My Friends Questions With My Answers
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Posted:Mar 7, 2007 5:34 pm
Last Updated:May 23, 2007 5:29 am 2638 Views
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Monday, 03/05/07
What do you do best?
Love...I love best.
I (woman) was made to be a help mate to one man...her 'Adam'. I was just that, for the most part of my life, and now I'm not. I did everything in my power that a woman could do for a man to make life a happier, less stressful, and pleasant place to be. To the best of my abilities, I put all of my strength into it.
Now that I'm not a wife, I feel lost. I don't know what to do with my life, or how to do it...I need the guidance, strength, comfort, and support of a man who is mine to give all my love to. I don't feel useful, valuable, or worth anything. I feel worthless.
I was made by God to BE a wife...I don't know HOW to be anything else, without having someone to 'be' it for and share it with.
How does a woman who DID that (I think well) for so long, translate that energy into something that "works" for a family, without a husband? How does she regain her ability to "think" for a family when she was rejected and thrown away as if she'd never done anything good in her life...as if she was only worthy to be trampled on and tossed away like rubbish? How does she make her way in the world without a man to guide her, comfort her, and give her the strong support she needs when she feels at a loss for answers or strength to carry on? How does she regain her self esteem and the confidence in her abilities when all of her efforts were thrown away and dashed against the rocks like they were of no value? How does she regain the strength to carry on alone?
Why didn't you already do it? Why did it take you so long for you to listen? Why are you just now getting started? You should have already started before now...why did you wait till this time to start?
I guess that's what baffles me. I guess that's WHY I haven't started before now. I don't believe in myself...my abilities, my strength, my will power when it's ME that I'm doing it for...I don't feel like I'm worth the effort by myself. I guess I don't see the value in ME on my own. I guess, I've lost my 'way', my 'reason' for working so hard, my desire to achieve success in anything when it's just for me...what's the point when there's no one to put my efforts out for? I guess that's why I need someone to stand by my side, hold my hand. I am so willing to stand by my man's side (in life), hold HIS hand, and let him rest his head on my shoulder when he's tired or just needs a hug...I have always been willing and ready to do that, and yet it was AND is counted as not being good enough. I don't feel like I have REASON to carry-on when there's no one to be a help mate to...and sometimes I wonder if there ever will be, for me. I guess the brief encounters that I've had with 'jerky men' has re-damaged me, or damaged me more...broken me, in a way, and re-opened old wounds.
It feels almost like a festering wound that won't heal...an opened wound that has lost it's ability to dry up and heal, only leaving a scar behind as a reminder to not make the same mistake again that caused the wound in the first place. I feel like dry ground that is too dry to receive water...a flower that has faded and wilted and has lost it's beauty and sweet scent...ready to be thrown away.
It's not just physical with me, it's emotional...it's part of the heart of me. It's a deep need to give the loving support that I was made to give, not keep and lavish on myself. It's by God's design that a true woman was made the way that I am....it's what I was made for; to be the help mate of one man...my "Adam". I want to be in the arms of the man I was created for...the one who's rib is missing on account of me...the one who hold's me dear to his heart; I'm part of him, and he's 'missing' his rib...me. 
There's an empty place in my heart that yearns for the love and support of my man...the ear that hears my voice AND my heart like no one else can, the shoulder to lean on and cry on, the hand to hold when I can't find my way and need a little help, the heart that believes in me and speeds up at my very presence...the heart that says, "I know you can do this. I believe in you."
I have a deep need to love....to make my 'Adam' smile at the very knowledge that I love him so dearly and will stand by his side with ALL that is within me to give to him...to make his day; to make his burden's seem 'not so heavy'...the weight on his shoulders to feel a little lighter because he knows that I will stand by him and work feverishly and fervently to help him...the need to be the woman he can't help but to draw strength from when he merely thinks or looks at me...THAT'S what I do best, and I guess, THAT'S why I haven't started...because of the emptiness and the hole that was and is left behind when I was and am tossed away as if I'm of no value as a woman that truly has the willing heart that God planned for a woman to have.
