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Posted:May 4, 2006 7:20 pm
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my friends and i attended a singles group and i came to a realization that has been present for some time, i just didn't really understand it until now, and it really has nothing to do with the singles group, just my church situation in general.
i can't decide if my Bible education is helping or hindering me. i think it's a little of both, but right now it appears to be hindering me. phoenix is filled with seeker churches. i'm seeking, but not in the same way others are seeking. i want to be challenged in church. provoked to really think deeply about the word and to grow.
at this singles group i attended, i found myself bored. the lesson was great, but not for me. i fear i come across as prideful, arrogant, a know-it-all,etc, because i learned so much about the bible and it's history, etc, that i'm not learning anything new. i'm beginning to wonder how my professors at school get fed. most of them at one point or another were pastors, so i'm wondering if they just did a lot of reading.
i fear i'm never going to find a church that doesn't use gimics to draw people to church.
it may be fine for others, but i don't need to learn what it takes to accept Christ as my personal savior. i need to learn how to continue in my walk without becoming complacent. i fear the only place i may get this is in a church who's main population is the elder generation, where i will have difficulty finding the fellowship i need.
i'm going to join a bible study at my regular church this sunday. i never studied the book of the bible they are studying, so i know i can grow and this may be all for my personal growth, for now. with gas so expensive, and my ridiculous commute to work, i can't afford to delve into the depths of phoenix to find a church home.
god is in control...
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Church
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Posted:Nov 25, 2005 7:46 pm
Last Updated:Apr 24, 2006 9:05 pm 1029 Views
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Well I think I may have found a church I might enjoy for now. It's quite a lot bigger than I'm used to though, so I don't know, we'll see. It's definitely a church I could get "lost" in and never get involved; just go to services and that's it, however that is just not me. I'm used to being really involved, and I really miss that, especially working with the youth!
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Settled in...almost
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Posted:Sep 5, 2005 1:56 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:29 pm 987 Views
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Well, I've now relocated to Arizona. I'll be at my new job for a month on the 8th. I LOVE my job. It's amazing and I feel so blessed to be involved in such a wonderful place. I am able to actively share Jesus with the patients and pray with them and my co-workers. It is fantastic.
It's been an adjustment moving from Nebraska to Arizona, especially since I moved here not knowing a single person. I've really developed a deeper love of Omaha and all the things I took for granted.
I was reading "Captivating" and had a realization that really had nothing to do with the book, but it still has opened my eyes.
Part of the reason I think the Lord led me here, alone, is that I need to work on my reliance upon Him. At home, I knew I could rely upon all of my family and friends. They were there for my 24/7. Out here in the desert, it is me and God. I was proud and felt that I could take care of my family and now I am rendered helpless 1500 miles away. I am now to let God be in control and know His will will be done and He looks after my family and friends.
I've only really been homesick a few times and it seems to be on the weekends mostly. The week is so busy that I don't have time to really sit and think about how alone I feel. On the weekends I think about what my friends are doing together that I'm missing out on.
I've begun to develop friendships with co-workers, which is great, but I still feel on guard and not completely able to be myself.
I'm still struggling in the search for a church. I really miss my home church. Growing up in the same congregation my entire life and the relationships I've developed will be irreplacable, not that I would ever want to replace them, but I'm worried I'll never find that again. I am so close to my youth pastor from home. I grew up with him in my life and then joined his side volunteering as a youth sponsor. He no longer is in charge of the youth ministry, but I miss him dearly. I had so much fun with him and it was great knowing one of our pastors on a more personal level. I have yet to visit a Lutheran church in the area, I've been to two non-denomenational churches, which I enjoy, but I'm thinking I may need to find a Lutheran church to attend for a while until I feel more comfortable in my roots here in Arizona. I need some familiarity amidst all the unfamiliar.
My prayer life has picked up, which is a joy and something I missed. I pulled away from God and tried to rely on myself more than I ever realized. So while I am homesick and lonely for my family and friends, this is a good thing for me.
