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HOPE FOR DIRECTION (Just a little emotional today) Send me where I can be used, Lord, choose the path that I am to walk, and guide my footsteps so I will not stray from the direction You have set for me. Show me where I am needed not where I want to be. Though I may desire to take the easiest route, help me to understand that the boulders in the path are put there for my growth. Though I may make mistakes, help me to accept criticism and correction, and turn me from temptation lest I stray from Your way. Why Lord, do I want to go back to Hawaii so bad, I cannot get this place out of my mind. Give me strength, Lord, to be Your willing servant even when my friends and family try to influence me otherwise. Help me to discern those that are trying to help from those that would hinder me. I may yearn for sunsets and fields of amber grain, but if You choose, Lord, I'll live among the thorns and fields smothered with weeds, my own. I finally found the song that describes how I feel alot of the times. My computer crashed and I lost the song about 6 months ago so here it is: I Cry Russ Taff When peace cannot be found and sleep won't visit me tonight a restless mind that I can't tame how off the floor I call Your name sign of silence and the tears begin to fall I Cry and You're the one who hears me calling I fall so easily but You're there to catch me say the words that heal me I'm safe when I'm with You You touch my eyes and I can see Oh the comfort that You bring when nothing else can reach inside sympathetic friends are all around their soothing words fall to the ground in silence I feel You here with me I Cry and You're the one who hears me calling I fall so easily but You're there to catch me say the words that heal me I'm safe when I'm with You You touch my eyes and I can see I Cry and You're the one who hears me calling I fall so easily but You're there to catch me say the words that heal me I'm safe when I'm with You You touch my eyes and I can see Just make me content wherever You plant me so that I may bloom for Your glory, not mine. and please Lord, can you hurry up the pace, just a little so that I can be at peace. I am putting in that thing you call "fantasy of peace" so that I can feel it so big that it controls my life. I am tired Lord and incomplete. I am tired of doing the job of five people. I am tired, I cry. I know you did not plan this for me and I somehow got assigned all of the jobs for, mom, dad, neighbors mom and dad, all the in the neighboorhoods mom and dad, the finances, the car repairs, the housing accomodations, the cleaning, the provision.... everything Lord!!! Is my turn coming soon, I ask? It makes me sad to read the blogs some days. Indescribeable  (¯`•♥•´¯) ¤`•.♥.•´ ¤ (¯`•♥•´¯) |
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4/27/2006 8:11 pm |
 I can truly relate, sis.....oh how I can relate. GBY. {{{hugs}}}
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I understand some of what you are going through - and I cry, too - but we know to whom we belong! Praise GOD! you will see an outpouring of encouragement come to you, as there are so many here who value your presence - and they will lift you up unto the Father - and He will hold you. Sincerely, Frances
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4/28/2006 4:24 pm |
Hi Sheri, I too have been through years where I couldn't understand what God was doing - my heart yearned with fire to be in the islands and yet God had me in NZ. Why? I couldn't understand. I did go back to the islands and had an enjoyable year there, but also a year packed full of stress and spiritual strife, because as I'm sure you are aware, there can be quite a difference in the way a Christian walk is interpreted by many. Now I am back in NZ. One thing I learned is that God can't make us content, we have to choose it or learn it. For years I wanted God to change that in me in several areas, until I realised that it was about me trusting Him and resting in the knowledge that I am where He wants me to be - the future is His to work out. Your recent blogs about Hawaii stirred up some hunger in me again to be back where it is warm and family are near by, and it's beautiful... and I love those thoughts, I cherish those memories and I look forward to the day when, if He wills, God takes me there again. But I also stopped and thanked God for where I am at now; part-time job, no car, no-one to help me with maintenance, cold weather etc... I am where He has me and in this I am content. I feel for you as you walk this journey and pray that God's revelation and peace will settle on you and you will be content. I don't believe it means giving up the dream or denying the yearning, but it is in believing Him for today. This lesson I also apply to my singleness and desire for marriage. Proverbs 19: 23 The fear of the LORD leads to life: Then one rests content, untouched by trouble. As you come to mind I will pray for you in this. God bless.
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4/28/2006 6:43 pm |
Sherrie. I pray in Jesus name you will have peace....
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OK, OK, the emotions flowed yesterday. I'm human. I greatly appreciate everyone coming by to the blog. Especially, my buddy, Casturecares. Your words are always right on the money with me. Somehow you always say exactly what I need to settle my spirit down. You see, I have so much that I want to accomplish and I feel that I have so little time to do it. I want to travel, do research, study and explore and share my life with someone who shares the same. All of which is on temporary hold right now. You guys know my adventureous spirit and I feel tied in shackles right now. Anyway, enough of that. I guess, I'll have to write a book someday. I agree with everyone and again, thanks for the needed womanly support. I know you understand. Pete, thanks for stopping by the blog. It is not about seeing wether the Lord cares for me or not. It is more about the struggles of singlehood. Granted I feel that I have done a fine job for the cards I was dealt and feel no shame. Failure or lack of trust has been the furthest from my mind. It is about sharing my life's passions and I'm looking forward to the journey not to far into the future. (¯`•♥•´¯) ¤`•.♥.•´ ¤ (¯`•♥•´¯)
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I pray, Sherrie, that my blog doesn't make you cry...
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