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Don't Cry for Me Argentina! I have two chocolates left in the heart shaped box of candy I purchased at 75 percent off last Sunday. Personally, I think stale chocolate that has been on the shelf since December 26 tastes better at 75 percent savings. But then again, I, for one, do not need someone to give me a heart shaped box of candy to know that I am indeed loved. I spoke to many friends who spent last weekend bummed out because they did not share last Saturday, Valentines Day, with a significant other in their life. Of course, for several weeks leading up to the lovers holiday, we all have been bombasted by the media as to what and how we should spend the day and our money. For me, Valentines Day has a whole different meaning. You see, my divorce was finalized 18 years ago on St. Valentine's Day and I still feel it was the best money I have ever spent. For those of you about to post scripture on how God hates divorce, let me stop you right there! God also hates it when we marry the wrong people too! (Side note: Jesus has forgiven me of both and wiped the slate clean as the past is just that....passed! It was indeed a topic, I had to get clean with God regarding!) I wasn't a Christian when I got married. I was a stupid little without self esteem. I certainly didn't know Jesus. As a , I wanted to be loved unconditionally and cherished so badly in my life, I would do anything for it. Often, that view led to volitile and violent relationships as a and my marriage was no different. I was married for 8 very long years. The last few months of which I was separated and very pregnant. My divorce was finalized before my turned one. And yes, my ex husband is indeed the father. Infidelity was not a problem in our marriage although, looking back, I am sure he played around. I was just happy to have time alone. I'm not going to go into details but let's just say I was safer when he wasn't there. My, what a long time ago that was! After my divorce, I set to raising an infant and I did date quite a bit. Mostly guys I could control because I now had a to protect. I was still attracted to the bad boys: Partying, motorcycles, rock n roll guitarists. They were just younger and mostly interchangeable and none were long term serious relationships by any means. Without the partying, the motorcycle, the guitar, we had little conversational interaction and I would grow bored in a handful of dates in most cases. When my started toddling around and becoming vocal, I tapered off going out and dating. I never wanted to be one of those moms whose had all these so-called "uncles" if you know what I mean. I dated my first (and only) true Texas cowboy for about a year. He, too, was much younger than I, and we were both so very different and from two different worlds. I came from a world of sex, drugs and rocknroll. He was a two-steppin', two timin', drink a six pack on the way to the bar, starch in his jeans, big ole Texas mustache wearin' hunk of man. Unfortunately, you cannot base a relationship on sparks in the bedroom no matter how big the fire down below. It lasted about a year. Not long before my little dirt magnet entered kindergarten, I became a Christian. Scratch that... I became a good Christian. I went to church faithfully each Sunday. My was involved in Awanas. I did the ladies Sunday night bible study. We attended all the various events. I read my Bible faster than I can devour a heart shaped box of chocolates at 75 percent off. I did all the "right" things and starting having incredible head knowledge about God and the scripture. But I didn't know Him!! A couple of years later, I went through some real emotional stuff in my life and I knew something was missing in my life. I knew I needed true healing. I went through a very difficult restoration process. However, it was through that deeply emotional process, I began to build a foundation for a relationship with Jesus Christ. I finally had something other than head knowledge of our Lord and Savior. I had heart knowledge. He filled the spot that was missing with His unconditional love, mercy, grace and forgiveness. It was what was missing my entire life... the very security and love I was searching for as a , and then adult. So here it has been 18 years since my divorce. Shouldn't I be lonely? I have my ups and downs and fleeting moments that I sucumb to the media lies and feel alone. But most of the time, I am just thankful. I do feel incredibly blessed and loved even when times aren't all that peachy. I am not rich. I am not secure financially. I have my share of bills and worries. I do not partically care for my job right now. I am overworked and underpaid. And yet, none of that matters compared to having His love! So for me, Valentines Day is just another day of the year. I have a different kind of love that lasts 24-7, 365, year in and year out in addition to sale priced chocolates! This past 18 years has been a pretty good run so far. I've had my dates, good and bad, and a few romantic relationships here and there over the years but, most importantly, I have a wonderful solid heart filled relationship with Jesus Christ. And it is now that relationship that is the foundation for my very life. Now, does anyone have any milk? |
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Jesus and chocolate.....it sounds like you found your heaven-on-earth.
