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Made it through a Monday
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Nov 30, 2009 7:00 pm
Mood: calm,
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I hope that everyone had a nice Thanksgiving! I hope that you were able to be with loved ones and be thankful for everything God has done for you. I hope that you made happy memories while you enjoyed being together.
My Thanksgiving this year was full of mixed emotions. I have so much to be thankful for, and for part of the time I was with everyone in my family, I was really grateful that we could all be together. We looked at videos and albums of when our children were babies and they enjoyed seeing how much they changed in seven years, six years, five years. It was adorable to see them dance as toddlers and sing as small children.
The mood, Friday, was totally different from the mood on Thursday.
On Thursday, my sister was scared. I could see the tears in her eyes when we were singing, "Give Thanks" around the dinner table. She usually sings louder than anyone else. This year, her MS is getting worse. The medication isn't working. She has more lesions on her brain. She doesn't know what will happen. I wish I knew what I could do for her.
This year, things seemed totally different that last year. This year, I feel like I'm not even the same person I was. Everything I worked for is gone...my daycare business, my desire to be in the choir and the musicals, my mission to feed the homeless in the park on Sundays. Nothing is the same. But I'm still thankful. I'm thankful that I have my sons. I'm thankful that my daughter is happily married. I'm thankful that my parents are letting us stay here even though we haven't been able to pay rent for a long time. I'm thankful we have enough to eat. I'm thankful my boys aren't our vandalizing or drinking or smoking or cussing. I'm thankful we can go to the retirement home and see my aunt and learn more about the history of our family.
We went to see her yesterday after church. It had been three weeks. She looked like it was getting harder for her to walk. She said she was hoping we would come by. I'm glad we did. Zach drew a picture for her. He likes drawing little bearded men, lately, and he does it really well. She told him he should be a cartoonist.
I was feeling sick, yesterday, before church. I wasn't going to go. I opened up the Bible before I started to go to the car and it opened right up to "and David washed his hands, put on his clothes and went into the house of the Lord." I opened right up to a verse that talked about going to church...so I knew, right then, that I was supposed to go to church, even if I felt sick.
We were really late, as always, but the sermon was about Mark 14 and that was about Jesus second coming! And I've been studying about that! But, this passage told me that NO ONE KNOWS the hour or the day when Jesus comes back...so that means that Elijah didn't know the world would end after six thousand years. I don't know where those people that claimed Elijah said that got their information, because I don't think it's in the Bible.
Our church hardly ever talks about the second coming...but they did, yesterday! I think they should more often. It's all over the Bible.
Today, I had a hard time getting the boys up after that long vacation. I don't know if they slept in school, or not, but I sure kept busy. It seems like I can get a lot more done with laundry and cleaning and grocery shopping if they aren't here. I went to the Y today, too. I hadn't been there since Wednesday. Tomorrow, I'm going early because I have to go to my uncle's funeral.
Dorian just left a few minutes ago. He came over after school and stayed all that time. I don't mind when he's here. He isn't any trouble....since we set the parental controls up on the computer.
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Reminder to Self.....ANDTHIS IS IMPORTANT!
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Nov 26, 2009 8:32 am
Mood: goofy,
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Dear Miss Disorganized,
Your son was only trying to help, last night when he got the bag of groceries out of the car trunk and DROPPED that glass jar of alfredo in the driveway. Yes, you told him not to get the alfredo because you don't like it, but that's beside the point.
DON'T FORGET TO MAKE SURE THERE ARE NO GLASS SLIVERS BEHIND THE TIRES OF YOUR CAR BEFORE YOU FILL UP THE TRUNK WITH FOOD TO TAKE TO YOUR MOM'S.
If you forget, this could be a very bad Thanksgiving because you have no idea how to change a tire and most places will be closed that could help you out.
ALSO,
Don't forget to wipe all the chocolate off the phone receiver before you answer the phone again. Answering the phone when you're trying to pry fudge that wouldn't set up out of the dish was NOT a good idea.
Now get in there and devil those eggs before you forget!
