My soul cries out for The One.
The other half of my soul, to whom I can give mine completely.
I was his once, but he was taken from me.
I thought I found him again.
If you think you understand, you are only half-right, at best.
My header is a clue & has a double meaning. A select few of you may get that half of it, but are most likely wrong about the rest.
There are clues in my profile pix.
If you are interested in understanding what makes me tick and knowing more about me, please feel free to read on and/or contact me. I thank you in advance for trudging through it all. Otherwise, I apologize for wasting your time, and I wish you the best in your search here and elsewhere in life..............
Thank you for taking the time to check out my profile, I promise I will get better with it as time goes on.
Hmm, well, this is tough, but I'll give it a try and fix it as I go. I hate sounding as though I'm making myself out to be "all that," but I know it's also about trying to put your best foot forward, so here goes.......please forgive me if I sound big-headed.
I'm very shy--I STILL blush furiously until I relax--but also very warm and friendly (I'm a Gemini, go figure, there are so many of me living in here). I am a hopeless romantic, sensitive, can be very passionate and playful if with the right guy, but I am always a lady. I can have an extemely ornery, sarcastic and wicked sense of humor once I get comfortable, and I love to laugh.
I'm a petite auburn/light brown/redhead. Like my eyes, it's kinda hard to explain.....it has it's own little independent personality. I've been told I have deep expressive eyes.
I listed my eyes as green, because they don't have a box to check for always-changing-back-and-forth-at-their- whim, wierd gold/green/brown. When I'm emotional, they're more green, I think. But don't ask me what makes them change. Someone once watched them change from brown to gold to green to teal and back again over just a few minutes. Must be that Gemini thing again ;o).
I love the country, the ocean (spent 10 yrs in Hawai'i and consider it home), hiking, camping, painting, and above all else, being with my two Mustangs--they are my life. There isn't enough time in my life to spend with them. I do some work with wild horses and burros, and try to help save as many as I can. I was born in the city, but it would seem I was always a country girl at heart, and now, in actions. In addition to the country and Mustangs, the ocean is my other love, and being there soothes my soul. Like being with my horses, it doesn't happen enough. I absolutely crave the freedom of wide open spaces, and don't mind getting dirty and sweaty (and even bloody sometimes) and doing un-girly things. I do, however, love the typical pretty clothes, jewelry, and shoes, and of course, all those pretty things that go underneath, and have been told I clean up pretty good.
I'm kinda new at this being alone thing, especially as far as the online stuff goes, but I'm working on it and think I'm doing okay at jumping in to it.
In the interest of full disclosure--on both our parts--I will add another extensive chapter to my little novel. In 2002 I suffered a massive separation of the artery feeding my brain (stroke). I fought back hard and fast, put the docs and skeptics in their place (eating crow), and am almost fully recovered, with no obvious physical side-effects. If you were to meet me face-to-face and I were to tell you this, you would probably call me a liar. The only permanent damage I suffer from is internal: mostly balance issues, vertigo, etc., as well as--believe it or not (and you can laugh at this)--the propensity to tire quickly and dramatically after over-exerting myself mentally (i.e. writing) and emotionally. So if you think my profile is a tough read, just think of what it has taken me to write it!! **bowing**
Much to my distress, my doctors have forbidden me to take part in any physical activities which could smack or jar my head, or drastically change my position in relation to the earth, as well as exert extreme pressure or G's on me. This pretty much knocks me out of the running for various extreme sports, not to mention riding motorcycles and riding and training horses. I have told the docs to forget it regarding horses, as well as amusement park rides—the more freakish the better—and bikes. While it is generally in my nature to do so, I have yet to push the envelope on more serious activities, and am not sure of the outcome, should I decide to try. This is still open for discussion, and will be until the day they put me in the ground.
However—and while I am not putting this info out there for any form of pity or attention whatsoever (kill me the day that should happen)—it is my purpose to make you aware of my "issues," should this bother you or your intentions or plans in any way. The horrible tragedy would be for you to decide that you would like to spend time with me now, get us both involved and into each other, then have issues with MY issues—however small or large you may perceive them to be--at a later date.