I need to love, and I need my love believed, received, and appreciated for ALL that it is...pure, sincere, and freely given...wanting only to be loved sincerely in return.
That's my answer...so far.
Love, Karen
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Wednesday, March 7, 2007
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Posted:Mar 7, 2007 5:03 pm
Last Updated:May 23, 2007 5:38 am 2606 Views
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I was pouring my heart out to a friend on the telephone the other day and in his alarm he got on to me, I cried silently. It seemed as though he wasn't understanding what I was feeling and I knew he didn't know how to help me. He posed some good questions, but spoke them in such a way that it was painful for me...all I really wanted was a hug, I thought. He wasn't really trying to make me cry, but he felt helpless and was desperatly trying to help me find quick answers to the multi-faceted, complex problems in my life that I was, and am still facing.
Later that evening I couldn't sleep because of the questions he had posed to me, so I sat up thinking, crying, and praying. As I sat and prayed, a lesson the Lord taught me several years ago came to mind along with a new part added to the same lesson.
Lesson 1...from years before:
I was having trouble mediating between my oldest and his dad. The division between them seemed 'set in stone' as they both held on tightly to their side of the dispute. Watching this happen between them left me feeling drained, helpless, and disappointed. Throwing my hands up more than once, I did the only thing I knew to do that I KNEW would work...pray. What came to me went something like this:
Disappointment:
The reason you're feeling disappointment is because you've got your eye-sight set too low. People can only disappoint you when you are expecting (counting on) them to ALWAYS meet your expectations of them. Your sights are set too low...look up, and you won't be disappointed at the results.
Lesson 2...from two nights ago:
Inspiration:
If you look to people for your inspiration...even a very good friend who usually inspires and brings comfort to you...you'll dry up and die inside. Get your inspiration from Me and you...together...and you won't be disappointed.
At that point, the 'first' lesson came back to my mind: the freedom-inducing truth in the lesson, the smile that crossed my lips at the very fact that He cared enough to answer me in my distress, the relief I felt, the comfort of His arms holding me up, the knowledge that I was NOT facing this problem alone...one of the moments in time when I felt presence and care of, and was taught by my Father in Heaven.
Though the tears still lay on my cheeks, I had to smile all over again. The tenderness, love, and care I felt from God when He taught me the first lesson washed over me all over again; it was like a spring rain. He is STILL my very present help in a time of trouble .
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Time to Update; I Guess It
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Posted:Feb 2, 2007 11:23 pm
Last Updated:May 23, 2007 5:42 am 2834 Views
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Life is better for us in some ways, but in other ways still much too hard...how we make it I cannot tell, EXCEPT that I know that our strength lies in the Father...in Jesus.
Hunger still abounds at times, and our house is cold in most of the rooms...BUT we thank God for the heat that we DO HAVE this year...last year, we had none. SO, some is better.
The 'wilderness' is hard, to say the least...I suppose we'll come out on top, since God IS in control of our lives.
Sometimes it's hard not being in control of our own lives, BUT if we can only grasp the FACT that GOD is IN CONTROL of ALL things...that's the one great truth that I can share with you all, based on ALL that my family has gone AND is going through...we EXPECT that God will bring good out of all that we have gone through.
We love you all and think of you often, though my appearance here at BC has not been often for a few months, now...you are NEVER far from our hearts; PLEASE KNOW that.
God bless His people.
Love,
Karen & Sons
SMILES work better than frowns. KS
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Something Special to I Want to Share - Oct. 25, 2006
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Posted:Oct 25, 2006 7:43 am
Last Updated:May 10, 2024 11:45 pm 2863 Views
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Another special email from my trusted girl / neighbor friend:
I found this special, and I want to share it with my BC friends because YOU are so special to me. Enjoy it, and don't hesitate to pass it on to whoever you feel led to. I just want you all to know just how special you are to FIRST, God...and SECOND then me and my boys. We love you people...you've helped us through trying and difficult times...thank you.
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A well-known speaker started off his seminar by
holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked,
"Who would like this $20 bill?"
Hands started going up.
He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you
but first, let me do this."
He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.
