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Good and Bad....God Is Always In Control!
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Mar 16, 2008 8:39 pm
Mood: confident,
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I'm praising God for my brother....who found out he was just hired to be the Minister of Music in a church in Kansas City! That means, he'll live a lot closer to us! That also means we'll be able to visit him a lot easier! I never did see his home in Oklahoma. I'd get lost for sure if I tried.
I'm also praising God that our church has decided on a pastor! It's been a whole year that we've been without a permanent pastor. It's hasn't been bad...we've had wonderful interim pastors and our choir has been growing like crazy, anyway. Our passion play has 124 in its cast...I found out. We did need a permanent pastor, though.
I'm praising God that I found the same homeschooling program that I used when I was in junior high school, too...
but, I still have so many unanswered questions in my own life....
Does God want me to be a home daycare provider anymore? And if He does, why do I only have two full-time clients and one part-time client left?
And how are we supposed to live on only what I will get from that?
Yet, God tells me...."Lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths."
and..."They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength."
and..."Lo, I am with you always, even to the ends of the earth."
There are so many verses..."If God so clothes the lilies of the field, will He not also clothe you?"
"Who of you by worrying can add a single day to his life?"
so i will wait...and I will trust....and if I never get to where I want to be in this life...at least I know I'll always have something to look forward to....because I know HE holds the future.
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God, Save Dylan!
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Mar 16, 2008 3:32 pm
Mood: hopeful,
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We still aren't done! We have five more performances of the Passion Play...but that's okay. So many people are accepting Christ as their personal Saviour! It's so AWESOME!
My boys are getting tired of watching it, though. Dylan spent the night again last night, wanting to go to the Passion Play for a third time and my boys didn't want to get up! I took Dylan, anyway, and he was good. I just hope he understood that Jesus died for him and that he can have a personal relationship with Him.
He was talking to us in the car last night and said that he thought if he killed himself, no one would miss him. That really disturbs me. He gets into a lot of fights, but he really isn't a bad kid. He never gives us any trouble, is always friendly and polite around us...but is always talking about the violent shows he watches on tv and the violent things he sees when he's walking around our neighborhood. I just pray he knows that its okay for him and his sisters to come here when they don't feel safe.
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Our First Passion Play Performance
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Mar 14, 2008 8:38 pm
Mood: good,
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What an awesome thing to be a part of! Tonight, we had a full house at our church's Passion Play performance. That meant that there were probably six hundred people. And we got a standing ovation!
I thought everyone did really well...and I made sure to hold someone's hand in the dark so I wouldn't trip. My headdress still didn't want to stay on, though. And when I was changing from the angel costume to the Bible woman's costume, my contact lense gave me grief. Luckily, I found it, in time.
The most dramatic part...when they flogged Jesus and crucified Him...I didn't have to pretend to cry. I couldn't even stop myself. I can just imagine how terrible it would have been for Jesus' disciples to watch that happen to Him. And He did it for us...when we didn't deserve it at all.
Tonight, Dylan and Omega came over. They're two of my boys' friends. It was Zach's idea to take them with us to the Passion Play. I was thinking, at first, that I didn't want to be responsible for two more kids when I couldn't really watch them since I was in the play, but then, I started thinking that these two children really needed to go. Especially, since Dylan was bragging about choking a boy until he coughed up blood.
They're spending the night tonight. I took them out for sundaes after the play because they did sit for the whole two hours and that's hard for them to do.
ZAch has another good idea, too. Tomorrow night, he wants to film the play and show it to the people at the mission who aren't able to go see it. I wrote to Jimmy to ask him if he'd like to do that. I'm just waiting to see what he thinks about it.
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The Show Shall Begin
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Mar 13, 2008 1:22 pm
Mood: excited,
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Tonight, is another dress rehearsal for the Passion play we're doing at church. We had one yesterday, too. Apparently, we had them Monday and Tuesday, too, but I didn't realize that, so I missed them.
