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SayWhat 71F
77 posts
6/18/2024 7:32 pm
God, I want to be Beautiful

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SayWhat 71F
102 posts
6/30/2024 10:22 am

Folks, as boring as my drivel may be, I need to document things, and I'm doing it from memory... to also commit to memory such things that I mustn't forget.

I haven't talked about this man and the particular website situation to anyone, but last night what I did was video recorded my plight on my iPhone. I simply talked at it as if I were talking to a friend. And it was most revealing to watch back, seeing my discomfort, even tears, over someone whom I allowed to mess with my head.

And saying this again keeps me accountable. I don't plan to go back onto that site, unless it's to acquire what I wrote for safekeeping on cloud, perhaps.

Why do we women suffer pain over men? I'm grateful to be a Christian, because I can allow Jesus to intervene.

Please pray for me, as I'm needing strength to stick with my recent man decision. Thank you.

SayWhat 71F
102 posts
7/12/2024 2:41 pm

...and, the longer I stay away from that site, although I've gone on there a couple of times, the more I see how I was allowing myself to be treated a certain way. What I must examine is why I would be drawn to someone who could potentially be dangerous. I guess I thought he had his act together initially, but as things became more familiar, one thing... I will not tolerate denigrating comments about women. He has made these generalizations that are now cumulative, and though possibly not intended to be personal toward me, I take them that way to the point that I want less to do with him as I continue to stay away, avoid.

I prayed to God about him, the site in question, and the administrator of it too. I'm on a daily basis leaving this in God's capable hands, which surprisingly has freed me up to get some necessary things done. I've had business back-burnered regarding my new vehicle and now I'm all caught up. It tells me that God wants me to see that it's not a bad thing to endeavor to have a somewhat seamless, happy life.

I'm too old to be tussling with a grouchy man anyway; if he isn't nice, then he's got to go.