He then asked, "Who still wants it?"
Still the hands were up in the air.
Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"
And he dropped it on the ground
and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.
He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
"Now, who still wants it?"
Still the hands went into the air.
My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson.
No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it
because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled,
and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make
and the circumstances that come our way.
We feel as though we are worthless.
But no matter what has happened or what
will happen, you will never lose your value.
Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased,
you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.
The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE.
You are special~~~~ Don't EVER forget it."
So, count your blessings, not your problems .
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Hay Day - Saturday, October 21, 2006
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Posted:Oct 23, 2006 10:20 am
Last Updated:Dec 11, 2006 12:49 pm 2702 Views
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As planned, we went to pick up the plywood and the boys shoes before noon.
Back home, we unloaded the plywood, fixed lunch, and prepared for our next run. The boys re-shoed themselves, and checked on the animals while I made hay calls.
The very first and cheapest call:  We plan to take out the big trailer and bring home a resell load next weekend...this week, the man's barn driveway is under water so it would be a mess to get around.
The second call, I left a message.
The third call, I got my hay...the FIRST hay anyway. NOW here's where the fun begins.
I'll finish this later, ya'll...something just came up that I need to tend to...sorry, but I'm not gonna lose what I've written so far.
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These Are Funny. :))
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Posted:Oct 23, 2006 4:45 am
Last Updated:May 10, 2024 11:45 pm 2657 Views
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These were sent to me by my neighbor / girlfriend. Leave it to Leah to start a Monday morning with humor.  The boys and I thought they were a lot of fun, and wanted to share them with ya'll. Enjoy.
And men, don't get mad...it's all in fun...we gotta love you guys; God made ya.
Love from,
Karen and Sons
PS MY favorite is the one in bold hot pink.
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One day my housework-challenged husband decided to wash his Sweat-shirt. Seconds after he stepped into the laundry room, he shouted to me, "What setting do I use on the washing machine?"
"It depends," I replied. "What does it say on your shirt?"
He yelled back, "University of Oklahoma."
And they say blondes are dumb...
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A couple is lying in bed. The man says,
"I am going to make you the happiest woman in the world."
The woman replies, "I'll miss you..."
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"It's just too hot to wear clothes today," Jack says as he stepped out of the shower, "honey, what do you think the neighbors would think if I mowed the lawn like this?"
"Probably that I married you for your money," she replied.
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He said ‒“Shall we try swapping positions tonight?”
She said ‒“That's a good idea... you stand by the ironing board while I sit on the sofa and fart.”
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Q: What do you call an intelligent, good looking, sensitive man?
A: A rumor
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Dear Lord,
I pray for Wisdom to understand my man; Love to forgive him; And Patience for his moods. Because, Lord, if I pray for Strength, I'll beat him to death
AMEN
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A man and his wife, now in their 60's, were celebrating their 40th wedding anniversary. On their special day a good fairy came to them and said that because they had been so good that each one of them could have one wish.
The wife wished for a trip around the world with her husband.
Whoosh! Immediately she had airline/cruise tickets in her hands.
The man wished for a female companion 30 years younger...
Whoosh...immediately he turned ninety!!!
Gotta love that fairy!
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Q: Why do little boys whine?
A: They are practicing to be men.
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Q: What do you call a handcuffed man?
A: Trustworthy.
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Q: What does it mean when a man is in your bed gasping for breath and calling your name?
A: You did not hold the pillow down long enough.
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Q: Why do men whistle when they are sitting on the toilet?
A: It helps them remember which end they need to wipe.
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Q: How do you keep your husband from reading your e-mail?
A: Rename the mail folder "Instruction Manuals"
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UPDATE #3 - Karen & Sons
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Posted:Oct 21, 2006 1:36 am
Last Updated:Dec 11, 2006 12:56 pm 2869 Views
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Not only are 3 of my past due credit bills...5 + months each bill...been put back on track, but the MOST of the fees and charges have been waived, AND / OR the finance charges brought back down to affordable.
