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Take From Me
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Jul 28, 2006 12:28 pm
Mood: eager,
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Sometimes, I think I want the things
the world can give to me.
Temptation lures through greediness.
At times, it's hard to see.
But You have told me many times
this world is not my home.
These temporary luxuries
Can't satisfy alone.
So, Lord, I ask for just one thing.
Take from me all my greed.
The world can have it's traps and snares.
Your love is all I need.
I want Your hope. I want Your grace.
I want to testify--
that Your sweet love for everyone
can help them never die.
Help me to take this light inside
that helps to see me through!
Take me and fill me up with love
to pave the path for You!
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I Want to Blog!!!
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Jul 28, 2006 6:34 am
Mood: good,
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I don't have much time, because I'm supposed to go to a job interview in an hour, but if I don't do this now, I might get distracted. That should have been my name...Distraction. Of course, I'm not going to tell that to the principal who's interviewing me today. It's for a para job. At least it would be 800 a month...I think. Not much, but if I don't go and this daycare thing doesn't work out...which, it should, but, if it seems like it won't be happening for awhile, then I should try to get money one way or another. With a job, I mean.
Anyway, that isn't what I wanted to talk about.
I had the best time last night. I met someone through bigchurch that actually lives here and we went on a walk for an hour and a half with my youngest son. I love walking trails. I'm sure I would have gotten us lost if the man I met wouldn't have known his way around this one.
I think I made a new friend. He's really nice.
I love meeting other Christians.
The weather for the walk was perfect, too...not too hot. I walked a different trail with my son the night before and it was so humid...like a rain forrest.
Also, yesterday, my mom showed me that one of my cousins is running for governor. His picture was in the paper, but he was dressed up like George Washington...my mom was so embarrassed. I'm just thinking, hmmm...being a little different must run in our family.
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God loves me
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Jul 25, 2006 1:20 pm
Mood: bouncy,
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I just got back from the Rehab office not too long ago and I just feel so overwhelmingly happy. I mean, I can't describe this feeling...it's like my head is full of so much awesome stuff that I want to just get up and scream..."Thank YOU, JESUS!" I'm just so full of love and hope. It's a wonderful feeling.
I really believe Jesus told me to take my book of inspirational poetry with me to the SRS office and the lady that's going to help me is a Christian. SHE LIKED MY SONGS SO MUCH, SHE WANTED TO TAKE MY BOOK WITH HER SO SHE COULD READ THE WHOLE THING! I have about 65 poems in it...most of them I put here. She wants to see me get it published. I told her I was waiting until I get 100 poems written.
Wouldn't it be awesome if she can share my poetry with some of her other clients? So many of them need to know about the hope that can find in knowing Jesus. So many of them are in desperate need to know that someone cares!
I told her about my plans to open daycare again and she's going to help me with expenses if my testing proves that I'll be able to keep the children safe. She also called the guy that's scheduling the testing to see if he was working on getting an appointment set up for me. I believe that if God wants me to do it, He's going to make it so that I can do it well. I did it for four years, but part of the time, I was oblivious to what was going on. Most of the time, I think I was good at it.
And I'd thought they'd forgotten about me. She said she's going to get back with me later this week.
She wrote down everything I told her about the problems with getting child support, the holes in our wall, the lack of play equipment, and I think she's going to help me pay for advertising...assuming I'm observant enough to do it. She even said she knew a policeman who could get my ex arrested. He's had a bench warrant out for his arrest for not paying child support for over two years.It seems crazy to me that they won't just take him in since he's only half a mile from the police station.
We talked twice as long as she had intended to talk to me, but she was so nice about everything and really willing to help. She told me she prayed before she came to meet with me so she would know how to help me. Praise God! I knew He wasn't giving up on us!
Also, my mom came over today and patched up the holes in the kitchen so we can paint it. Out of nowhere...she said, "Charla, you don't look like you're forty at all. You look like you could be twenty!" Wow, if only that were true.
