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This is hard Probably I've picked a difficult subject for my first blog ever, but it has hit a little close to home today and I feel strongly about it. In January I lost my younger brother after he had an accident at work. He was in a coma for three weeks. Toward the end he was put on DNR status (do not resuscitate)by my parents who were told he would have diminished brain function. His feeding tube and oxegyn were left on, but when I asked the nurse about suctioning him she said that they were not allowed to do anything but make him comfortable. I looked over at my brother's attempts to gasp for air and asked the nurse if that looked comfortable to her. She suctioned him and he was able to breathe with much less effort. He died that evening, but I have never felt that anything that was done for him was for nothing. Today I am reminded again of decisions like this by the story of the young lady the same age as my brother who died this morning after a long battle by her family over her feeding tube being removed. A women had come on tv when they removed it and told the nation that dehydration was painless and that the young lady would not feel any discomfort. Obviously, this woman had never been severely dehydrated before. I have, and it was the sickest I had ever been. It was torture. Food is not medicine, it is an essential part of everyone's life. Unfortunately, there are many that disagree with me. So even though I trust my family and my Lord, I plan to put in writing exactly what my wishes are should I be in this circumstance. I do not believe that this is me "not trusting the Lord to take care of things," as a few people have tried to convince me. It is me not wanting to be starved in front of my family for not being able to feed myself. I am not afraid of going to heaven--I look forward to seeing the face of Jesus and forever praising my Lord. Ultimately, it is my family who will have to do the most suffering, and hopefully this will make my passing easier and less painful for them. I pray the Lord blesses each of you today. 
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4/1/2005 6:39 am |
For some reason yesterday I copied this quote in regards to this same subject.. hmm maybe just for this post.. dunno.. but I am gonna paste it here.. (though thankfully I have never had to deal with something like this) Comfortably numb Twenty-five years ago, after an accident, my brother was said to have only brainstem function. One neurologist, one opinion, one quick decision. We took him off of life support, because we were told he would never recover. Eleven days went by without much response. My sister and I, 19-years-old, played a radio for him anyway. His favorite song came on, The Wall: "I have become comfortably numb." Chills went up and down our spines and we watched a single tear trickle down his face. His heart stopped the next morning. I wanted to take him home and take care of him, but there was no way I could at 19. When I look back at it now, there was nothing we could have done. But that tear still haunts me. –Lisa Klein, Plainview, Neb. Peace, Anne Marie
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