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Truthfulness.. IT MATTERS! I am so over seeing people I know, tell stories that are not completely accurate! You know Jesus was not "a peace at any price" man, He called it as it was, no matter what! When I was 15 my mum put me in a convent home, I had been rebellious and disrespectful, a handfull, I didnt go into class, I smoked, I didnt have se ual relationships, I was just a handfull.. My sisters stole mums money and ran away from home,they were gone for a couple of months, the police were involved, there was a court case, one sister (non blogger) was sent to a correctional facility, the other was put in the same convent I had been in.. Not quite the same, being locked up for stealing and the rest.. as being locked up for preaching the gospel etc.. I'm trying to make the time fit 8mths, as claimed.. My friend from school who's bday it is tmorro, I introed to my sister, happily, in early '72 ! She wasnt locked away then, but she was by the time I got married, because they were allowed home for the wedding, only weeks later. I was already engaged, had a baby, and had taken my sister with me to pick up things for my upcoming wedding, he was hanging around the station, so we all spent time talking. The guy I married was locked up in a correctional facility, why would I remember so clearly? Because when he was allowed home for weekend leave, his mother lied to him about the meeting with my friend and sister. I was backhanded in the face, knocked to the ground and given a black eye and bloodied nose.. I wish my mum and dad had stopped me marrying him then, but you know what they say about "doing the right thing" .. besides, I thought I loved him and couldnt live without him, yeah right, young love... They later married and had a in 73.. They split when the was only a .. My sister also was involved with others, she wasnt home waiting for him to come back! He had a relationship with a woman and married her, he left her a widow, he left my sister a divorcee.. I have watched over the yrs, my sister claim his as her stepson and his as her own grandchildren.. The only link is that the same man she was once married to, was their father etc. My exhusband remarried after I divorced him, he had a , that boy is nothing to do with me, he isnt my stepson, because I was married to his father.. My daughters were his half sisters, that's it.. My ex husband isnt my sons stepfather... It's all too weird for words, but you know me .. as I said, truth matters... S'pose I'll be accused of this and that, but you know, lies to me are like a red rag to a bull... My mum used to say things about compulsive liars and I used to think she was being really unkind, I used to stick up for all my bros and sisters, that's partly why she got fed up with me, but you know, the older I get the more empathy I feel for my mum and I'm only sorry I never got to have a good talk before she died, guess she figured ... well it doesnt matter, now... God bless you mum... Lies have devastated our family, caused a lot of hurt, my mum's relationship with her older bro was damaged because of the runaway incident, mum went to court and was horrified at the lies that were told, unfortunately he was conned into believing the lies.. I know what it is like to be lied about and have others believe the lies, it used to break my heart.. But now we all know satan is the father of all lies... Cant have Jesus and be a liar.. proverbs says .. a lying tongue hates those who are crushed by it pretty powerful statement, amen.. so please forgive me as I once again, put the record straight... 
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THANKYOU so much Dave! Some wisdom and even an injection of humour! I'm sorry I haven't been on since I wrote this blog post... It's my bday today and my son remembered WITHOUT me having to remind him! He was sorry there were no presents or cards, BUT I said, "You remembered and that means more than anything to me! " Thanks Dave for your comments and like you, I have come to the conclusion these people are so far removed from me and who I am and what I stand for, it is better to just let them go.. I did my best, now God can do the rest, amen! How are things with you? Blessings my friend.. 
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What it is, is this, these stories relate to me and then I have to go tilt my mind at things from a long time ago, things people think are forgotten, but you dont forget what relates to you and your life, and these things are entwined and parallel to me.. Thing is I went thru a windscreen yrs ago and had head injuries, I still have short term memory issues, but there is nothing wrong with my long term memory and every now and then someone tries to get one past me.. You are right Jesus knows ALL, maybe if they had true relationship with Jesus this stuff would stop, it grieves the Holy Spirit, amen!
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In hindsight I wrote as I was going thru the thought process, that's why it seems a bit mixed up. I have decided and am succeeding, at not reading anymore of these troublesome posts. I think I have noticed a pattern, as soon as things seem to be going well for me, satan throws a spanner in the works, so having realised this I will blog to infinity and beyond, haha tongue in cheek! I like my friends too much and appreciate their interaction without these distractions, amen! Life is good, been up to some really good stuff lately, conferences, travel etc. yeah life is too good to allow anything thru the full armour of God! 
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What you have to realise is I have the type of mind that is always trying to figure things out and it bugs me when things dont tally, the time thing was what was bothering me.This isnt an attack on anyone, it is my logical mind analysing the facts, bit like a detective or a lawyer, it's just the way my mind works. The only one who did serve eight mths was my fiance and that was with parole, he was originally sentenced to 18 mths. My other sister I'll never forget her coming home for my wedding, she had on a little shirred purple crepe dress and white shoes and she was like a little girl coming in the door, hugging me, so happy and you know what, I think even tho she was in a womens prison, she was on her own for the first time in her life and was relishing that. I still remember my other sister, she had on burgundy suede ankle strap shoes with metal studded wooden platform soles, she was dressed in a mini skirt and it was dark with a dark top, she was not like my other sister, not very happy, quite sullen in fact, she wasnt enjoying where she was at.. Some people have those oppressive personalities that you are always trying to cheer up, well that's how it was back then, took me a long time to get over feeling like I'd done something wrong, when I hadnt. Can anyone relate to knowing people like that? I still have people like that in my life but I just dont take it personally anymore. All I know is she did not serve as long as my other sister. Anyway it's a long time ago now and it doesnt really matter, I am sad to say after all these years that things are as they are, but not much I can do about any of it, I pray everyday, for all my family, every one of them, amen.. Next time I'll do my thinking in private. But I am one of those who likes to talk things out and then I can put it in perspective, it is really hard to go back so far and the main players are all dead and gone, cant confer or verify with dead people, can we? I was thinking the other day about how many in photos are gone now... but I guess that comes with getting older, you know people who are passing on, anyway as I said, life is good and moving on is great, amen...time to shake it all off and get on with the awesome plans God has for us all, amen.. Jer 29:11 
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