Blog : Sometimes you know..that you know, and I am not going back to egypt

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9/15/2011 10:05 am

Sometimes you know..that you know, and I am not going back to egypt

God has blessed us. He gave us this life to live. Choices whether to live, stagnate or hope it all ends soon. We have all been in places in our lives where all three of these pertained to us. Life has its' ups and downs. Many times we find ourselves begging for God to intervene. In most of those cases we see how he does and has, but it is usually not in the ways that we want to see. But my conclusion is, he loves us. he understands what is happening better than we do. He will make a way, his way. If we just invited his will and trusted for that, it is more than enough. In fact it is much better and of more faith than us trying to impart to him what we think needs to happen, or how we think maybe this is wrong.

In politics I do a lot of research, the why, the situations and the such. Just as in life I want to understand the emotional dynamics of things; I also want to understand the dynamics of a politicians decisions and the circumstances that went into what happened.The real truth is more important than conclusions drawn from the situation itself.

Christianity is simple.Its about Jesus. You either believe he is God or not. In doing so you believe he came to take away the particion that sin played in separating you from God. We are called to allow him to live through us. Thats it. God indwelling when we ask forgiveness and receive Christ as savior. Then allowing him to live through us.

Its supposed to be about relationship between us and God. Our lives should be about who Jesus is in our everyday aspects of our lives. Its not about wishing for him to come back to rescue us from the very lives he blessed us with. That is slapping him in the face and basically saying to him that "thanks" but no thanks. Personally, I am so sick of people having their heads in the sky and resenting life when this life is a gift. Christianity, when in fatalism is just like the servant who is given a talent and goes and buries it. The talent is useless. It is not being used to edify and gain in the spiritual Kingdom, nor in the physical. If this life is such a paltry thing, why did God create a beautiful nature around us that is so in sync ? Why? Life makes no sense that way. To me it is an incredible lack of real faith to not embrace this life and the relationship here and now in Jesus. I have lost friends over this. But, I cant stand this fatalistic ridiculous outlook. I am ready for Jesus return based on what he did on that cross, and my acceptance of that. Not because of anything I can ever do. Its just that simple.

Just like other people, I have wasted portions of my life. I have allowed dreams to die. I have messed up. But recently I have been given a new lease on life. God has placed someone in my life that has raised up the mostly dead dreams of my youth. She desires to serve God. Perhaps in some form of ministry. The more I got to know her, the more I could tell that my initial thoughts about her was really the Lord showing me...awake. Arise, you can dream dreams and have visions again.Stand up, shake off the dust and live.LIVE. Do not go through the motions anymore.

God has a plan for us.We hear it all the time. Sometimes when we least expect it, he just lays it out there for you.From the moment I first saw Meriam, a special place in my heart was open wide. Then as time revealed and we got to know each other more and more...I just realized stuff. In life they say that you choose a mate that is in someway like your mom or dad. I knew she was like my mom. She wants to be a social worker and a soul winner for Jesus. She is very disciplined and focused on what she sees God doing with her life. My mom was the type of person that if you felt unloved and walked into a room full of people,when you left you would feel loved. I see that in Meriam. I see her heart.

Each day I see more and more. When I ask, I hear Gods spirit say... just let me show you. I feel totally accepted, appreciated and loved by Meriam. I have this peace that transcends my excitement that I have inside.My prayer has been for a long time, can I have someone to love dear lord that will love me back? Someone that I want just as bad as they want me? I know how hard that is. It has been a lifetime in the making for me.Now, even with the excitement, I am content and just know that I know that here is someone I can serve the Lord with. Have a family with and fulfill dreams and visions because our hearts are on the same page.