| An Amazing Day |
Nov 14, 2007 1:34 pm
160 Views | Today been full of unexpected events - i spent the morning with Jane and Jacques (my 2 favourite work colleagues)
Jacques and i spent the afternoon in the Cathedral Green, talkin. Jacques and my friendship is unique in many ways. We can talk about anything and thats great. we cry together, laugh together.
Today we were talkin, tears rolled down my cheeks and for the first time i realised and spoke verbally about something that has bothered me for months. it was releasing. Jacques just held my hand and said its ok.
he dropped me off and i came online but became overwhelmed by my confession.
I sat and prayed and it was totally awesome, God showed me a passage in 2 Corinthians Chapter 1 that God is the source of all comfort - later on it mentions "we were crushed and overwhelmed beyond our ability" that so struck a cord with me and gave me so much comfort.
Also during my time of reading - the situation with my parents was weighin on my mind, lurkin in the back. i read the story "Forgivness for the sinner" - which says *Now, however it is time to forgive and comfort him* it goes on to say *so i urge you now to reaffirm your love for him.* this also was a great comfort to me.
what an amazing day. | |
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| Gentle Spirit |
Nov 14, 2007 12:37 pm
138 Views | I sometimes wonder why God made me the way i am. I dont mean physically, i aint got a problem with how i look. I mean, emotionally.
I know sometimes i can be over sensitive and i am sure i can come across badly in the chat room at times but thats the nature of this kind of medium to a certain degree cus ya cant hear Tones or see facial expressions.
Maybe its my expectation that i expect people to treat me like i treat them and thats for me to deal with.
All i am about is desiring to serve God, sharing His love, encouraging people, supporting people, makin people smile or even better, laugh. I have the most gentle loving spirit that God has installed in me.
I have no hidden agenda.
I am sensitive to others and their needs, i see peoples pain, sometimes i even feel it. I have cried tears that are not my own.
To be like this is so painful, sometimes i wish i didn't care for people as deeply as i do but for now i guess this is how God wants me.
But then would i change the way i am - do i wanna be insensitive, void of feelings? no | |
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| Love is the greatest |
Nov 14, 2007 1:20 am
127 Views | Love is a basic human need. Maslows triangle puts physical needs right at the basis of who we are.
Love to me, was the message Jesus came to share with us - he left so many commands about Love, so its gotta have been important huh?
Corinthians 1 chapter 13 even tells us
Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or rude. it does not demand its own way. it is not irritable and it keeps no record of being wronged. it does not rejoice about being injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful and endures through every circumstance
This passage is a description of how God loves US!!! How perfect does this love sound? and although we cant love perfectly we must learn how to love.
So many times in chat, i see squabbles and it tugs my heart. i appreciate that the net is perhaps the worst medium ever, as we cant see facial expressions, or tones in voices but if we all started to be a lil more patient with each other - then surely thats gotta be a good thing, instead of hurting each other as so often happens. | |
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| Emotional |
Nov 12, 2007 12:57 pm
147 Views | Today has been incredible for me i have pretty much spend all day with tears rolling down me chops but i aint sad.
Earlier in the day i put this down to being hormonal and just being female but i dont think this is the case.
Then it was mentioned that they could be the Holy spirit witnessing to my spirit.
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| British Justice - The best in the world *yawn* |
Nov 12, 2007 12:42 pm
87 Views | On the 8th May this year my 15 year old son was beaten up not 200 yards from my home. I contacted the police and several days later we were taken to a police suite in the City and he was interviewed and it was recoreded for video evidence.
Today, i recieved a phone call from the police saying they had interviewed the fella that assaulted my son and it would go before a board to see if the police would press charges!!!
so 6 months on, we are no futher on - British Justice the best in the world - sheesh i am shocked cus i think this is terrible! | |
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| Negative thought processes |
Nov 12, 2007 1:46 am
83 Views | It has become apparent that perhaps i have negative thought processes, i guess most of us have at one point or another in their lives.