A fourth account, which I had thought was about 3 months past due and had been charged fees...turns out that it wasn't delinquent at all...it had deferred payments.  I had been hesitating to open the bill since I couldn't pay it, and there hadn't even been a need to avoid looking at it...that one would have been a cinch a month or two ago.
On my other accounts, I'm being offered deals that are really very good. God has given me favor in the eyes of the banks I have thus far dealt with. So far it’s been nothing short of miraculous. Praise God!
God has protected my credit, which He had led and helped me establish to 'excellent' over a 10 + year period of time. I'm a little bit ashamed of the fact that I was concerned at all. What He says He'll do, He WILL do...we can trust Him to keep His word ALWAYS.
It's really rather fun to me to call up the banks and say, "Okay...I'm ready to pay...what do you have for me?" They throw me a deal, and I make a decision as to whether it's something I want to do or not. So far, I've pretty much gotten either what I ask for, OR a better deal than I expected when I called with my money in hand.
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INCOME: BETTER THAN back to normal.
Just today, after going out to do business and get print outs and statements, I discovered one place cancelled part of my debt...the statement says PAID: $948 BALANCE: $0...PAID IN FULL.
The original debt was about $1648. $700 was erased off of my account. I had the lady search; I told her what I had owed...there was NO RECORD of that amount EVER BEING OWED. I told her, "But I have the letter at home that was sent to me." She searched again...she called her supervisor and she also searched. Then the lady handed me my printouts and said, "There's no record of a letter stating that amount." THAT IS JUST TOO COOL ya'll. Somehow, God cancelled that debt, and there is no paper record to show how He did it.
To top it all off...the lady said that I have over $1300 owed back to me from the same account. HOW COOL IS THAT?
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Jeff has been fed 3 very nourishing lunches this week at the expense of others at work...THREE TIMES. Today, WE got to taste his take-home tray, which happened to be an extra on top of what he had at lunch. It was good too.
Besides that, the guys at work are giving him their leftovers, so he brings it home to the pigs. We've been praying for some help slopping our pigs. WOW!
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Since we brought the horses and donkeys home we have not been able to find hay anywhere around our area. It's been another bad year for hay, it was worse than last year I'm told, and it's expensive when you can find it.
I've been calling for prayer, putting ads in the paper, searching papers, putting the need on swap-and-shop, and getting out the word to people to help me find some hay.
Between yesterday and today...I have about 25 numbers lined up to call for hay tomorrow. Some is even cheap...but the distance will be the determining factor for WHICH hay and price we go for.
WOW! Needless to say, we are excited...no telling what we'll find when we actually hook up the trailer and go to get the hay.
Hey, I don't think we are going to be shocked if / when we come home with more than we bargained AND planned to pay for. We'll see what God has planned.
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God's working wonders here! It's exciting, refreshing, and TOTALLY AWESOME of God to restore us with just SO MUCH FUN.
Well, once again it is late and I need to sleep, but I was feeling so thrilled inside...I just couldn't wait to share with ya'll.
Besides, so many blessings are being poured out left and right AND by many interesting means and ways, that I have to keep writing...I don't want to miss a thing...and I want all of you here at BC who have faithfully offered up prayers and loving support for my family, that I don't want you to miss a thing either. You shared in our burdens; now we want to share with you the fruits of your love and faithfulness toward us. There's no words to express how grateful we are for all of you...all we can offer is the fruit of your labor. AND our love to each and every one...thank you all from the bottom of our hearts.
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HOUSE:
FRONT KITCHEN FLOOR: We will pick up the supplied plywood this morning...OH, and the boys shoes...we picked up my shoes Friday.
BONUS: My girlfriend down the road was led this morning...early on chat...to send me a man this weekend...a man that she is NEWLY EXPECTING to come up and interview with her for ranch work. This guy JUST popped up...she hasn't even met him yet, but she said she talked to him Thursday and that he is moving up from Beaumont, TX and needs a job and a place to stay. The man can fix just about anything...uhhhh...God??
She asked me if I would allow her to help, and if it was okay to send him up here work on my winterizing problems. I said, If God is leading you to do that, then I would be honored to receive the gift...thank you." She said, "Thank you."