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Prayer
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Jul 24, 2006 7:49 pm
Mood: high,
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STRENGTH--when I'm feeling weak
POWER--when I am so meek
JOY--when hopelessness will call
PEACE--when others say I'll fall
REFUGE--from the storms of life
DIGNITY--when I feel strife
COMPANY--when I'm alone
AMBITION--when I have none
LOVE--when no one seems to care
All this comes to me through prayer.
HOPE-to see a better day
COURAGE--to show them the Way
UNDERSTANDING--when I'm lost
KNOWLEDGE--that you've paid the cost
FAITH--that You are everywhere
All this comes to me through prayer
charla
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Another Sign...?
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Jul 24, 2006 5:55 pm
Mood: beautiful,
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I don't think I actually posted that I decided to try to start the daycare up again...for the third time...but I'm pretty sure God wants me to. Nothing in the paper sounds interesting. Disability is just too slow and I may not need it anyway...I mean, it's not like I can't do anything at all. And subbing doesn't pay enough to buy shoes...or anything else, for that matter.
No one else seems to think I'm qualified. Anyway, I sort of gave up trying to find work once I got tired of all the rejection.
But I was good at daycare. The kids liked me. The parents usually liked me. I met regulations after I was corrected. And it did pay pretty good when I worked two shifts...but that was hard.
Back to what I was getting to...I was emptying the trash (9 blocks away from here) and I saw this Little Tykes slide for toddlers! It was really filthy, but it was all there and in good shape. I thought that I should ask if they were actually throwing it away, and the little girl that was swimming there told me they were. She got out of the pool and helped me put it in my van. She got a hammer so we could take it apart. That was a trick! I got it home, washed it, and now we actually have one piece of play equipment! I had sold everything before we moved back here.
Before that, I took Zach to VBS where I used to go to church and he wasn't sure he wanted to stay, but finally decided he did. I saw a family with their kids just sitting outside their apartment and thought...those kids would have a lot more fun if they were at VBS, too...so I took them a flyer and watched them take a couple of them down the street toward the church.
Every day, God shows me ways I can make a difference...if not to somebody, that for my situation. Every day, God helps me figure out what step to take next. I don't even need to ask Him, but I do...and I really think that He wants me to start making a difference in the lives of a few children in this neighborhood and that if I go into daycare, He's going to help me get business.
The Rehab office called today and they are going to help me tomorrow with whatever I decide to do, too.
And I got to talk to my best friend for over an hour last night. I've known her since we were both five years old. She had some answers for me, too...about what may be going on with my eldest son. God uses people in my life to help me figure out what I need to do as well as the Bible. I'm so grateful for that.
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I love this 70 degree weather!
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Jul 22, 2006 5:04 pm
Mood: happy,
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Until yesterday, it's been way over ninety degrees here in Kansas and, somehow, when it rained, it cooled everything off. Now, it's perfect! The zoo was so crowded today it was hard to find a parking place. My youngest son and I stayed there at that park for four hours. He rode the carousel, we got ice cream and a pretzel with cheese, and I drug him over to the rose garden so I could smell every kind of rose they grew. You know, a lot of roses don't have any scent at all! I like the red ones the best.
And we only spent four bucks the whole day!
I guess Michael was telling us the truth about moving. I saw them packing up their things yesterday. How sad for the boys. He was hanging out here a lot and I know they will miss him.
Tomorrow will be busy. I'm going to try to get to the early service so I can go to Sunday School, then we're having a meeting about helping for Bible School. This is the first year I'm helping at this church. I was always too tired after doing daycare all day to help before. The activities we're going to do look like a lot of fun.
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I think I'll skip blogging tonight.
