http://bigchurch.com/blog/Polly6/index.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104 Me at twenty four I thought the world was there for all to enjoy and party. This I did whole hearted, my best friend and I took the local nightclub scene to there and back. Having been sunday schooled as a child, my mother took her faith from one and applied towards the Anglican faith feeling more at home. She spoke to me about Dad joining this church because of his illness with cancer. Although I thought I would need a place to worship now and then, that maybe I should think of being confirmed with my parents. Well the lessons and guidance was given. Mum and myself were confirmed at our local church and Dad, most unwell now, experienced his confirmation at home. My dear Dad passed away a month after that day, totally at peace with his love of his family and God. Our priest said to think of him drifting out to sea in a sailboat and that one day we would all meet again...... Not once through this heart wrenching time did I question my faith or love of God. All seemed like a bad sad nightmare that one day I would wake up and all would be back the way it was. Christmas came and all put on brave faces still mourning. There is always a date I really try to past by without to much thinking or remembering, this I am going to share with you now. The 29th December 1988 was just a average day. Then my sister splitting up with her partner, came to see mum and I, upset we went for a drive returning just before evening. Well my sisters now ex-partner still angry, upset and having spent most of the day in the hotel, decided to confront her. Not wishing to put to much detail in because that day myself, my mum, three nieces aged 11, 7 and 5 with my 3yo nephew were threatened at knife point. I was stabbed, while my niece 11yo received 16 s tit ches in her arm from this beast. He also threatened the 7yo saying, did she wish to be put with her grandfather. Luckily for us my sister fled out the front door to call for help. I've found hindsight a wonderful thing in life but you don't know how you will react or cope with something until you are living it. Not once through this heart wrenching time did I question my faith or love of God. So hear is my question to you. Why with all these things that have pasted through my life. Why am I now asking if this man I have met through big church is who he has sent to love me and only me? Yours in Christ Polly6 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_162770.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= HeavenlySights quoted on a blog...... Sometimes I wake up afraid, asking questions like, "Who's going to take care of me if something happens? Will my siblings be there?" And that's when I start to pr Wed, 17 Mar 2010 05:53:01 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_162770.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_161956.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= Here I am again feeling down because I have been told I can't have this operation (hysterectomy) so close to home. (an hours travel) So its to the major city, (ICK) I am not a fan of Melbourne but at Sat, 20 Feb 2010 04:34:33 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_161956.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_160604.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= Wow I was just told not 5 minutes ago that an ex neighbor and friend passed away. She was a true gem, I shall miss her very much... We weren't that close but she would look after my dog when I went an Wed, 06 Jan 2010 23:00:11 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_160604.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_160422.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= A problem shared is a problem halved??? Well I sure hope so... I am going to share this and the best thing is if you don't wish to read on, you can go find a blog you like. So my problem is the one I Fri, 01 Jan 2010 05:03:49 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_160422.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_160156.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= Do we need lessons in the art of LISTENING... Answer: OH A BIG YES PLEASE.... It is a skill I have decided that we ALL should learn and by gosh make it fast.... It is everywhere the non-listening... W Tue, 22 Dec 2009 05:51:07 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_160156.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_159986.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= Why is it that we want things and then when we get them we really didn't want it in the first place...Or that we want something so badly that you think if you don't have it your life won't be worth mu Tue, 15 Dec 2009 06:13:39 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_159986.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_159983.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= I was thinking that I hadn't blogged for a long while, so I had better get to it. So here is... Round 511 with my health, is that we (Dr's) have thought I need a hysterectomy... Well yay for their lon Tue, 15 Dec 2009 04:06:43 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_159983.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_157617.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= ...there is God sending a bite of the cherry.... Just as I have been in a low spot at this time with my health, along comes something so out of the blue. That you know God is doing his stuff and it is Tue, 06 Oct 2009 05:30:59 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_157617.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_157131.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= On my health, well I have been to the big city and had what the gyno said would ease the pain. And guess what.... Yes it is STILL there... Shock, gasp, stunned silent... Well as I suspected NO change Thu, 24 Sep 2009 05:33:56 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_157131.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_156838.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= Well just about three hours ago I became a casual employee of an adult disability day centre. So a part of my life is looking up, it is also the first real paid work since my mental illness was diagno Thu, 17 Sep 2009 01:37:19 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_156838.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_156619.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= Where do these professional people get off............... Do they take a course in uni for insensitivity? Do they point out to those whom may not be of average height. They are short? Do they point ou Fri, 11 Sep 2009 23:27:14 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_156619.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_156618.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= Why do we as christians get to pick and choose what we wish to except God does and doesn't do to ease our conscience... We and I use the term loosely. Have trouble doing what is asked of us but when w Fri, 11 Sep 2009 23:01:05 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_156618.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_156137.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= A friend sent this a little while ago and I was cleaning up some files on my pc and this is something I found and felt I needed to share with you guys.... Yeah yeah I hear the aaawwww's No moving part Tue, 01 Sep 2009 05:31:54 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_156137.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_154905.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= It's now one hour and six minutes since I turned half ninety.. Yayy and I don't feel any different and still look the same (sigh) I guess this is time I went to my bed so I can wake up and start my fi Wed, 05 Aug 2009 08:11:44 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_154905.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_154904.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= I get that patience is a virtue but how much longer can a girl have this pain for I ASK... Our Lord...I was so very relieved to be diagnoised with Endometrosis that finally after 20 months, there was Wed, 05 Aug 2009 08:04:57 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_154904.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_154834.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= The Media (Accidently?) Missed this one!!!! Don't know whether you heard about this but Denzel Washington and his family visited the troops at Brook Army Medical Center , in San An Tue, 04 Aug 2009 02:07:41 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_154834.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_153317.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= Well since my last blog post I have been to test after test.... And don't I wish they were the test we endured back at school... Sadly NOT. But the tests one has when a girl has problems with her girl Wed, 01 Jul 2009 05:25:34 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_153317.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_152332.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= Well I am NOT a happy camper in fact I just very close to being fed up to my ears with this chronic constant ache.... Its there 24/7. And has been for two weeks now... I get to see my Dr next Friday a Sat, 06 Jun 2009 02:13:15 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_152332.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_151624.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= I was at Church this morning and met our new priest and his wife. Briefly but it was a meeting, they seem okay. I seem a little miffed I think I would call it... Our sermon was on how Our Lord loves U Sun, 17 May 2009 07:31:47 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_151624.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_151399.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m= Mum wanted to go a see a grand-daughter that she hasn't seen for about 12 years. I'm not going to go into details but it was an awful thing that happened. So we were told by my sister the mother of th Mon, 11 May 2009 07:15:21 -0800 http://bigchurch.com/blog/10498/post_151399.html?site=bc&who=r,97eqtBAb/Jfizm48tPc4HQThomZ7GlZziRw_2QaUiHX6goxkiQCP56_mqEAYcuyWxlVJORxS5xuFRxD2vmTmu0c9XuEFYocZvRiilwjT2W2xoAhbACocZIHX5gwPmK75&pid=f3104&m=