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When Push Comes to Shove
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Mar 4, 2007 1:09 pm
Mood: curious,
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When push comes to shove,
tell me who you'll believe.
Will you sway with the crowd
tho' they're known to deceive?
Will you plunge off the board
when they tell you to dive?
Will you give up your soul
just so you'll feel alive?
And when push comes to shove,
are you gonna give in--
cuz the crowd laughs and jeers
at the things we call sin?
Are you gonna back down
when the going gets rough?
Are the pressures of life
proving you're not so tough?
Are you gonna break down?
Are you gonna hold tight
gripping firmly to truth
cuz you know that it's right?
Or when push comes to shove
are you gonna stand tall
cuz you know, in your heart,
Jesus paid for it all?
He did, you know.
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A Day for Caring
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Mar 3, 2007 7:57 pm
Mood: good,
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I didn't plan on today's events happening the way they did. I'm pretty sure God did, though.
First, I called my daughter and cleaned thoroughly while we had a long conversation...something that used to be hard for me to do. I think those brain treatments are working because I'm able to retain what people tell me better...even my daughter. She understands me better now, too. We both talked about how it was easier for me to be closer to her when she was small, because we both had the same interests and the same attention span. I told her that as I got older, I noticed that she didn't seem as fun to me anymore because she didn't want to do the things we used to do for fun...go to the zoo, feed the ducks, picnic, paddleboat.
See, small children mostly do take life as it comes to them. I mean, if something catches their eye, they'll stop what they were doing and do something else. That's the way my mind was and still sort of is. It's affected relationships, jobs, everything. But now, things are changing. I can keep at things longer...I can see it happening.
But, that's not what I was going to write about.
After talking to her for awhile, I made lunch for my boys and the two teens that came over to duel with Christopher and his lightsabers. I hadn't served them lunch before, but I was so grateful that they got Christopher to go outside and be active, I wanted to pay them back, somehow. It was just what he needed. I think he's over his low-energy problem. Now, I need to work on Zach.
Zach was invited to a birthday party today. We had the present bought, the card signed...then he chickened out. It would have been something different for him. He decided he didn't want to go. He's really bashful. I always was, too.
I took the present to her house and explained what happened.
I had bought a blanket for the new little baby I'm taking on. I had seen her sister at the school last week and she told me that it was her birthday. I got her a small gift, too.
Since I had delivered that gift for Zach's classmate, I went ahead and took the gifts for the baby and her sister to their house, too. Her mom told me she still wanted me to take care of her baby.
After I took the presents to them, I remembered that I wanted to give our next-door-neighbor's 17year old neice some things for her new baby, so I gave her some of the baby bottles my dad bought and the sterilizer, along with a few other things. I hope she can take care of her baby. She's so young. I've known her for five years.
I was able to get the flowers and a card for Sierre's grandma, and baked her a loaf of bread, but she wasn't home when I tried to deliver everything. Her dogs are still there. Maybe she'll be there tomorrow.
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Thank You For Praying!
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Mar 2, 2007 5:57 pm
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Griffin is doing better. He's still in ICU, but his treatments are working and the doctors can now hear air movement in his lungs. Thanks so much for praying for him. I don't know how long he will be in the hospital, but the last thing I heard was that it would be two weeks.
The glucose levels for Christopher were normal, too! He still lies around a lot and complains that he doesn't have any energy, but we're waiting on the rest of the test results.
I think the devil's out to get me. These two preschool-aged boys I take care of are acting horrible lately...scratching and kicking me, cussing me out. And my own youngest has been a handful, lately, too. I don't know if it's just the age they're going through, or if it's because they think they can push me around. that they act this way, but it sure can be frustrating. I'm starting to think medication for Zach isn't such a far-fetched idea.
He was able to go with the fourth-graders on a two-hour trip today to see the Pony Express museum. He said it was a lot of fun. I'm glad they moved him up a couple of grades for part of the day. He doesn't want to skip a grade, but does enjoy being in that class.
Jimmy came by today! It was a big surprise. I hadn't seen him for months! He said his marriage is going great...that she spoils him. It was good to see him.
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Now I Know What Happened.
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Mar 2, 2007 5:31 pm
Mood: sad,
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This morning, Mom called and told me. She read it in the obituaries. Sierre's grandpa died. It said that he died in the hospital after the surgery. I guess I didn't pray hard enough. I hope he was ready. He was a really nice man.