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new career
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Posted:Jul 16, 2005 11:27 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:29 pm 1035 Views
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well i got the job in arizona
i'm moving in a couple weeks
i'm extremely excited, but also very sad to be leaving everyone i love behind and starting out in an unfamiliar place and not knowing anyone
i took my national exam today
it was horrible and i don't feel very confident about it
it was nothing like i expected
i thought there would be questions covering every area; at least 20 per section
well it was 200 random questions, however most of the questions were over career counseling (which is practically a dead field) and research...
how it the WORLD can they base giving someone credentials when barely any of the questions were applicable to direct contact with .
i know i aced all the ethical questions, some of the theory i was rusty on...but those darn career and research questions frazzled and frustrated me SO much
i almost started crying about 5 times because i was becoming discouraged
i honestly cannot remember if i got more answers right or wrong
i'm praying i did fine and that whom ever receives the highest score missed at least 20 or 30 so the curve will help me pass...
i don't think i really have an option of taking this exam again and keeping this job...but we'll see
it's all in God's hands now and i have a hard time believing that i would go thru this huge move and spend all this money and finally get the job of my dreams and then have it all ripped away b/c the stupid exam covered sections i'm not that great in b/c i don't ever plan on conducting experiments or counseling people on careers!
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starting to come together
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Posted:Jun 22, 2005 11:20 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:29 pm 1027 Views
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i have my flight set up
things are starting to come together
i really feel that this is the place God wants me to be and i'm confident and have faith that i will get this job
i'm starting to narrow down some options about apartments and living situations
i'm facing the reality of needing to get a new car b/c the odds of mine making such a long trip are not favorable
this saddens me b/c i love my car, even though it's getting old and pretty run down looking, it still runs and i have a lot of fun memories of road trips in my car
granted it's only an earthly posession, but i really can't afford another car, even a used one
however, i know the Lord will provide and help with whatever comes of this move
I will trust in Him and give my worries up
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the Lord is faithful
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Posted:Jun 17, 2005 8:16 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:29 pm 1139 Views
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i am being flown out for an on-site interview in about 3 weeks.
this is so surreal
the Lord has been so faithful and has been answering my prayers.
i am SO beyond blessed!!
i am so greatful to the Lord for giving me the desire of my heart!
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God is Amazing!
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Posted:Jun 14, 2005 12:40 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:29 pm 1094 Views
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I received a call about 2 1/2 weeks ago from my dream job!
They have changed a few things and are now going to be able to hire someone that has yet to take the test and aquire their license!
I had my second phone interview on Friday.
I will be hearing this week if I they feel I am not what they are seeking for this position or if they want to fly me out for an on-site interview!
This is TOTALLY and answer to prayer. I believe the Lord was looking for me to be patient and trust in Him that he indeed has a plan.
I did this and I am being rewarded. Either way, whether I get the job or not, I will know what my near future will hold. I gives me great piece of mind that I should know, most likely in July, if I have a job or if I will need to continue the search. Waiting until October to learn if I would get this job was not something I was keen on.
Thank you Lord!
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Posted:May 17, 2005 4:08 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:29 pm 1072 Views
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I graduate a few weeks ago. I received my master's of arts degree in counseling! I can't believe it's over. What a trying experience. I know I would not have made it through the past two years if God had not been guiding me!
It looks like the Lord is teaching me patience. I have the opportunity to continue the interview process with my dream job, they just need me to take the national exam, however this isn't until July, and b/c of the length of time it takes to receive the results and then apply to Arizona's board of health, it looks like I won't be finishing the interview process until September most likely.
I am a little disappointed, however this is providing me more time to spend with my family and loved ones and enjoy some free time until I enter the work arena.
I'm looking forward to seeing what the Lord has in store for my future and then things I'm going to learn during this time of waiting!
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Job?
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Posted:Apr 14, 2005 9:36 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:29 pm 1097 Views
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I may soon be moving to Arizona!
I received a phone call a few days ago from my dream job and I now have a phone inteview set up for next week!
I am extremely excited and praying that if it is indeed Gods' will for me to be a servant at this facility, it will be done. I'm trying not to get my hopes up too high so as not to be disappointed. I want to follow Gods' will and purpose for my life and if I am not meant to be at Remuda at this time or ever, God knows best!
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