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Like a Thief in the Night
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Nov 25, 2009 2:55 pm
Mood: creative,
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Like a thief in the night,
taking all by surprise,
He will come for His own.
He will silent their cries.
And the world will wise up
finding out what was true,
but on that glorious day,
is He coming for you?
When He opens the clouds
when the trumpets will blare
are you ready to meet
our sweet Lord in the air?
Will the money you've made
and the kingdoms you rule
save your life from it's end
or will you play the fool?
Will the lovers you've played
or the ones you've deceived
for your own selfish gain
meet your innermost need?
Like a thief in the night,
He will come for His bride.
For our King we should wait
with our arms open wide!
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My House Smells Like Cookies!
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Nov 24, 2009 7:41 pm
Mood: wondering,
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I don't know what possessed me to bake those Russian Tea Cakes a little while ago, but being as impulsive as I am, all it takes is a suggestion, sometimes. This time, the suggestion came when I was looking for a recipe for lemon bars, then discovered I didn't have any graham crackers for the crust. The Russian tea cakes recipe was right across from it.
I wanted to make the lemon bars because I had just made pumpkin pudding pie and the crust reminded me of lemon bars. This desert tasted kind of strange, though...kind of like it had some kind of strange spice in it. It reminded me of some kind of cleaner. I'm wondering now if I accidentally got the fork I stirred it with too close to some cleaner. If it doesn't taste any better by tomorrow, I'm throwing it out. I already decided I'm taking those tea cakes for Thanksgiving. At least, I'll have one thing.
I boiled eggs, too. I always get the privilege of deviling the eggs and putting together the relish tray.
I almost always get clean-up duty, too. No one says I have to. I just do it because I usually don't help cook much...because I'm not a planner...or a cook. I mean, I can cook....but everyone else in the family can cook better....so why torture them?
I didn't do a whole lot today. I didn't go to the Y. I didn't go for a run on the trail. I didn't go to the store. I didn't go anywhere at all. I just stayed home and ended up reading a lot on prophecy. I did the usual cleaning and laundry and cooked up a good soup, but spent quite a few hours reading. I never do that.
Did I finish any book or article? Of course not...but since I read something in the Prince of Darkness that told me the Jews believe in a false Messiah named "Armillus", I looked up that name online. Under that heading, I came up with a bunch of sites.
I looked at the third one down, I think, and found something written by Johannes Butrix....or some name like that...and found that he's a Christian, writing about the Jewish beliefs.
He said that Elijah declared that the world would last 6000 years.
I hadn't actually ever read that in the Bible, but had heard that the world was probably not more than 6000 years old and I believe that.
I've never known Elijah's prophecies to be wrong, and I've read a lot about them. If he did say that the world was only going to last 6000 years, I believe that.
I don't know who came up with this next number, but the article says that Jesus was born 3963 years after the creation of the world. If the world was only supposed to last 2037 years more than that, that would mean there are only 27 years left!
I know Jesus doesn't know the hour of His return, but if Elijah knows the year, it would seem to me that Jesus would know the year.
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How This Week Changed Life
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Nov 21, 2009 7:38 am
Mood: daring,
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This past week really has changed some things for me. It's kind of funny how so many little things can make a difference...not always in good ways, but in all kinds of ways. I just hope I can remember everything that's gone on so I can determine, to some extent, how these changes will effect the future.
Chris has been sick with some kind of viral infection and hasn't been to school since Tuesday. I took him in for a strep test on Thursday and they said it was negative. They always send those in to the lab where it takes a couple of days to know for sure. I was going to send him to school, yesterday, but his cough made me send him back to bed. I wish we could all just get well and stay well.
Zach didn't want to miss school last week because it was "Spirit Week." Funny, how just having the kids dress a certain way with wearing funny hats one day, or mis-matched clothes the next, can get them excited about going to school. I'm glad it works. It made it easier to get him to go.
