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Living on the Edge A lot of people believe that miracles are simply a part of the Bible but don't happen today. I, however, believe that just because Jesus isn't standing in front of me in the flesh doesn't mean that God doesn't, can't or won't still perform miracles in this day and age. Perhaps the miracles I have seen in my own life that I know beyond a shadow of a doubt are from His Hand are not of a "biblical" proportion, so to speak. But that doesn't mean they are any less miracles or lack having a major effect on my life and those around me. In fact, His continued provision is overwhelming to me in many ways. Case in point: I have been unemployed for over a year now. If you take how much I was bringing in through unemployment and what is going out by way of payments for housing, bills, my 's medical, food, yada yada yada, there is no way that what I have coming in is enough to cover what is going out! The numbers just don't add up! And yet, here I am a year later. I still have my home. My has his meds. We have a small stockpile of food which is more than most families. I have been able to substantially donate to charities close to my heart during the past year. The electricity, satellite tv, internet and water is still turned on. Of course, any of those could be turned off next week but I am trusting my Lord and Savior to make a way where there seems to be none. His word promises it! Now, is His continued provision month after month for myself and my any less of a miracle than turning a five loaves of bread and a couple of fish into enough food for five thousand? Not in my book!! I know He has fed my and I at least 5,000 times, if not more! I can't say it is easy, being totally dependent on Him. Sometimes I want to listen to those little whispers in my ear near the end of the month when the bills are coming due. The whispers that say I am not going to make all the payments but deep down I know those are the whispers of the enemy. He is just trying to take my focus off Jesus by having me play the "What If" game. Certainly y'all know the "What If" game... It's the one that wastes all your time and stresses you out and yet has absolutely no bearing on the future! This is when I really like to bathe in His word. Shower myself and surround myself with all things regarding Him. For instance, as I type I am listening to Flood by Jars of Clay right now! "But if I can't swim after forty days and my mind is crushed by the thrashing waves Lift me up so high that I cannot fall Lift me up Lift me up - when I'm falling Lift me up - I'm weak and I'm dying Lift me up - I need you to hold me Lift me up - Keep me from drowning again!" And I know He will!! It's somewhat surreal being totally dependent on Him especially now that my unemployment payments have ended. It can be a bit scary but fear is from the enemy so I continue to pray on His armor each day so I can suited up against the enemy. I believe often what happens here on earth is mirrored somehow with what is going on in the heavenlies. And I know I wouldn't go play tackle football without the proper gear so why go into a spiritual battle without your armor on? By mentally picturing myself wearing each piece and what it represents, I can feel His strength fill me. Believe me, I can get all Xena on the enemy in a spiritual battle with His strength! Maybe that's even a miracle in itself! Quite frankly, the fact that I am even alive at this point is a miracle to me. And He was watching over my sorry backside long before I knew Him. Of course the Bible says He knew me long before I was born. Personally, I only remember back to kindergarten. I never thought I would live to be this old. I truly thought I wouldn't make it to 30 and here I am, nearly 20 years later still alive and kicking. He has saved me so very many times in this life. I can't even begin to list them all. Living on the edge like this... waiting for Him to catch you is a lot like bungee jumping. (And, yes I have, 180 ft, feet only attached, over 3 feet of water from a crane, I have even have a video) There are these few fleeting moments when you are just free falling. Your heart beats rapidly and it can be hard to breathe. But then slowly you feel the tether of the bungee and you know He is there. You bounce back to Him like a yo-yo and that's when it gets real fun! With every bill that gets paid, every bag of groceries, I can feel that tether and am overjoyed to bounce back to Him. He isn't going to let me just crash and burn! Why He does what He does... well I am not worthy by any means but His miracles in my life continues to blow me away. Side Note: The attached receipt shows proof of how God continue to work in my life. You will see a purchase of 10 jackets which I donated to help local wild fire victims, a pkg of steaks, 12pk of soda, a 3 DVD set for the kiddo and I paid a whopping $0.57 cents for it all. If that's not God, I don't know what is! 
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Amen!!
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2/26/2012 6:50 am |
Wonderful Post!!! His Eye is on The Sparrow and I know he watches me!! Your testimony is very Inspiring!!
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Gavin & Chris - Thank you for visiting my blog. God bless you both. Hayley - What a comfort we have knowing that He isn't going to change his mind on things. He is steadfast and totally reliable! Amen! God bless you girl! Terri - ahhh my sister of the purple font - I am so going to steal what you wrote... "Got a need, plant a seed!!" I love it!! You could make bumper stickers out of that!! God bless you!! Divine - Your response reminded me of that verse in Luke about how ravens do not have storerooms or food but yet He takes care of them and we are worth so much more to Him than birds. God bless you and thanks for posting.
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I so love your testimony!! God is amazing and He has shown this in you! God bless you girl!! Thank you so much for posting!!!
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Thank you very kindly sir. I tend to be more communicative through writing than any other means with my thoughts less guarded than in speech. I'm not always right but I'm me. God bless you!
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