Tonight, though, will be different, because some of the people that can't be there any other night we're having the play will be there to watch. Tomorrow night is the real thing...which won't be much different than tonight, except there will probably be more people.
I couldn't get my headdress to stay on my head last night. Maybe that's why the women quit wearing those...hmmm.
It's really hard to see in the dark when we're supposed to get offstage, too. People kept telling me to hurry up because I couldn't see where I was going. Tonight, I'm going to grab someone who can see in the dark really well.
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I Just Wanted Some Shoes!
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Mar 13, 2008 1:10 pm
Mood: tired,
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Today started out fine. Little Mel didn't show up, so I was going to take Kharys to the mall to buy some shoes for the MS Walk. It wouldn't have been any big deal just taking one toddler. I was taking Christopher, too.
Right before we headed out the door, though, Melanie showed up. Chris groaned. She's a very stubborn little girl and it doesn't bother her to throw a fit no matter where she goes.
We went anyway, against my better judgment. Chris put the double-stroller in the van. We loaded up the girls and made it to the mall.
We went to get drinks at a Coke stand, then when we got to the shoestore, they didn't allow drinks in the store. We only took one sip, then put them right outside the store to come for them later.
The man in the store helped us a lot, but I couldn't find some shoes I liked in my size and price range, so after Melanie tried to knock over the manequins, rammed the stroller into the shoe stand, and thought she'd help me out by handing me several of the display shoes from off the wall, we left. When we looked for our pop, though, it was gone! Someone stole our pop!
Well, this made me a little mad, so I went back to the place where we got it and explained to them that we only had one drink before someone took it, hoping they would give us another cup to fill....and they wouldn't! The lady admitted she remembered me buying the drinks. It wouldn't have cost her anything....but she wouldn't give us another cup!
Well, we still needed shoes, so even though we were thirsty, we went to another shoestore and went through the same thing with Melanie trying to tip manequins, running out of the store, and stealing display shoes.
I couldn't get her to sit still in the double stroller and when I did put her in it, she thought it was fun to bop Kharys on the head. Kharys wasn't amused.
I found some shoes for Chris and me, but none for Zach, but the kids were getting hungry, so I bought them a Happy meal to split. We sat down to eat it, then I thought of how bad Zach would feel if I didn't bring him home some shoes when Chris got some...so we went to another shoe store.
I made it a quick trip this time...just asked the woman if she could find a pair in his size and she did. I sure hope he isn't picky about them. They look like they could make it the six miles....whether he can or not is a different story.
The worst part of the day, though, was that I had to change Melanie before getting her home...and that was really a mess to do in the van. It's a good thing I keep lots of plastic bags in the van.
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I'm Still Not Brave Enough
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Mar 10, 2008 9:04 pm
Mood: content,
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I keep carrying around my MS sponsor sheet with me when I go to church, but haven't been brave enough to ask anyone to sponsor me yet. I did manage to start up a website so I could ask people through that and get them to sponsor online...but only one nice woman from our church who knows my sister sponsored me so far. I only put down forty email addresses, though, so, tomorrow, during naptime, I'm going to add more.
Today, it was packed here. School was out. I'm not sure why, this time, but since it was out, that meant three more school-aged kids were here. Since it was Monday, the two other little girls who are only here on Mondays now, were here, too. What a lot of work!
It seemed it would never get done. And someone spilled something really sticky, so everyone's shoes squeaked wherever they went.
Then, tomorrow, I'm back to only having two. This is just crazy. Some days there are so many, then others, hardly any. We're not making much money this way. But, somehow, we're fine. And with the Passion Play being the end of this week and all of next week, I sure need the energy I would have run out of if I had more kids to take care of. I figure when that's overwith, I'll try harder to find more.
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The Hamster Zach Picked Out
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Mar 9, 2008 7:55 pm
Mood: good,
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The hamster Zach chose is different than any hamster I've ever owned. He's really hairy, but he's white and has red eyes. They call him an Albino hamster. Zach calls him Fluffy.