It doesn't seem real. It's like it was news about someone else. Someone I didn't know. It seems like Sierre will come, her grandpa will pick her up, ask my boys how they're doing, and I will watch him carry her down our steps to his car, hoping he has the strength to hold her. I always asked if he needed help. He always refused.
He didn't want me to have our pastor pray with him. He didn't want anyone to visit. Maybe he thought he would be okay. I hope he made his peace with God.
I'll get flowers for his wife tomorrow. She should be back in town. I hope I can find out something about Sierre. I miss her so badly.
I'm going to ask my pastor's father to visit her. It was only about a year ago that his wife died. I hope he will.
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I Wish I Could Do More
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Feb 27, 2007 8:47 pm
Mood: worried,
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Little Griffin was up all night. He didn't take well to the surgery and my mom told me he might have to have another surgery. I called the church to make sure they got the message to put him on the prayer chain. They didn't. It was good that I called.
Yesterday, I got a card with a puppy on it and had all the kids in my daycare "sign" it...they can't really write their names yet. I did get it in the mail today. Mom says she may go to Colorado to be with Griffin and the rest of my brother's family for a little while. She was crying today when she told me he was doing worse.
It breaks my heart to see my mom cry. She's always so strong.
I called the local Christian radio station today to ask them to pray, too. They will tomorrow.
My mom was here because she took Christopher in to the doctor to get his blood drawn to check his cholesterol levels and blood pressure. His dad has high blood pressure. I was concerned about Christopher because he hasn't had any energy lately. I was thinking it was just because he loves to read all the time, at first, but he's been refusing to go to school because he hasn't had the energy to get up. It's sad to be ten and not able to get up and go.
I feel like it's my fault. I should have been more strict with him when I told him to stop eating. Maybe I shouldn't have ever given him pasta. Or maybe it was too many trips out for ice cream. I just wish I could undo everything now. Nobody else in the family has as much problem with weight control. I hope they figure out what's wrong with him. I hope he isn't diabetic. Tomorrow, they'll give me the results.
Now, mom thinks I'm anorexic. I'm not.
One more thing to add...I am really worried about Sierre. I went to her grandparents' today and no one was there. Their dogs were as noisey as ever. I hope someone is feeding them. I'm guessing that, because their phone won't even accept calls, that they haven't returned from the hospital. I know her grandpa has cancer, but haven't heard anything since his surgery. It's as of they're trying to just disappear. Am I not supposed to care? Two weeks of not knowing anything is driving me nuts. I love that little baby. I hope she's okay.
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Untitled
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Feb 26, 2007 9:04 pm
Mood: courageous,
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When, with my eyes, I chance to see
the beauty of His Majesty...
when, with my ears, I hear the song
the angels sing out loud and strong...
when, with my hands, I clap for joy
this feeling no one can destroy...
when, with my heart, I so inspire
so other voices join the choir...
when, with my strength, I run to meet
the Master, praising at His feet...
I'll know that every battle won
was worth it all to see the Son!
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Please, God!
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Feb 24, 2007 5:12 pm
Mood: sympathetic,
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Griffin is only five years old. He has infectious pnuemonia and is in the hospital right now in Colorado. He's my nephew.
Lord, You know all about him. You know the pain my brother and sister-in-law are going through. You hold them in the palm of Your Hand! Lord, please, let them know that everything's going to be okay. Please, if it's Your will, heal this little boy.
Amen.
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I Think I Met a Real Angel Today!
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Feb 23, 2007 1:36 pm
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I think God knows just exactly what we need at exactly the right time. It's just so cool when we can notice that. I mean, it really does something for your spirit when you realize that God knows exactly how to handle us and things happen just like God willed them to...not always the way we want, or think we need...but the way God wanted.
It was a quiet morning. Fallon was here, but Melanie didn't come until around ten. A lady from Nutrition Plus came to make sure I was keeping up with my menus. I did walk the boys to school and stopped by Sierre's house to try to find out if I'd ever see her again...but no one answered the door. I heard the Pomeranians yapping upstairs, but couldn't tell if anyone was there with them. I hope that if her grandpa is still in the hospital that someone is watching the animals. I haven't heard a thing from any of them for over a week. It makes me worry about Sierre more than the fact that I probably won't get paid the money they owe me for taking care of her. It's bad business to care too much about money, in my opinion. God will provide.