I wouldn't say i was a negative person tho, i have always had an amazing sense of humour and see the funny side in almost everything i do.
I am the life n' soul of parties, i can usually make a room fulla people laugh in under 30 seconds cus i am the jester - smilin and makin people laugh is so important to me.
So how - where - when did i get these negative thought processes and even more importantly - how can i get rid of em - cus i dont want em anymore.
Ansa's on a postcard to - Gravity Kate, South West of England
Many thanks | |
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| Create in me a new heart O God |
Nov 12, 2007 1:25 am
110 Views | Since i have been asked to fill out a chart that logs each 30 minute slot throughout the day - i have found that i am much more motivated than i have been of late.
I also have found that i can hear God much more clearly too.
I have always thought, i was a quite tidy, organised person. My work colleagues used to say i was obsessive, compulsive about my job. A perfectionist.
But since being at home i have realised that is not the case, maybe on the surface i am organised. Oh i dont think i am explaining this well.
As i was cleaning my kitchen, and tidying cupboards - i found so much outta date stuff that needed to be disposed of, so much spilled foodstuffs, so much clutter and i felt God say to me, "Jayne, how much spilled stuff, clutter and outta date stuff ya got stored in ya heart?"
i felt convicted.
I cleaned my cupboards till they were immaculate, everything in rows and cleamingly clean. Then i felt God say to me "Jayne, ya gonna do a good a job on ya heart as ya cupboard?"
i felt convicted again.
Cus i know i have not been spending enough time with God, in prayer, studying my bible as i used too.
So every day, i pray that God will create a new Clean heart in me. | |
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| Armistace Day |
Nov 12, 2007 1:00 am
81 Views | On the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month, the UK comes to a grinding halt.
Wherever you are, Churches ding their bells at the start of the silence in respect of those that lost their lives. Television broadcasts and radio observe this also - its a very eerie experience.
As each year passes this appears to have more of an effect on me. This year i was humbled and emotional. They gave their todays for our tomorrows - how poignant is that?
The propaganda that would have grapsed so many young boys to *do the right thing* to sign up to protect "King and Country"
They musta been so scared, yet so brave.
The death tolls are horrendous - how many families torn apart? how much pain does that equate? what long term effect would that have?
Somehow laying a poppy wreath and observing a 2 minute silence seems so inadequate huh? | |
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| Timing |
Nov 10, 2007 1:47 am
116 Views | It was only when i had a spare 5 minutes to myself that i realised the absolute perfect timing of the events of the last few weeks - and that amazed me.
I firmly believe that everything that happens, happens for a reason, lasts for a season and God is in total control.
I worked as a senior support worker for adults with learning disabilities - however the pressure and demands of the job were becoming overwhelming. i resigned from my post and had total peace about my decision.
Within days my son returned home, he needs a lot of care and attention at the moment - if i had continued to work the 12.5 hour shifts he would have been neglected somewhat.
i am still adjusting to being home all the time but God is so gracious to me - filling my day with unexpected visitors - friends - people who strike up conversations, building friendships and being able to share my good news!!
ha ha i am so ditzy sometimes - the whole point of this blog was to say - that i have always said careworkers should only spend 2 years in care then they need to get out (for me anyways) I signed my contract on the 25/11/05 and my offical leaving date will be 24/11/07 exactly 2 years. | |
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| Dilemma |
Nov 9, 2007 2:31 pm
89 Views | I am very aware as i read my bible the other night.
Honour your mother and yer Father
My relationship with both my parents has been strained at best - they dont approve of my lifestyle.
Recently, my son came home (as blogged previously)
He left home some months ago - his choice. He went thru a few temporary homes before asking to stay with my mama n' papa - In a nutshell he had a party at their house and it got very ugly. I did ring them as soon as i heard he was stayin there to tell them about what he was entangled in. anyways they kicked him out.
A few days ago my pa rang me and was very angry i had taken my son back - Obviously my loyality is 100% to my son but how do i honour my parents in this? | |
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