Reset Password
Reset Link Sent
| Blogs > Drousey > Visions of Sugarplum |
|
Be careful what you pray for... Everyone knows what they say about praying for patience, but that holds true of anything you pray for. I am not proud of some of the things I prayed for although at the time I thought I was just in prayers for vengence on my enemies. God says, "Vengence is Mine" and man-o-man does He know how to dish it out. I am thankful that I am not my ex's mistress. I prayed for God to send someone to tend to my parents in their latter years. Being my father was a minister in our very legalistic denomination, the need for someone who understood and respected their choices for meals and lifestyle was key. I started spreading the word looking for a woman in the church who needed a place to live and a small living allowance that would be willing to care for them. After a couple years God provided that woman...ME! Not exactly what I had in mind. My husband left me for the aforementioned mistress forcing me to sell our home and move with our three into my parents home. Thank God Mom had a thing for very large homes. There was plenty of room for us and all our stuff. God's timing is always perfect. Within a few weeks I realized that the home health aid that had been tending to Mom was stealing from my parents and so she was fired and a couple weeks after that mom's home health insurance ran out so I became full-time caregiver for her. Then dad's blood sugar dropped one day and so did he. I caught him as we both slumped to the floor slowly, but not without injury to his ankle. The doctor said that with his poor circulation it would most likely never heal. Dad took advantage of a wheelchair we had at the house for mom that she didn't use and before too long he had become completely dependent on it. His ankle healed miraculously, but the muscles in his legs could no longer hold his weight. So there I was. Brought up in the ways of the church and respectful to my parents to provide the lifestyle they were accustomed to. Am I complaining? Not really. Those last three years with my folks provided me an opportunity to give back just a small portion of the love and care they gave to me when they adopted me as an infant. It also gave my an opportunity to bask in the love that flowed through our home as I was growing up while the girls survived yet another divorce and my lost his father to another family. Now I find myself asking God to bring a Godly man into my life. One that will fill my life with love, security and happiness like I felt when I first met my husband, my soulmate. After 5 years of divorce and more issues than I feel like typing about right here, right now, I get a call from my ex saying he's started going to church and wants me to consider relocating to his new city of residence. Is this the answer to that prayer? Could this possibly be what God has in mind after all the horrible things that have happened to our family in the past 7 years? Heavenly Father, I only want to walk in Your Light, Your direction, Your path. Show me Your WAY! UPDATE: Thanks for all the good advice regarding my ex, but for the record, just because HE wants to try to reconcile doesnt mean I'm considering it at this point or any point in the near future. |
|||
|
amen sister, preach on, God bless you, cheers May the Lord bless you and keep you
| ||
2/8/2006 12:57 am |
Dear Sugarplum After reading your blog I felt deeply compelled to right you. Your blog got my attention. I feel that a 'just trust Jesus' will not do but it is a starting point. There are a lot of issues going on in your blog and you deserve 'throne room answers' from the Father. The first thing I want to say is sister you are loved. Your heart has seen and witness things that any father would not wish upon his daughter. And I believe just as Christ gives us new life in him he wants to give you my daughter a new heart. That which was wicked and poison that touched your marriage has not gone unnoticed my your heavenly father. Your father in heaven knows your heart and knows what you have suffered. He wants to give you 'his sugarplum' the understanding to understand his ways. You are cherished by him my beloveth and he will honor his marriage to you by giving you the desires of your heart-restoration of heart and mind, peace of mind, financial wisdom, family unity and the healed hearts of your children. You are a daughter of the father of heaven and I believe that he would want you to know 'right now' that he will 'meet you at your need'. He will not just meet your need but meet you, be right there as each crucial need is met in the life of your family. We women are so vulnerable when going through what you have gone through in the past years. And it is so important when making life changing decisions for ourselves and our children that we have close friends and family close by to support us and give us critical feed back on our choices. You are my sister because not only do we share a personal relationship with Lord we are in the same family and this is why I feel compelled to voice by voice. I too as our father want the best for you and don't want to see you get hurt. Whatever decisions you make Jesus will always be with you whether your decisions turn out good or don't work out the way you hoped. As a sister I have to put these questions and comments to you: IMPORTANT: * Is your ex saved? I know your heavenly father would not want you to be with someone who is just going to church but is saved as I do* * Have you forgiven your ex?* * Have you told him how much he hurt you?* * Has he apologized to the kids? Whether you move or stay they deserve that.* 1. Have you asked your ex what are his intentions are regarding you and the kids moving? 2. If you do decide to move is he paying for the move?: a. apartment-first and last months rent, security deposit, pet deposit, gas money, plane, bus, train...etc money. b. He should be coming up there and helping you move as well, if it's all on you stay put. 3. If you do move and his intentions are family restoration is he going to be paying your rent, phone bill, electric bill, grocery bill, gas bill, car insurance...etc? 3. Has he found schools for the kids and spoken with principles, do your kids play sports and if so has he found programs for them to continue in what they love? 4. If you are going to working has he sent your job leads, newspapers from that city or town? 5. If you did decide to move I would expect you would be going to church does he expect you to attend his church? Has that been discussed because it should be. Has he sent you information on the church is it somewhere you know would feel comfortable worshiping? If not then he'd better start looking and praying for a church home for his family and have one in place for his family to attend. 6. Is he in any counseling if not he should be. I wouldn't advice any sister to take a man back who cheated on her without her knowing he has got some sound biblical counseling concerning his sin and his reckless behavior towards the family he cheated on. I know this is an area of controversy. Many feel if the sinner has repented and God has forgiven them then everything will be alright. Truth is we can love each other but do each other wrong over and over with raise hands to heaven. 7. No matter if it is your ex or a new man do you have boundaries setup that you are not afraid to address with them concerning your needs and the needs of your kids? To me a man that has destroyed his family unit and desires to have it back needs to pay for it to get it back. I mean if you are going to be taking care of any or most of the things I mention then you can stay where you are because you are already doing that by meeting your need through God grace where you are at. If you have to lift one finger to bring yourself the love, security and happiness moving closer to him you need to stay home where you are at. You should not have to stress about anything. Sugarplum I believe our father in heaven would say to you or me -"daughter I want you to have someone who is spiritually stable, someone who can be the spiritual head of the household and be the spiritual partner you need and deserve. I want you to have someone who is financially stable and will be able to show you right now that he will be able to meet the financial needs of your family. I want you to have respect for the man you want to share your life with. I want the man in your life to lead by example to your daughters and son by showing them how a father should lead and show them the righteous way to live in a marriage. I want you to have someone who will live a Holy life before me and honor me with his life not just with words but with action." I pray 'Lord continue to guide my sister's footsteps. Show her your heart concerning the matter through your word. Give her a scripture for each question she ask you. Give her a scripture for any present problem she sees now that you see would cause future hurt to her or her family, and delay your blessings you have stored up for them. Give her assurance within her being that your right hand has a firm hold on her present circumstances. Comfort her in the wee early hours of the morning and the late nights as she seeks you with all her heart and lays before you her hurts and grievances. Restore her footing as a woman as she seeks what is best for her and her kids. Take away the hurtful memories of her broken marriage and give her your vision of the marriage and the man you see her with in the future."Amen Blessings Deb ArtisticLady, your sister in Christ 
| ||
|
You are right, God's timing is always perfect. God bless you, Anita
|
×
×