When Mario and Tony got off the bus from preschool, everything seemed like it was going to be okay for a little while. I fed them, then took them all to the park next door. I guess I shouldn't have been so proud of myself for being able to pull a wagon with three children in it while carrying a heavy baby. They had fun pulling themselves around for quite awhile
When it was time to go back, though, of course no one wanted to go back. A woman had brought a little boy to play and I know God planned it for her to be there. I know He did, because if she wouldn't have been there smiling through everything, I don't think I could have been so patient with Mario when he sat on the handle of the wagon and refused to budge.
For a long time, I just tried to reason with him, but that didn't work. I finally resorted to picking him up and carrying him. The woman didn't even ask if I wanted help. She just picked up the wagon's handle, took a hold of her little boy's hand, and pulled the wagon to the house for me! She told me she lived on the corner and I told her she could come by and visit any time.
I really don't know what I would have done if she hadn't been there. We'd probably still be at the park now.
Last night, Zach really surprised me at his program. He had so many lines! He's never spoke with a mic before and I wasn't sure he would...but he didn't get stagefright at all! I was so proud of him.
I thought Mom and Dad were coming to record it, but they forgot. Zach was really upset about this because I don't have a working recorder When we got home, he threw a fit...said he'd done it all for nothing. I hope I can find someone who did record.
My brother's five-year-old son is in the hospital with a rare disease. I don't remember what it's called, but it's like pneumonia.
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It's a Good Thing I Worked Out First
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Feb 20, 2007 9:07 pm
Mood: mad,
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I mean, it's a good thing I worked out before I got on the computer tonight because I wouldn't have had the same story to tell. I would have been in a much worse mood than I am now. Thank you, Stacey Orrico! I just love working out while I listen to her music.
I still have to record this terribly scarey, eye-opening event that happened today...even if it makes me look bad. I'm only human and I don't think I'll ever be perfect...though I am remorseful for the way I handled this.
If you read the blog I posted yesterday, you'd know what a little sweetheart Mario is....NOT!
He's much worse if I can't get him to nap. This was one of those days.
After I gave the kids their snack, I took them outside to play a little. Mario found my broom and wouldn't give it back. He thought it would be more fun to try to attack me with it. I was trying so hard to get it back from him, that Fallon snuck out of the yard and down the driveway. She was just about to dart into the street when I saw her. I ran out to get her, but was almost too late because she thought the neighbor across the street was Santa Claus and was going to go visit him. It's a good thing the car coming saw her right before I snatched her and brought her back into the yard.
I was so mad at Mario, I told him that if he was my kid, I'd beat his bottom. He just laughed at me. I don't think his parents have ever disciplined him...but, I could be wrong. Maybe it just didn't work.
I asked him what he would have done if Fallon would have been hit by a car and he told me he'd just laugh. I made Fallon and Mario sit on the couch until their parents got here, then I told them what happened.
I also went to Walmart and bought padlocks to put on all the gates so this won't happen again.
And that's the last time those kids are going to skip their naps!
Tomorrow, I'm getting insurance. I guess I will have to wait to get that dishwasher.
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Just for a Sec
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Feb 19, 2007 9:42 pm
Mood: drained,
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Wow. If you read my last blog entry, you'd think I had ADD or something....LOL!
(I do, BTW)
I'm not supposed to be up this late, so this will be brief...yeah, right, like I can really make that true...
I only had the three preschoolers today, and the weather was warmer...
It was so weird. We had a blizzard just a couple of days ago and it dumped about half a foot of snow on the ground...then, today it all melted! There were puddles everywhere!
So, as I was saying, it was warmer and the kids had been bugging me to take them to the Kwik Shop and get them donut holes. It's only a block and a half away from here. I gave in and took them, but now that I did, I know better than to do that again.
As soon as we ate our treats, Mario was asking for more. When he doesn't get his way, he doesn't handle it very well. I told him I wasn't going to get him anything else and he started taking things off the shelves and putting them somewhere else. I made him put everything back, but he sure put up a fight.
In the meantime, Fallon kept trying to get away from me...but, at least she didn't take anything.
On the up side...both boys took a two hour nap.
Fallon didn't, and sat in a big puddle later.
Hey, while the boys were napping, I got a call to take care of a newborn baby girl starting the middle of next month! I told her I'd save her a spot since Sierre hardly comes. I can't seem to get a hold of her grandparents. I hope she's okay. I don't even know how her grandpa did after the surgery. I wish they'd answer their phone.
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