression
right way.
but clay gets hard when it sits too long,
and glass gets brittle when you hit it wrong,
he let them slip away

then one fine day he met her,
she had a heart made out of fire.
he knew he'd have to get her,
heart of glass, molten with desire.
you see the glass contained the blaze,
and the flame maintained the glaze,
they set the world on fire.
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Posted:Feb 14, 2014 9:37 am
Last Updated:Feb 15, 2014 2:36 pm
ok, i am very aware that i can's just say a little abrasive sometimes. but anyone that knows me knows i have a great heart for god and i am OK.

that said, i feel like a leper lately. pete is the ONLY one that comes to my blog and i never understand him. free spirit comes sometimes, but she wants me.

maybe it is that nobody is here anymore? chat attendance is consistantly in the single digits, and it seems there are the same single digit numbers in the blogs.
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i am SO sick of the couple on the home page
Posted:Feb 7, 2014 8:15 pm
Last Updated:Feb 8, 2014 3:22 pm
i am SO sick of seeing that happy young couple on the home page that i have envisioned a MUCH better pose for them.

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