She intends to have him NOT ONLY help put the floor in, but also to fix the broken windows, and maybe even the furnace so that we can have heat this winter ...unlike last winter...we nearly froze when the temp dropped to single digits...BUT we didn't. God's doing, not ours.
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We must learn to receive when God wants to bless others to help us...giving is not the only way to be blessed by God. He wants us to be able to receive when He chooses for us to be on that end of life.
Since He taught me that and I received the lesson in my heart...back in the 80s during another Job trial in my life...I have had nothing but blessings - both small and great - when I allow others to receive God's blessing when they choose to bless me.
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Seriously, I have to stop...I think. So much I want to share...can't get it all out at once...it's all happening so fast, and with such minute details. I can only give you pieces...and the pieces can't do it justice...not in words.
God bless ya'll IN HIM.
Karen
PS No proofreading tonight again...I hope I didn't mess up too badly.
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EMOTION WORDS: Exhilarated...AWED by God's goodness.
Beautiful, Bouncy, Calm, Cheerful, Content, Courageous, Eager, Ecstatic, Energetic, Enthusiastic, Excited, Giggly, Good, Grateful, Happy, High, Hopeful, Impressed, Jubilant, Loved, Mellow, Okay, Peaceful, Perky, Pleased, Powerful, Refreshed, Rejuvenated, Relaxed, Relieved, Satisfied, Thankful, Thoughtful...
...Need I go on?
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Karen & Sons Update 2 for October 19, 2006 - There's More :)
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Posted:Oct 19, 2006 9:20 pm
Last Updated:Oct 23, 2006 5:10 am 2639 Views
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THIS IS REALLY COOL.
When we went to pick out the boys shoes, the 2 ladies who helped us were so impressed with the boys good behavior...AND they just plain enjoyed their antics so much, that when we came back later with Jeff so he could try on his pair, we were blessed with a BONUS to go with the shoes. It's such a blessing when you see God letting my boys find favor in the eyes of strangers...it tells me that God also is pleased with them and is caring for the little stuff they need.
Here's some stuff that the ladies got a kick out of.
First, the boys didn't just run around and make a mess of their department. They were courteous, polite, and respectful to the ladies. They talked plainly about what they needed help with, smiled, laughed, and wasn't the least bit shy about talking to them. I was proud, and thankful to God for letting me just stand back and enjoy the fruits of my labor with my ...what a blessing!
John was fussing at David for being embarrassed about the socks he didn't want the ladies to see. They were already dirty from the insides of the boots that he was wearing.
John to David: "Ah, stop being embarrassed about your socks."
David to John: "Well, they weren't dirty when I put them on at the house."
John to David: Yeah well. It's because you guys don't ever wear socks in your boots. Now take off your boots. Look at it this way...maybe that'll teach you to wear socks with your shoes from now on, if you know you're gonna have to show the dirty one's to ladies you don't even know. Then you won't have to ever have to be embarrassed about your socks again." "Now take off your boot." It was just too funny to watch, and the ladies were amused as well.
Ben was the only one who couldn't have the steel toe boots because they didn't carry his size, so we had to get a similar looking pair without steel toes. The last time we bought work boots we couldn't get David steel toes either and that bothered him that he and Ben had to have regular shoes. He had said, "Yeah, but we work with the horses too...what about our toes?"
So anyway, we thought that maybe Ben was feeling bad being singled out for 'boy' boots, instead of 'man' boots. We were trying to make him feel good about his boots. Well, he stood there calmly and made some very intelligent, matter-of-factly statements to us. The following statements demonstrate to us just how different two people can think about things, even though they are brought up in the same environment and with the same teaching.
Ben said, "Well I don't really care that I don't get steel toe. I don't care about that at all. I'M not feeling bad...I'm not the one bothered by my boots anyway. It's you all that are feeling bad; I happen to like my boots."
JUST TOO COOL FOR AN EIGHT YEAR OLD.
Well, after work we brought Jeff back to try on the size that we had picked for him. Before the lady went to the back to get the shoes, she brought me a sealed Wal-mart bag with a receipt attached to the top and said, "My boss wanted me to give this to you." The bag had new socks for the boys inside. The 2 ladies had pitched in together and bought the boys socks.