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Jesus and chocolate.....it sounds like you found your heaven-on-earth.
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I totally dig dollar stores and am the online queen of free! It's been a long time since I have seen a coin return, muchless a quarter in one but it was always a thrill as a kid. It ranks right up there with finding a soda pop bottle with a 10 cent deposit return on it. Thanks for reading my long winded posts. I tend to be a tad wordy but I do my best to make it worth the read as I reveal a bit of who I truly am via a whole slew of words. God bless you and thank you for your comments!
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Thanks Marilyn. I will try to come by more often. The hurricane and year end really kicked my backside and now with the economy, we have downsized so my workload has increased dramatically but at least I am still working. God bless you Marilyn and thank you for your always uplifting comments.
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Thanks Thomas and Robin. Y'all rock! God bless you both and I am so glad you two have found each other!
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Hey Chosenson - Long time no see! How are you? Good to see you are still here! God bless ya!
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Hi Corr. I was wondering what happened to you. I'm ok...still hanging in there. Hope everything is going good.
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2/22/2009 8:27 pm |
Regular? Skim? Low fat 2%? Chocolate? Buttermilk? what kind do ya want? Blessings Always David Gods Continued and Never Ending Blessings and Love, David Prayer Group Testimonies, And Encouragment Group Set Free ( Renewing Our Mind)
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Regular? Skim? Low fat 2%? Chocolate? Buttermilk? what kind do ya want? Blessings Always David
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Corrie, what a great honest hearted post! Racefan took Jesus as her valentine, and last year i took myself to Mexico on a honeymoon with Jesus. Posted a blog about our reception, and how He read to me the Psalms. Photos of a bride included. AMEN
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2/23/2009 1:00 pm |
I just read this and thanks for your testimony. It is a good one, and now I know you better. I remember many days that it was just me and Jesus, and they were awesome. he's good like that. Oh and chocolate yep  And thanks for being happy for us. We are most of the time, (when he's acting right)  ...can't wait till he sees this, I'm in so much trouble hahahaha... I pray things get better for ya down there. We made it through an ice storm, and a tree fell on Thomas while he was outside. It came through the roof a little too and hit me on the head. I think you commented on the post about that. I seriously think the devil tried to kill us. He knows we are in the battle for keeps. Keep your armour on, and wield that shield and sword sis! Blessings, R and T    "Love is Patient..."
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You're right... that is strange but I like strange!! LOL I bet your roses were absolutely gorgeous!!! (And the perfect shade I might add!! LOL ) I am really happy for you and Alan. You two really seem to compliment each other as well as Jesus. I think He has some great things in store for y'all. God bless you both and thanks so much for your comments!
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Corrie, what a great honest hearted post! Racefan took Jesus as her valentine, and last year i took myself to Mexico on a honeymoon with Jesus. Posted a blog about our reception, and how He read to me the Psalms. Photos of a bride included. AMEN
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I just read this and thanks for your testimony. It is a good one, and now I know you better. I remember many days that it was just me and Jesus, and they were awesome. he's good like that. Oh and chocolate yep And thanks for being happy for us. We are most of the time, (when he's acting right) ...can't wait till he sees this, I'm in so much trouble hahahaha... I pray things get better for ya down there. We made it through an ice storm, and a tree fell on Thomas while he was outside. It came through the roof a little too and hit me on the head. I think you commented on the post about that. I seriously think the devil tried to kill us. He knows we are in the battle for keeps. Keep your armour on, and wield that shield and sword sis! Blessings, R and T
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Ummm I dont even know how to respond to this.... ***places hands over her eyes***
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Does it include banjos?
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