I didn't think about it at the time, but the other hamster we have is a female named Hammy. She's a big round Fancy Hamster with short hair. The boys thought it would be fun for them to meet each other, so they put Fluffy in Hammy's cage. I'm not so sure that was a good idea, because they were a little confused about what happened next. Fortunately, we managed to get them back into their own cages before they went too far. I don't think we're ready for another dozen little hamsters trying to escape all the time.
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My Semi-Annual Haircut
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Mar 9, 2008 7:46 pm
Mood: amused,
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I wasn't sure I wanted to do it. I avoided it like the plague. I never took time to go to the place where I get it done....but I did it. I got my hair cut. And now that I got my hair cut, I think it's too short. It's all the way up to just past my neck now. And, since I got four or five inches cut off, lots of people noticed. It's just going to take some getting used to.
The funniest part about getting my hair cut yesterday was the reluctance my boys showed when I told them they had to get their hair cut, too. Zach wasn't so hard...but I had to tell him we'd get him another hamster afterwards.
Chris, on the other hand, wouldn't get out of the car at all. I told the woman that was cutting my hair that I wished I could get my eleven year old to get out of the van because he really needed a haircut. You know what she did? She sent three of her other hairdressers out to my van to coax him inside! I told her that would never work, but, somehow, they got him to come inside!
I told them he really needed it washed, and he agreed to that, but somehow, when they were washing it, they talked him into getting it trimmed!
Just the amusement of watching them get Chris to cooperate was worth it that my hair turned out too short. It's not such a big deal anyway. This year, I'll only have to get it cut once.
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I Finally Spilled the Beans
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Mar 8, 2008 6:56 am
Mood: good,
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We went over to my parents' house last night so we could celebrate Dad's birthday with my sister and brother and their families. They're all from out of town. My daughter and her hubby came, too.
I sish I would have brought my camcorder because it was so beautiful watching Dad read the book Mom put together for him with little poems and birthday wishes, and memories from everyone she could think of who would contribute.
Mom put together a beautiful poem that she wrote and it brought tears to Dad's eyes to read it to everyone. I almost cried, too. I don't think I've ever, in my life seen Dad sit still for so long to read the book out loud to us. He's always doing something...workaholism is what we call it.
While everyone was in a good mood, I was able to find the courage to tell them that I pulled Christopher out of the public school and homeschool him. The only negative reaction I got was from Mom...and she just frowned for a little bit. She did ask me what their dad thought about it, though. I just told her he didn't need to know.
I'm still desperately thinking up how I'm going to put together my plan on homeschooling for several children at a time in my home or using the church to start a Christian school. What God wants me to do, I can do...so if He wants this to happen, He's going to show me what I have to do.
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Is God Wanting me Our of my Comfort Zone?
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Mar 6, 2008 8:39 pm
Mood: determined,
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I'm just a quiet, timid woman who hardly talks to anyone who intimidates me....which would include a great deal of people. Oh, I can chat my heart out in the chatroom, but if someone in the real world were to confront me with something really important, I'm not a big debater....
but, then, most of the people I talk to are children, or parents of the children I take care of...
Since I started homeschooling Christopher, though, and got all this awesome curriculum for him, and actually gone through the curriculum and seen that it's full of wonderful, Biblical teachings that every young person needs to know...I WANT TO RUN MY OWN CHRISTIAN SCHOOL! I do! I want to use PACES, just like I got for Christopher....just like I used to use when I went to the private Christian school when I was in junior high.
But I have no idea how or where to begin. My parents still don't know I'm homeschooling. I told my daughter, but I didn't tell anyone else in our family and am making my kids keep it secret. I don't want to make waves....but I want to, somehow, some way, figure out how to start this school. I feel God closing doors so He can open others. My childcare business is dwindling and my patience for toddlers is wearing thin.
I have a teaching certificate and a degree in education.
I have a background in the private, Christian school.
I have the desire to make the world a better place where young people can learn to live up to their fullest potential.
And I believe that with God, all things are possible.
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