Blog : Dawn Transformed

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9/22/2008 8:10 am

Dawn Transformed

Name: Dawn
Age: 32

If you have been directed to my page because of a woman named Elemay, handle "ele12957", please read my site, go to my web page and judge me for yourself. I will not waste time and defend myself against baseless accusations. God is my defender and I trust in Him.

My husband is Curtis. His Youtube handle is "YouThoughtYouKnew." This is his only page Curtis is my earthly husband and I love him very much.

MY TESTIMONY
I was a , also known as an or . Although I was not a "street girl" and my were mostly wealthy men, it made no difference to my soul. My soul was being torn apart with each passing day. I was doing drugs and drinking alcohol to make myself dead to the pain. I never became an addict to any substance because I knew that the I serviced wanted "clean, healthy" looking women and I was careful about my appearance. There were many nights I cried in my bed, alone, just wanting to be loved. I hated men and everything about them - they were all cheaters and liars to me, manipulators.
I wasn't saved, and had no concept of what true salvation was. I believed in God and Jesus, but I was not born-again, nor even a follower of Him. I figured God was out there somewhere and had no time for me.
I reached a breaking point one day. Nothing specific happened, I just reached a point where I couldn't take life anymore. I already contemplated suicide several times, and even wrote my "last will and testament" and kept it in my drawer in case I suddenly decided to kill myself I would have a note ready. So one day I decided I had to get close to God again. All the occult practices I engaged in did not make me feel any better or give me peace. So I started talking to God again, almost every night. I would come home from "working" and cry and beg God to end my situation, to change it for me, because I didn't know how. I was trapped and couldn't think clearly, most of all I was afraid.

God brought a man into my life named Curtis. He witnessed to me about Jesus Christ in a way I never heard. Curtis knew I was a and told me that if I decided to follow Jesus that I had to stop prostituting. I decided to follow Jesus and started reading the bible. I prostituted 2 more weeks, not as much though, and I only saw my regular . Let me tell you -- the torment I felt having sex with these men after I accepted Jesus was so horrible. I started seeing in the spirit realm and would walk into hotel rooms seeing "gargoyle" beings flying in the room. I was scared to stop escorting, I was scared of my "boss" to. The Holy Spirit convicted me so heavily that I just quit and ran from my and he never found me. He threatened to harm my parents but that never happened, God is faithful and is my Protector!

I fell in love with Curtis, and 2 months later we married. It's now been 4 1/2 years later, and we have 2 beautiful .

God worked on me alot, especially during the first year of being saved. I had alot of wounds that He healed, soul ties were all broken, and the hatred for men and all the hurts of my life were healed. I had alot of vanity that He had to clean out of me. Some have said that they can't even picture me as a because I look too innocent. And I'm honored by that! Because it's only Jesus who could transform me into who I am today.
The gospel is truly the power of God unto salvation!! I will serve Jesus always, He is my Lord and my Redeemer, He loved me when no one else did, and He'll always love me.

If there is one thing that I learned from being a sex industry survivor, is that it's all one big lie, an illusion. I have several friends who are now christians who also have survived the sex industry, and together we share our story of the love, power, and grace of God as revealed in the Lord Jesus Christ. Together we reveal the lies of the sex industry and how EVERY person is harmed when they participate, either spiritually, physically, or both.

Jesus Christ is come to set us free from the bondage of sin, and for that I am eternally indebted to HIM.