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EVERYTHING DOESN'T FIT IT THE BOX ANYMORE I am one of God's obsessive-compulsive who needs to put everything into a neat little package. The problem is everything doesn't fit and the box is too BIG. There is so much to experience in life and I want to experience it all. I'll tell you a little story so grab your coffee or tea. When I stepped out of the Corporate world, there was a new world awaiting me. I felt like a that was learning to walk. Does this make sense? Not only did I realize that there was a world outside the endless piles of mortgage paperwork and title policies that consumed my life for years but there was a world out there waiting for me to experience. I was a walking mortgage dictionary and nothing else. I couldn't even converse about local current events, let alone laugh at a good joke. Although, I helped allot of people with getting the financing of a home and sometimes I believe it was short of a miracle when the approval rolled in; God worked through me to help many undeserving suspects, I loved each and every one of them and witnessed to them as to why. Money was not the motive because many received a $300. fee instead of the typical $3,600. fee for my services. I guess, I did something because many stayed in touch with me years later telling me about how I helped them get there first home. I watched many of their grow up and then the second generation of loans rolled in. Yes, I did those too. So, how was God using me and why did I quit? I woke up one morning and said, "I quit." and I haven't really worked since. It hasn't been until recently that I have wanted to work somewhere; anywhere but I can't seem to figure out what I want to do when I grow up? I've looked at the things that bring me that passionate feeling in life which includes: Plants, animals, biology stuff, water, nature, photography, music, mercy & helps and art but the Lord has blessed me with being a finance wizard and I hate math. There is no passion in math. As for men in my life, I have a few friends local and a few from afar, but the Lord is working on me right now and I don't want to interupt the process and get in the way. So much has happened that was out of the box and somewhat mysterious and I sit back and marvel thinking, this must be God. Yes, my spiritual mentor seems to be around more these days. I sit tight these days and try not to rush into things. Until He gives me direct instructions or until my heart feels totally unquestionably sure about any changes in my life, I remain His servant and I am trying to narrow down the options the Lord has placed in front of me. Yes, the box is too big. Perhaps, more will be revealed in another season. Only the Lord can put these pieces back together.  (¯`•♥•´¯) ¤`•.♥.•´ ¤ (¯`•♥•´¯) |
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8/3/2006 12:11 pm |
A story that I suspect many people have gone through. BUT I-(d I-(d ALARM ALARM Check All Through the Bible; God DOES NOT US OPTIONS. Only This = His way or THAT = Wrong Way Maybe you havent got yr spirit tuned quite right yet. Sorry for being negative but I feel danger if you are looking at choosing from options. God has 1 plan for you laid out and clear inHis mind.
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it sounds like God has got something in mind for you and He's not telling just yet
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8/3/2006 7:40 pm |
We should have a coming out party for you. You will be dancing a new tune in a month or so. 
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Stay encouraged, my sis, and be Blessed. You cannot possibly go wrong, for God knows exactly what you will choose, when you will choose it. Relax and know that He created you to be exactly who you are for choosing exactly what you will choose. Don't wrestle with it. Wrestling with it causes the confusion. He is holding you in the hollow of His hand. Can't you feel His love all around you? You cannot make a mistake unless you allow fear and confusion to set in. There is no reason to fear, no reason for confusion. You will make the right choice for you. Cherish all your happy moments: they make a fine cushion for old age.
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8/3/2006 10:32 pm |
A story that I suspect many people have gone through. BUT I-(d I-(d ALARM ALARM Check All Through the Bible; God DOES NOT US OPTIONS. Only This = His way or THAT = Wrong Way Maybe you havent got yr spirit tuned quite right yet. Sorry for being negative but I feel danger if you are looking at choosing from options. God has 1 plan for you laid out and clear inHis mind. However, I notice Sienna Sun has a different experiance, but I do not know anything about this person.
