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Mar 10, 2006 8:00 am
Mood: beautiful,
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I would like to say thank you to all of you who have posted comments on my blogs, what a joy it is to hear from you.
Remain blessed to be a blessing
Darla
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Mar 10, 2006 7:38 am
Mood: bouncy,
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Hello my fellow bloggers,
I am having a great time in Cali. They say the weather here is cold. It's 50 degrees....I'm from MI, this is great!!!! No Jacket even (smile). Ministry here is going well. Am sheduled at a ladies meeting tomorrow morning. I will be speaking on "Your Joy is Based on What You Know". It is going to be a great time of enlightenment and change.
Be blessed my friends
Darla
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Blog #2 My Testimony
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Mar 8, 2006 5:00 am
Mood: cheerful,
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Hello Friends,
Wow, this is just my second time to blog. The response from the first one really amazed me. Hearing from some of you has impressed me to share my testimony of how I came through a tragedy last year. The best way for me to do that is share a letter I had written to a couple of my pastor friends. I pray it will be enlightening to you. Be blessed.
Darla
I felt the need to write and tell you that Danny and I are no longer together. A year ago he decided to do something different. There was another woman involved which is so not him. He was displaying some behavior outside of his normal character maybe about two months before he dropped the bombshell on me. I didn’t take it serious, I should have. The woman was the result of him leaving, she was not the reason. The ministry finally became more than he cared to handle. Danny never grew in his own faith. He is a retarded Christian and I don’t say that to be disrespectful it’s the truth. He never read his bible or had a time of prayer, this was while we were pastoring. I kept praying for him expecting him to rise to occasion. He did not. He agreed to everything we were doing in ministry but struggled with the faith that it takes to stand. Believe me it wasn’t easy. It was a whole new level for both of us. I was struggling too but not to the point of quitting. I may have struggled due to fear but did it anyway in the face of fear. Joyce Meyer teaches “To do it afraid”. Well, I have first hand experience with that. I did it but I was afraid. It was a “learning how to trust God” season in our life. While I was working to stand in my own faith I had to deal with Danny’s doubt and unbelief everyday. That was my biggest struggle.
In tears I asked Danny why he was leaving and why he didn’t want to get counseling and work it out…..he said, “I just want a normal life with a normal wife.” I chuckle as I write that because I am as far away from normal as you can get. I walk by faith everyday and do not believe everything I see. I believe God’s word over what I see in the natural, just like you both do. Ya’al aren’t normal either (smile). Normal people don’t do big stuff with no money. I mean when God gives me an assignment I say yes, knowing I do not have the money to do it, I then ask Him to show me how and you know what? He always shows me how and it ends up costing Him money instead of me. To me this the norm. Danny also said I was high maintenance. I was really puzzled at that. To me he was high maintenance. I asked God about that and he said, “You are high maintenance to the natural man but a blessing to the spiritual man.” Isn’t that good? I love to hear God’s perspective on things.
Well, while the last year was the hardest one of my life, I fought like hell for my life. What I mean by that is I fought as hard for my life as hell fights for ours. I wasn’t cussing (smile). I won…….I came through…..I passed the test. I did close my church, however I continued to pastor nine months after he left but I couldn’t get my passion back to pastor this group of people. I continued but was in a continual daze. I kept thinking any minute I was going to wake up. I even did "The Day of Worship” at the fair grounds which is a real big deal, I even ministered. I remember ministering, I could feel the fire of God working through me just like He always does but I felt nothing for me. I didn’t enjoy it. It was like He just used my body working from my spirit where He dwells but I was not even connected. I believe the pain was so severe that I was numb to His touch. I didn’t even want to do it. I asked God if He could even use me in the shape I was in. He told me if I was willing He was, and of course I was willing. I remember when Danny first left I would stand in my dinning room, which is the central room, and wonder which room I came from and which one I was needing to go to. I was so overwhelmed with grief that I couldn’t think of what room I needed to go to. Dealing with that was more than I could handle. I didn’t have the mental capacity to figure out something so simple. I remember just falling to the floor weeping uncontrollably because this little thing was so overwhelming. I now can relate to someone having a nervous breakdown. I did not have a nervous breakdown but I believe what I was feeling was the beginning of one. I placed myself under a powerful man of God who went through the same thing 4 years prior. He, at the time I placed myself under his leadership, was still single, he remarried this year. He was able to minister to me and explain my feelings to me. He understood the dazed stage and ministered to me through that and all the other stages. The loss of the sense of belonging was more than I could bear. That was the last stage I had to go through. The first being the loss of my husband, the second the loss of my best friend, the third the loss of the sense of belonging to that special someone, we were married almost 30 years. I can tell you everyone in his family, my family and the community was so shocked, except for one Man of God. He has been pastoring here for over 20 years, he is a man of prayer and is very prophetic. I call him the Kenneth Hagan Sr. of Allegan. He reminds me so much of him. In 2004 at “The Day of Worship” this man of God saw, in the spirit, that our marriage would break up. He told me this after I communicated to him that Danny had left. He said this was one time he wanted to be wrong – he was grieved. Ultimately the enemy was after my ministry and I know that. Once he broke through my marriage covenant that made my ministry vulnerable, but he did not anticipate the leadership I placed myself under for protection. Pastor Scott Anderson became my pastor and spiritual covering. I began immediately to plant seed into his ministry. It wasn’t long after, I sensed the presence of the Spirit of Victory on me. It rose up in me and I begin to confess the word over myself even on days when the pain was so severe I just wanted to stay in bed. I made a deal with myself. I said okay you can lay in bed if you want to but you are going to do your confessions. After a few minutes of confessions I was restless in bed and found myself up and about finishing my confessions throughout the day and saying (out loud) “What a great day to be alive.” And I meant it. People don’t realize how powerful the Word of God is. I had enough of it in me that when the enemy came in, LIKE A FLOOD the Holy Spirit raised up a standard against him. That standard was the word in me. The harder satan pressed the greater the flood became. It was like a mighty tsunami of the Word of God that broke down all bearers designed to keep me from my victory. Hallelujah!!!!!
