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A letter... Questions, questions, questions... I really like you and I do not want to lose you as my friend, so I want to know how you feel about things. You said, "Ask me no Q. and I'll tell you no lies..." I know you were being facetious because, you said you hate Liars... I can't stand lying either... And you hate Fakes-- I don't like fakes-- I'd rather be myself and be rejected than be a fake. I never was good at faking, anyway, I don't know how to. If you're a singer and you do a lot of faking, you won't get too far. When I sing, it comes from my heart of hearts-- Have you noticed how many people won't put their picture in their profile? I am not sure why. A lot of the girls are just putting part of their faces, or "hair" shots. I have fairly decent hair and I could have done a "hair" shot from a fancy angle with my eyes all made up, but I thought the whole point of the picture was to be candid and be yourself. But each to his/her own--no condemnation. At 46, If I can't be myself now, there must not be a 'self' to be. I have EARNED being whatever it is that "I am". I love the fact that God describes Himself with those simple words: "---I AM THAT I AM"--GOD He is, after all, "the Ancient of Days." If He hasn't earned His "I Am," I don't know who ever will. Hal-le-lu-jah! There was just too much to tell Moses that windy day up on that mountain when God introduced Himself. God did not have a resume. Why is it that the most gifted people have the most pathetic resumes? God was counting on the "first impression" theory--(It really does work, you know)--God has charisma oozing out of every porthole, so He used one of His best tactics and made a sweeping entry....Who doesn't love a fireside chat?..... It was so cozy--who wouldn't want to take their shoes off... So when He (God) spoke-up the first time, He knew that the "I AM" line would be sufficient... Just imagine dialing up Krispy Kreme donuts and hearing a voice that said, "I AM....THAT I AM..." You'd at least hesitate for a little while.. (I am the nutty one that would try to ask, "Who are you NOT that YOU'RE NOT?...") Don't you know 'old Mose' borrowed that line and used it again on his wife, his , and those---those pesky Hebrews? "Hey, Mr. Mo, Are we there yet"..." "When do we get therrrreeee??" "When do we eat"? "You said it was just a few more miles...That was four decades ago---" "His camel peed on me...." "She stole my ve---il.........." "I don't see no milky honey..." "Hey, when are you gonna do that 'water thing' again....pllleeeeeezzzze" (Moses replies) "I-AM saith", "Shutteth thyself up! or may a thousand sand fleas invade your armpits..." Yep, this is how my mind works. The worst thing about living through the age 17-35 is your body looks great--no wrinkles--firm skin--thick hair--energy to burn and, look Ma, NO CONFIDENCE.... I have really been amused, even entertained at what I have seen about human nature just randomly browsing through the photos-- I have never ever been a part of anything like this. This is really an experiment (experience) for me. I just got soooo lonely that I (felt like) I was going nuts and I thought that I would try this. It is helping. It's true, I am a bit intense, but don't let that worry you, I am sound. I have been ruthlessly honest in my profile and my blogs--probably too open, I am sure. I have a tendency to do this--It runs most people away--at first, and then they see I'm harmless and some stay around and see what's next. Isn't it strange, and yet exciting when you are waiting on God for the next step, and you don't know what it will be...where you will go, or what you will do..You just know that you have Him inside of you--His principals to guide you and if you really blow it--you know in your deepest heart you will RUN home to Him because you are helplessly unable to live without His presence and reassurance. That's what I love about God. Reassurance. I feel His reassurance. I feel it when I do not and can't feel it from anyone else. I haven't been allowed to have it from others, but in small increments... And for that I am thankful--because if God didn't ration it out to me I would be hooked on that--and not on Him...I am in love with the Lord. mobettafriend |
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May the Lord bless you and keep you sister, cheers, bill May the Lord bless you and keep you
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Quite an experience, isn't it? 
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