You know, I felt so blessed. AND so did Jeff. He had just gone into the store to buy some new socks because he was embarrassed that his socks smelled bad from working in oil all day. He had said that he didn't need socks, but that he was ashamed that the ones he had on were going to stink badly. I told him to just go buy the socks, so he did...but he felt bad because he didn't buy his brothers any.
I had put some needs on a mental list before the Lord yesterday; among those needs were new socks for the boys. I didn't know when I could buy them...AND I didn't have to. God supplied the need sooner than I expected...I hadn't even put the stuff on paper yet.
THE BONUS: ALL of the boys boots match in color and style...maybe a girl thing, but a blessing none the less. The boys are pleased about it too though...so maybe some guys DO think about stuff like that, huh?
So maybe it is just us who worries about stuff like that, because it WASN'T him ...he's happy and THAT makes David happy.
Ok so when we went to pick up Jeff from work and were about to tell him all about what God had done for us today, when he said, "OH I forgot! I was gonna get some of the leftover birthday cake...a co-worker party...AFTER the food; and it was good too." "Sorry...but it was."
I said, “OKAY, I guess God must have wanted us to have cake for our "new shoe party" after all...so let's eat it."
See were had planned that tomorrow after we all have our new shoes that we're gonna have a party...I make a party out of all of our blessings.
Anyway, we haven't been able to take long walks together for about a year due to one circumstance or another, and I've ALWAYS walked with my ...it's always been a great pleasure for us all; we all look forward to it. Ok, so we plan to take a long-awaited, family trek through our woods, and down the road...it's gonna be a thrill!
Hey, the possibilities are endless now that we will all have good shoes to walk in...we're anticipating good things.
We have since decided that after we get the plywood and the hay...maybe on Sunday...we are going back to the country town (historic) Mark and I went to this morning to have my shoes fixed. We ate at a country cafe...the kind where old men sit and crack on each other...nice stuff; nothing harmful.
Anyway, the town has a gazebo picnic table in the middle of main street. Main street has historical buildings and cool shops that are fascinating to look at. So, we want to spend the day window shopping and just checking out this town. Then, we will take a picnic lunch (fried chicken, cole slaw, and rolls) and eat on main street. WOW, I can't wait...I don't know when we ever did anything quite like that; never could with the ex around...just had to enjoy life at home...so I worked to make it a party, and God showed me how to do that...I have no 'bored' .
God first used 2 ladies who were strangers to locate the money to provide the shoes AND the kitchen floor plywood. AND THEN, used 2 more ladies to buy the new socks to go with the shoes...and the new floor.
He cares for the simplest of things. The boys could have done without the socks, but obviously God wanted them to have them. AND later, we could have done without the cake to go with our walking party, but I guess He just wanted to 'sweeten' the memory. Now THAT was very sweet...don't ya think?
Ok, enough for tonight...we have a fully blessed day ahead of us IF God blesses us to see the sunrise...I have to go to sleep now. Good night all.
OH, STAY TUNED FOR THE NEW ADDITIONS TO THE WEDDING PLANS.
LOVE,
KAREN & SONS
PS Sorry if I have any errors in this...or worse...repeats. I have to sleep...no time to proof read. SO MUCH MORE TO TELL OF GOD'S BLESSIINGS...AND THEY'RE STILL COMING. Prayer changes things.
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KAREN & SONS UPDATE - OCTOBER 19, 2006
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Posted:Oct 19, 2006 2:39 pm
Last Updated:Oct 23, 2006 5:14 am 2632 Views
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The windows of Heaven have opened to us! Praise God!
As of today, OCTOBER 19, 2006:
1. FOOD continues to be supplied for our household - a steady three plus weeks now AFTER God sent the rescue ship to feed our starving bodies.
The bonus: VITAMIN SUPPLEMENTS for rebuilding.
2. ALL of our utilities, telephone, car insurance payments have been paid on time. NOTHING was ever turned off or lost.
3. My CAR still resides at my house, though it's four plus payments in the red...4 months and 13 days. Makes us wonder just what God plans to do in this.