Danny did remarry but not the woman he was involved with when he left me. About 5 weeks after he left he realized this woman was not normal either. She had some major mental issues. Now she was pretty – she is a tall thin blond. She looked good on his arm but was all messed up. He ended up marrying a woman who found him on the net. I believe God blessed him with a normal wife. She is well-to-do and was just coming out of a bad relationship herself. They dated 2 months and then married. He has a very normal life with her. They have a nice house, nice cars, good jobs, vacations and money in the bank and attend church on Sunday. This is the normal life he wanted, little faith required. To me that is boring. While I enjoy those comforts here on earth the faith walk is never ending with excitement. I have since bought a home a better car (paid cash for the car), and I am starting to travel as the Lord has finally released me to go back to work. I leave tomorrow to go to Temecula Ca. to minister to a friend who is sick. I will be there for two weeks putting her through one of the bible classes from my Bible Training School. The class is “Who the Bible Says You Are.” People get healed while taking this class a lot. So I am expecting her too. In April I go to three countries in Africa, Lusaka Zambia, Nairobi Kenya, and Sierra Leone. I am taking my Bible School “EL-Shaddai School of the Bible” to Nairobi. I am very excited about that. I will be there 2 weeks. I will be doing Bible training during the day and “The Abundant Life by the Hand of God” conference in the evening.
I tell you the level I am on now is greater than anything I have ever experienced. The opposition is greater but so is the anointing. I call this level the “Totally Abandoned Level” this is where you see just how you haven’t denied yourself and taken up your cross (assignment from God) and followed Him. This is where you learn just what that means. Where you learn, I am crucified with Christ it is no longer I that live but Christ that lives in me and how to really present your body (whole being) as a living sacrifice. Total Abandonment of one’s self. It’s a challenge but the most awesome place to be. Pastors, I feel no connection with this world and its things. I can now relate to Apostle Paul when he said he was stripped naked to the world and the world was stripped naked to him. This is liberty. I have spent the last 7 years living a life of major discipline. Mainly my 5:00 A.M. prayer, and then the fasting and the workouts to get in shape to be able to handle the anointing that I knew God would flow thru me. I pushed for greater things and now here I am getting ready to walk into much greater things. This discipline over the years has brought me to this place of great liberty. Discipline produces liberty, while no discipline produces bondage. Thank God for those years I pushed even when I didn’t see results, I still pushed because God said to. Oh my God Pastors, as I stand at the threshold of greater things I am overwhelmed by His presence in my life as I am getting ready to step into the dreams of my life. There are no words to describe how good God is so I have set out to glorify Him with my life in Him. As my intimacy with Him becomes greater, excellence is birthed. My God I feel the Holy Ghost as I write to you.
I will see both soon, thank you for being my friends.
Your Friend Darla
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What I do
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Mar 7, 2006 7:33 am
Mood: beautiful,
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Wow, first of all I am very impressed with this site. It's not just a single's site to find your soul mate - I think that is great. It is a tool to network, make contacts, get to know people and fellowship.
I am in full time ministry, I travel a lot and love it. I am leaving for California tomorrow (Temecula) to minister to a friend for a couple of weeks and then next month to Africa to minister in three countries. I love doing the work of God. I dreamed for years of being able to go full time ministry. I have now been able to do that for 3 years and I have not missed one meal and all of my bills are paid, God is good!
I am a worship leader, song writer, writer, preacher, teacher and I pastored for 2 years before the Lord called me to travel full time.
Well that is good for now I will blog another time as my schedule allows.
Yes, the joy of the Lord is your strength but it's based on what you know. If you know nothing you will have no joy therefore you will have no strength.
Stay blessed and be a blessing.
Until next time.
bowflexteecia7at
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