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8/4/2006 1:19 am |
This is your sentance I am refering to. "I remain His servant and I am trying to narrow down the options the Lord has placed in front of me." I read that to mean you think God has given you various options and You choose which 1 you want. The World has given you various options, The Lord will show you which 1 you are to take Jer 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future Jer 1:5 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart.” Jer 1:6 “Ah, Sovereign LORD,” I said, “I do not know how to speak; I am only a child.” Jer 1  But the LORD said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am only a child.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. 8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the LORD.Isa 44:24 “This is what the LORD says– your Redeemer, who formed you in the womb: I am the LORD, who has made all things, who alone stretched out the heavens, who spread out the earth by myself, I hope this is becoming helpful.
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8/4/2006 1:21 am |
I put a post on the next one before I had read this post. It shows that God is really working in your life. He wants you at this place, so you can hear him better. We have to wait, but sometimes we have to move also. My grandma, (a very wise woman) said that God can guide just a moving ship. Think about it. God will guide you He loves you tons.... What God does in our lives during the waiting period is just as important as what we are waiting for. John Ortberg CHRISTIAN WAYS TO REDUCE STRESS
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Quoting Linus801: "I feel danger if you are looking at choosing from options. God has 1 plan for you laid out and clear in His mind." So if this is true then how does He communicate this to me so that I can make the correct choice? What dangers are there to making choices? I was always taught that we have to first take initiative, use discernment for our best choices, then make a choice within God's will. On the flip side, one that just prays and waits on the Lord to direct and gets stuck in a rut never goes anywhere. The correct choices will be the ones that feel right after one has sought His will. In my early 20's when I was making major decisions. I would pray, put everything out into the universe in prayer and talk to God about my desires. Then I would take action to cause something to move in the direction of my desire. The way that I knew it was His will or not was very simple. For example: "I want to move, but I have a house to sell." You place a sign in the yard to try to sell the house." You take action. If there were no cogs in the wheel of motion, then it was within His soverign will. Within his sovereign will is the ability to make choices as long as you stay within His moral will. But, then some will say I am wrong and this has nothing to do with it. It sounds like what you are saying is that only God will choose and not me which is where I questioned and asked for clarification from you? I'm sure that being a fence sitter, is NOT what God desires of me. (¯`•♥•´¯) ¤`•.♥.•´ ¤ (¯`•♥•´¯)
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8/4/2006 2:48 pm |
Quoting Linus801: "I feel danger if you are looking at choosing from options. God has 1 plan for you laid out and clear in His mind." So if this is true then how does He communicate this to me so that I can make the correct choice? What dangers are there to making choices? I was always taught that we have to first take initiative, use discernment for our best choices, then make a choice within God's will. On the flip side, one that just prays and waits on the Lord to direct and gets stuck in a rut never goes anywhere. The correct choices will be the ones that feel right after one has sought His will. In my early 20's when I was making major decisions. I would pray, put everything out into the universe in prayer and talk to God about my desires. Then I would take action to cause something to move in the direction of my desire. The way that I knew it was His will or not was very simple. For example: "I want to move, but I have a house to sell." You place a sign in the yard to try to sell the house." You take action. If there were no cogs in the wheel of motion, then it was within His soverign will. Within his sovereign will is the ability to make choices as long as you stay within His moral will. But, then some will say I am wrong and this has nothing to do with it. It sounds like what you are saying is that only God will choose and not me which is where I questioned and asked for clarification from you? I'm sure that being a fence sitter, is NOT what God desires of me. As I reflect back on how God kept control of me I have recently missed a point. EG when I was eeking employment to meet some financial shortfall, I would send out applications to all possible adverts and see which set of doors God opened. So, to that extent I had options, but The Lord maintained control by only opening the appropiate doors. Yes I would receive other offers but there would be undesirable or unacceptible issues involved. 1 or 2 times he even let me make a mistake, just to help me keep on trusting. But through it all Molly and I have always come out Okay+ Ro 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
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After 4 years, I am now attending tax school. Hopefully, I will be employed in January. (¯`•♥•´¯) ¤`•.♥.•´ ¤ (¯`•♥•´¯)
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