A few weeks ago, I received a call telling me that the finance company was coming to get the car if I didn't pay the then 4 payments past due in full within 24 hours...we took all of our stuff out of the car that day in preparation for the loss...THEY DIDN'T COME.
One week later, I received a letter telling me to get the account up to date including the fees...they gave me 10 days to do that. OCTOBER 5th made the 10th day...
The bonus: THE CAR IS STILL HERE. 
4. Today: 7 BRAND NEW, WELL-MADE pairs of shoes.
The bonus: All 7 of us wearing new shoes on the SAME DAY ...THIS is exceptional to us; no one has to do without, wait for their turn, go barefooted, borrow a brother's shoes, or feel bad about another one of us not having a pair of needed shoes. We are celebrating with a long-desired, "shoe-breakin' party"...together!
5. Eight sheets of plywood for our kitchen floor.
One of the coolest things about numbers 4 and 5 is the source...WHERE it came from. Here's a briefing:
My ex and his followers called CPS...for the second time since my ex abandoned us...in order to try once again to destroy me, and Jeff, and to be able to rid himself of the younger 5 boys altogether.
Jeff was accused of abuse after he and John had a 'man-to-man', 'let's take it outside' (behind my back) fist fight one night.
Tiredness, stress, discouragement, and mostly ongoing starvation is what brought the fight on.
The boy's dad saw it as an opportunity to get vengeance on Jeff for choosing to stay with me and the boys to help raise his abandoned younger brothers (by Jeff's own choice to follow God's lead).
His dad has hated him ever since and has tried to have him killed, and has also tried to punish him in all sorts of ways...by using humiliation, shame, and anything other evil tactic that he could think of JUST BECAUSE Jeff made the choice to stay with us. His dad had promised him 'consolations' (to so-called help Jeff) if he would abandon me and the boys...Jeff refused on the basis that it was wrong...that we needed him more than dad did. Jeff was disowned by his dad and older 4 brothers for staying...BUT God has blessed the young man, and I am as proud as punch of the boy! He is a that excels the norm.
I was then accused of two accounts of neglect. His reasoning: BECAUSE support had been cut off, my income went into a slump on top of that...THUS, hardship and deprivation...unmet needs.
My ex had hoped that me and Jeff would both go to jail, and the younger 5 boys would be removed from the home and placed in foster homes...he doesn't want them.
INSTEAD, God not only cleared us, but used the source of part of our distress to supply some of our needs, some new friends at CPS, AND a chance to get to testify of HIS goodness and faithfulness to us!
On Sept. 27, AFTER the one and a half month investigation, Jeff and I received the determination letter: NO ABUSE FOUND and BOTH ALLEGATIONS OF NEGLECT - RULED OUT .
The bonus: CPS located the funds to pay for 8 sheets of plywood for our kitchen floor, and ALL-AROUND, WELL-MADE WORK BOOTS...steel toe, water and oil resistent...NOT just a cheap pair of shoes.
Isn't that just too cool ya'll.
HALLELUJAH!! PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME.
Now, we look for hay...our horses and donkeys came back home where they belong - this month.
God is good, ya'll!
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Update on Email
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Posted:Oct 2, 2006 5:23 pm
Last Updated:Oct 20, 2006 4:58 pm 2460 Views
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Ok, I'm about to get caught up, but still a little ways to go on the back stuff; 20 or so left to go. Most make me smile, and a few prayer requests and cries for help have made me cry because of my humaness, but that's ok...God fixed those. I can see God's hand in some of the ones that have been saved.
I apologize once again to everyone who has written to me, and seemingly have been forgotten...NONE OF YOU are forgotten in my heart and mind.
I just hope I didn't lose any of the back mail. If I did and I missed you, please write again. If you wrote to me from June 12 and forward, you're about to hear from me.
God has been very gracious to me and I believe has 'saved' some of the back email for this time in my life, and maybe yours. I've been very blessed.
Just wanted you all to know that I DON'T throw it out...you're all too special to me for that.
Karen
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