I have never before had this problem—until now. I have always been, and am now, as strong as a horse (pardon the pun), mentally, physically, and emotionally. I take on all challenges—and usually succeed—and do not back down from life in any way. However, an extremely painful experience has led to me adding this very private info to my profile.
Never before have I felt, or considered myself, disabled in any way because of my medical issues.
Until now.
I do not wish to be hurt again.
Please consider this if you decide to contact me, and if it puts you off in any way, perhaps it is best that you move on to other interests now.......best of luck to you.
So guys, here I am again, begging to understand how such a straightforward situation can become so twisted, and cause me so much agony, when I am nothing but honest about what is going on.
So, it's my turn to be picky.
My Ideal Person:
I am looking for a DD-free, **SINGLE,**--I REITERATE, SINGLE--real, strong, patient, kind, gentle, sensitive, romantic, sincere, stable, honest, up-front, no baggage guy with strong character and a passion for life, who loves the outdoors. I know it's a run-on sentence, and is probably asking for a lot, but what the heck, it ASKS what I'm looking for.........!
I love being on the back of a bike, preferrably a Harley or other comparable beefy cruiser.
Even more important, if you are into horses--especially Mustangs--then life is a grand and wonderful thing! In fact, it has become a very important part of what I am looking for in a relationship. I compare myself in heart, soul, nature and spirit, to the Mustangs that I am so deeply drawn to and devote my life to. If you can understand them, then you pretty much know what I am all about.
While I am by nature very shy, kind, and easygoing, I have ABSOLUTELY no tolerance for a married--or otherwise attached--on the side situation, and have no problem expressing myself--uncharacteristicaly aggressively for me--as far as that goes. I don't care what your reasons are. Been there, done that, had every chance to cheat, and I didn't. But, I have been cheated on, and it does not feel very good. There's no way I'm going to do that to someone else. Cheating has always been a turn-off for me anyway. That's one reason I said what I said about strong character.
My Wish List (and it's just a wish list):
--A new revelation, but maybe a very important one:
He needs to have seen Princess Bride, and actually
get it
--A handsome, strong horseman, who actually LOVES horsesand knows how to work WITH them
--A gentleman
--A intelligent man
--A financially, emotionally, and psychologically
secure and stable man
--A strong man, in physique, morals, and character,
with arms of steal to wrap me in, protect me from
the world, comfort me when I cry, and take care of
me (goodness knows I have earned it)
--A gentle man, slow to temper
--An honest man, who will not practice
double-standards, treat me as an equal, and be honest
with me
--An unselfish man, who will not force me to do things
HE wants, when I do not want to do them, who will
not use emotional blackmail to get them, then deny it
when he does, or insist upon things being his way or the highway
--A man who will not force me into a relationship,
or spew avowals of feelings to coerce me into doing
the same, then hold me at arms' length when he has
finally gained my trust and I commit to feelings and
to him
--A man who will not abuse the hard-earned and fragile
gift of trust I have placed in him, and treat it with
reverence as the precious and tender treasure
that it is
--A kind, thoughtful, caring man, who considers my pain
and tears his own, who, like me, has a heart as
tender as a doe's, but as spirited as a Mustang's,
who will also have the heart of a lion when it comes
to defending me when I am wronged.
--A man who will respect property
--A man who will respect my wishes for my and my son’s safety, above all else
--And something superficial but which lies at the heart of every little girl and hero worship; something the CalFire dozerdawg took blatant advantage of: I have a terrible soft spot for firefighters
I could go on forever, but hopefully, you get the idea. It would be nice to hope for Tom Selleck or Sam Elliot, because the question regards my ideal person. Of course, I'd love it if you looked like them and ooooo, sound like Sam.
But, I have never been a shallow, superficial person, which I hope my profile conveys. You could look like Tom or Sam and be a complete jerk, and I would choose Drew Carey over you hands-down. Get the picture?
Thank you again for drinking that pot of coffee, staying awake, wading through my novel, and taking the time to see what I'm all about. I hope it's clear as mud. If you get that, then there's hope for us yet. ;o)
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