A friend mailed me four books this week. He found them online. They look really good. "Coping with Mild Traumatic Brain Injury", "Brain Injury Survivor Guide", "Brain, Heal Thyself", and "Overcoming Fear, Worry, and Anxiety". I'm most excited about "Brain Injury Survivor Guide" by Beth Jameson. It was published just last year, so it's more up-to-date. I read four chapters of it. It's easy to read because the lines are spaced. It's easier to focus on books when the lines are spaced.
One thing about that book, though, is that, when I started reading it, I just started crying. Just knowing that all these things I've had to live with all my life are because I was in that coma for three weeks.....and that my whole way of thinking and relating to the outside world....is finally being understood...I mean, wow! That just makes me cry! And what seems so amazing to me is that this woman that had the brain injury in the book...has such a wonderful husband who's learned to understand and help her! I mean, I do have my parents who've done so much for me....but they didn't know that I didn't know my limitations. They didn't know all the problems people with brain damage cause for themselves or that I wasn't as capable of handling stress as people without brain damage. I can't wait to show them these books. I hope they read them
These books will help them understand my sister, too, because Multiple Schlerosis is a form of brain damage.
My sister. My poor sister. I wish there was a way for me to help her. She had more tests done last Saturday that showed that her treatments aren't working. She has more trouble staying on her feet. She has more pain. More lesions on her brain. I would help her if she were in town, but don't see her much at all because I can't even figure out how to get to her house on my own.
She has more to deal with than I do because she tires easily and can't be in the sun. She has to give herself shots every day. Now we've found out that they aren't even helping. Multiple Scherosis is a cruel disease.
This week has also changed me because I've been talking to some of my bigchurch friends about the last days. It seems that each one of my friends has discovered something new this week...or at least, revealed it to me. One told me that the European Union...I'm guessing that's what EU stands for....has elected a new president. He said that this coming week that president is going to sign a charter organizing a one-world religion.
With the studying I've done and things I've heard, a one-world religion is one of the signs that's predicted for the end times. I always thought that the one-world religion would come after the Antichrist sets up his kingdom on earth.
Two of my friends told me that they think the Pope is the False Prophet. One says that he's the antichrist. I think that we just need to pay attention that we don't do anything we were warned not to do.
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Ouch.
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Nov 19, 2009 11:44 am
Mood: embarassed,
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I think that I need to concentrate on what I'm doing more when I'm on that treadmill. I finally asked someone yesterday what that belt was for with the clip on it, so I put it on. It turns out that the machine won't stop until that magnet comes off of the belt and that belt is TOO long to come off before someone falls off.
I wish I would have known that before, because today I fell off. I just wanted to see how many people were running around the track, but forgot that multitasking isn't something I'm very good at. I was okay....just jumped back on again and ran some more, but that was kind of embarrassing. Especially, when one of them men who saw me fell and KNEW I WAS OKAY. (He saw me running afterward)...went and told the manager what happened. Sheesh, can't a person fall once in awhile?
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Now I Know Who Was Murdered Sunday Night.
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Nov 17, 2009 8:01 pm
Mood: mixed,
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I found out today who was shot to death at the end of our block on Sunday night. I didn't hear the fight or the gunfire because I was at Walmart with the boys. They were dividing their money to buy another SIMS game they'd been wanting.
It probably wasn't the smartest thing I ever did to find out about the murder, but, then, I'm not known for thinking about all that could go wrong. I just asked two young men who were walking out of that apartment what had happened and one of them told me that the owner of the apartment was shot to death. Another woman was shot in the leg. The owner was only 49, and the other woman was in her twenties.
I realized from the description the men gave me that those were probably the woman I gave tomatoes to a month ago. That was the only encounter I had ever had with either one of them.
Thanks to a bigchurch friend, I found out from a website that the murderer escaped. That's not good. I'd hate to think he's still out there with a gun shooting other people. I bet anything it was drug-related, too. It might have been a drive-by shooting.
I worked out harder than ever today at the Y. I was going to stop running on that treadmill I just figured out how to use, but then TobyMac's song..."You Got Me Feelin' So Fly" came on, and I just had to get back on there and keep going. Then Newsboys' "You Love Is Better Than Life" came up next and I had to run to that, too. I can't help it....I love those Christian artists.
