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This Glass Ceiling... do you understand the feeling? I am so tired of caring so much that it nearly hurts... and no one ever really seems to notice, I am tired of opening my heart and pouring it out giving my all when obviously it means nothing. I am so tired of being drawn to guys who must have some form of ADHD- who will flatter and tease for awhile and then become utterly distracted by nearly anything shiny and new that catches their eye. What's wrong with me... what's wrong with them? Why am I even still here? It's like I have some big blind spot and everyone sees it but me... and no one is brave enough to tell me. What's wrong with me and what am I missing? Why do I keep hitting this glass ceiling over and over again? Am I really so odd, so hard to relate to- do I intimidate? Why is this all so hard for me to comprehend? Do I really make it difficult? Am I really this hard to love? This is not a rhetorical thing please tell me- someone... I am ready to hear it- and I want to know- I need to know- can anyone relate to these feelings?  God's love reaches all- growing means thinking outside the box... love one another |
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6/3/2008 3:09 am |
I think we all (male and female) feel this way at times. I constantly analyze everthing i say afterwards. What ive discovered is...I am my own worst enemy. I try not to be a "social cripple" and i know i need to work on some of my character defects. You may be running into men who need to feel complimented constantly instead of reassured. (is that the same thing?) We have never met but from reading your blogs....Your alright! ‘HE will rule them with an iron scepter.’... He treads the winepress of the fury of the wrath of God Almighty.... On HIS robe and on HIS thigh HE has this name written:... KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS."
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6/3/2008 1:26 am |
To be really honest, Honey, it could very possibly be that you are one of the type of women that men who have a personality disorder called Narcissistic Personality Disorder are drawn to. It may not be you who has the problem at all. They hone in on women who are really loving, caring, give their all... because these men are completely self-centered and they realize nobody would want them or put up with them except women like you. Im not saying anything negative about you, only positive. They use you as a victim. They use you for something termed as "Narcissistic Supply" getting feelings of love, admiration, etc from other people like a drug addict uses his drugs. Then as soon as they perceive that you are kind of "on" to them, they dont want you anymore and will seek this from someone new. They will dump you like yesterday's trash and find someone else, leaving you with wondering What did I do wrong? And no matter how hard you try you will never figure out WHAT you did wrong because you're not the one who did anything wrong to start with. Maybe I am off base with this but BOY does this sound familiar! and I hope you dont think Im out of line for suggesting it. You ought to go to google and just type in Narcissitic Personality Disorder and just read up a little on it and SEE if some of these guy you mention fit the description. Take Care. And make sure you REALLY REALLY get to know someone before making a committment to them. Because you see, these type of men SENSE if you have been through this scenario before, it causes you to think less of yourself because you think YOU caused it. They pick up on your weakened condition and realize you are that type of person. They pick out the most kind hearted, tolerant women. Keep your chin up Honey, and do not sell yourself short. Be CAREFUL next time who you get involved with. Jn:14:15: If ye love me, keep my commandments. --Jesus.
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