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I am who I say I am In Matthew 16:15 we see Jesus ask His disciples who do people say that "I am"? Why was Jesus so concerned with what others thought? But more interesting is Peters reply. He acknowledged Jesus as the Messiah, yet later when push came to shove he denied he was the Christ three times. What a funny contradiction. Surfing the chat rooms I am continually faced with people who are genuine, people who are overtly not who they say they are, and everyone being whoever they want to be. I ask myself "What type of person ends up on BigChurch?" My whole life is an illusion. It has been turned upside down in the most unbelievable way possible. From an amazing life that many envied to total destruction.....loosing my house,car,money, friends, family, marriage, and it seems everything in between is all gone in the matter of minutes. My ex just walked out of a 16 year marriage and left behind 4 little boys in an extremely hurtful and embarrassing affair. It turns out that it was all a lie. He was one person at home, one person at work, a different person at Church, and now tells me he was never himself. It was, as it seems, all an illusion. So where does this leave me. God is the only one im left to put my trust in. Is He who He says He is? Did He really send His , Jesus the Messiah? In verse 17 we see Jesus answer Peter, "Blessed, happy, fortunate, and to be envied, are you Peter, for flesh and blood have not revealed this to you, but My Father Who is in heaven. Over the last two months I have meet people online and had a chance to get to know them and im still left wondering, are they really who they say they are? Is it all an illusion? Is this just fantasy? They are Christ to me. They have been a shoulder to lean on. They have been a source of healing, a source of friendship, a source of recreation. But im still left wondering, are they who they say they are? Is their photo real? Are they really the person in life that the internet releases them and allows them to be??//?? I know Who Christ the Messiah is without a shadow of doubt. His Spirit has revealed all that He is to me in my life. He is the only thing left when push comes to shove. The fruit of His Spirit is hopefully evident to all. When I am lacking hope, i find it in Him. When I am lonely, hurting, weary, He is my comfort and my strength. I am so so fortunate that He is who He says He is and that I am privileged enough to have God the Father of the universe reveal Himself to me. I am who I say I am. Hopelessly lost,, but in Him I am found. Desperately hurting,, but in Him all things are made knew and I am healed. Scared beyond belief,, but in Him I find my shelter house , my refuge, and my Salvation. I let my word be my word. I promise and I keep them. I am honest and trusting. I am who I am. There is no other thing in the world I want for. But the God of the universe to be my all my only thing. I am His . Mel |
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hello mel, thanks for sharing and welcome to blogland, lots of wonderful people in here and some have gone through similiar things that you are going through, i will add you to my prayer, cheers and God bless you May the Lord bless you and keep you
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GBY Mel!!! May the Lord heal you... and pour His love, peace, and joy upon your family and you!!! Protect Mel and comfort her soul Lord Jesus!!! Amen. Welcome to BC blogland!!! michael Let the SON shine!!! michael
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1/4/2008 10:53 pm |
Hi Mel; What a heartfelt post. At times such as you are in now, it seems like there are many more questions then answers, the most frequent of which is "Why me?" Everything has a reason, although you may not see that for some time to come. You have a lot of sorting, grieving, and soul searching ahead. You will doubt yourself a thousand times, and will likely doubt God just as much. It's all part of the program. A few tidbits I can give you that will hurry along your emotional healing. 1, Pray for him, (a lot) even if you don't want to. 2, Forgive him, forgive God, but most of all forgive yourself. 3, Begin dating as soon as you feel comfortable, but make them friendship dates, not romance dates. 4, Build yourself emotional, and spiritual support networks. If you can't get support from your church, then you need to switch churches. 5, Finally, and perhaps most important. Don't allow anyone to judge you over your failed marriage. It's behind you now, and God is faithful to forgive what we repent of. Rom. 8:1 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. In Christ Byron Isaiah 66:2b; But to this one I will look, To him who is humble and contrite of spirit, and who trembles at My word.
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Lots of good folks here on BC blogs and yes most are who they say they are here. Praying for you and welcome to BC Blogs. -T Born Again Christians only need to chew, It's those left behind that have to swallow it.
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Hi Mel, Blessings to you. Been missing you at study. Hope you are well. I have had the same thoughts Mel. I have been so discouraged that i want to quit coming to BC. You have a tender and sweet spirit Mel, please don't get bitter. His glory77 gave you some great advice and it's biblical. Blessings to you Mel. Keep me in prayer please as I have been sick and am afraid I am not doing well, my PET scan in Feb 4 my 2 year mark of cancer free. Hope it comes out well. Bye and love you in Him. Kenny
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