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Chaos of a Mad World
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Nov 16, 2009 12:43 pm
Mood: scaredd,
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Mom called me this morning. She usually calls to ask if the boys talked me into letting them stay home from school. I did send one of them, but Zach's school sent home a letter saying that if our kids had ANY flu symptoms to keep them home. Zach was sneezing and had a bad stomach ache. I think that would be a reason to keep him home.
The other reason Mom called, though, was because she watches the news and found out that someone in those apartments on my corner was shot and killed last night. She said that it was two women that were shot and that the other one was in the hospital. She said that they didn't mention any names.
Dad called an hour later and asked me if I had heard about the shooting on the corner. I guess Mom didn't tell Dad she called. The police cars are still out there. Dad told me that, at least our neighborhood should be safer until they leave.
You know what I find interesting? Connie, the woman that lives down there by those apartments, told me last week that she was really scared that something was going to happen there. She said that there was a drug problem and gangs that hang out over there. She seemed particularly nervous last week though....almost like she knew it would happen. My daughter told me that Connie said once that she was a prophetess. I wonder if she really is! [COLOR orangered]
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How It Is
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Nov 15, 2009 7:36 am
Mood: relaxed,
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I have so much to say, I just don't know where to begin. I mean, even in one day, a lot of stuff can happen. [/COLOR! I can make this blog pink! Ooo....bold pink! I've been blogging all these years and didn't realize I could change the size and color. Shows you how observant I am.
Anyway, on to the blog...
My daughter was on her way back home from Kansas City, so I told her she needed to stop here so we could spend some time together. We agreed to meet at the mall. The boys wanted to get out of the house, anyway, so it didn't take much persuasion to get them to agree to that.
So, after I mowed the lawn one more time because Dad told me it would chop up the leaves and be better for the lawn....we headed off toward the mall.
My daughter called while we were on the way and told us she accidentally got on the turnpike headed toward Emporia. I can't figure out how she did that, but, somehow, got turned back around to go the right direction and eventually got to the mall.
It's kind of funny, though, because with that little delay, I happened to bump into Zach's teacher's mom. I don't know if I mentioned before that two weeks ago Zach's teacher was involved in a serious car accident that even put her little girl in a coma. I didn't know how bad everything was until I talked to her mom. The little girl is okay, but the doctor said that she probably wouldn't live if she had another concussion. Please pray for her.
My daughter ran into a couple of her friends, too, and we talked to them for a little while.
We eventually ended up in Sears, where they were having a big clearance sale on their summer clothes, so we looked for a little while...just to see if we could find anything interesting.
When we looked at the dresses, we found some really pretty ones that were only five bucks! I told her I didn't have anywhere to wear those, but that was too good a deal to pass up...and they were my size!
My daughter found some pretty dresses she bought, too. Who knows? Maybe, someday, both of us will have a reason to wear those.
When we got home, Zach took my picture with them on and made it look like I was in front of the Epcot Center at Disney World. It's amazing how he can edit pictures like that.
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A Horrible Thing
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Nov 14, 2009 7:54 am
Mood: bad,
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Yesterday, I got a call from Melanie's dad. I took care of Melanie for the first three years of her life before my daycare was closed down. If you've been reading my blogs, you know all about Melanie, how she's three and a half, being raised primarily by her dad.
I grew to love Melanie, though...I mean, sure, she was always throwing fits and not a very happy child, at times....but since she had the water shut off a few times at her house, I could understand that this was only one unpleasant thing she had to deal with. I can't imagine how it would be to live for a week at a time without having the water running.
But, when her dad called yesterday, he told me something just so terrible, I'm really worried about her. He told me that Melanie told him a boy at her day care wanted her to do something sexual with him! I mean, I don't know how old this boy is, or anything about him...but Melanie is only three years old!
Hearing this, makes me just want to go get her and keep her here, away from all the terrible things out there.
Please pray for Melanie. It seems like the only thing I can do now is pray.
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