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Jul 20, 2006 7:37 pm
Mood: relaxed,
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Yeah, I think I'll just forget about writing tonight because it's hot and I'm tired and my daughter just found some great movies from where she works and I think I want to watch one. It's a great night for a chick flick. One of my sons is out of town with his cousin and the other one fell asleep early since I made him go to the mall for four hours to keep cool today.
I called my sister and she's recuperating from her surgery. The tumor on her eye was cancerous after all, but they got it all. She said she had no anesthesia and it hurt a lot. I feel bad for her.
She decided she wants my son to stay with her for another week to entertain her son, so I told her it was okay if he wanted to. They have fun together. Two peas in a pod. My mom is coming home tomorrow, though, because her sister isn't doing very well in the nursing home. She doesn't make any sense at all now. I need to go see her.
Maybe we can go tomorrow after my doctor's appointment. I haven't seen her since they moved her to a new home. I just don't know for sure where it is. It's hard for me to figure out new places.
Well, I did promise to call my son, so I'm not going to blog tonight and I'm putting the chick flick on hold.
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How Can We Justify?
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Jul 19, 2006 8:09 pm
Mood: uncomfortable,
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How can we justify
living in sin?
We do it again
and again and again!
How can we justify
killing our foes?
Was it just for us
that He died and He rose?
How can we justify
Killing our own
because they weren't planned?
Are our hearts made of stone?
How can we justify
sex without love?
True gratification
is love from above.
How can we justify
living in lies
so we can have wealth?
Are there beams in our eyes?
When Jesus has told us
Just what we should do.
We don't want to listen
yet His words are true!
He taught us the way
we should live, and He died
so why are we trying
to be justified?
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If The World Would Learn To Love
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Jul 18, 2006 8:51 am
Mood: thoughtful,
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If the world would ever learn to love...
we'd set aside our differences--
quit killing each other,
quit stealing the innocence of children,
quit cheating on income taxes,
quit taking advantage of the impaired,
quit sneaking around with other people's wives or husbands,
quit trying to prove our points,
quit telling each other we're stupid,
quit lying, lying, lying because it gets us to the top, gets us more money, gets others off our backs...
If the world would ever learn to love,
we'd consider other's differences,
to enhance their character,
to make them unique,
to beautify the scenery that surrounds them,
and we would care when someone else hurts,
we would seek out a need and fill it,
we would give, give, give...without expecting a returned favor.
If only the world would ever learn to love.
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Angels must have guarded me...
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Jul 16, 2006 9:50 pm
Mood: drained,
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Last night, it was over ninety degrees and muggy. Too muggy. We stayed at home all day trying to keep cool in the house, and Michael even came over for awhile. He's becoming quite a regular around here. If I was him, I'd like his house more. He has a hamster, and a beautifully remodeled house. I get the feeling that his mom isn't home much, though. That's okay. We like having him here. He's a nice kid.
At about 8pm, I suggested we go to the neighborhood fiesta. They do this every year and it's fun for kids and teens because it's like a big carnival. There are big rides and funnelcakes, huge corndogs and giant stuffed animals for winners. I knew we wouldn't be able to do much since we don't have a lot of money, but thought the walk over there would be an adventure in itself. When I was a teen, I used to walk over there to see who was there.
I set out with my sons for the mile and a half walk not really letting it sink in that this was a long walk for them and that we would have to walk back in the dark. I mean, I knew we would...but didn't think it should be any big deal because walking long distances is fun for me. I love to walk. Unfortunately, they don't. And they make the walk a lot longer.
I also didn't realize it was that far. I'm the sort of person who doesn't keep track of time or distance and it's gotten me into trouble on more than one occasion.
Once we got there, the kids enjoyed riding one ride and we got one of those one-fourth pound corndogs...but I wasn't sure they would have the energy to walk back home. They sure moaned and complained the whole way. I know we wouldn't have made it that far if our angels weren't guarding us. There were a lot of people out that late because of the fiesta, so I wasn't too worried on the busier streets, but one thing is for sure. If we go at all next year, I'm taking the van.
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