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Me at twenty four I thought the world was there for all to enjoy and party. This I did whole hearted, my best friend and I took the local nightclub scene to there and back. Having been sunday schooled as a child, my mother took her faith from one and applied towards the Anglican faith feeling more at home. She spoke to me about Dad joining this church because of his illness with cancer. Although I thought I would need a place to worship now and then, that maybe I should think of being confirmed with my parents. Well the lessons and guidance was given. Mum and myself were confirmed at our local church and Dad, most unwell now, experienced his confirmation at home. My dear Dad passed away a month after that day, totally at peace with his love of his family and God. Our priest said to think of him drifting out to sea in a sailboat and that one day we would all meet again...... Not once through this heart wrenching time did I question my faith or love of God. All seemed like a bad sad nightmare that one day I would wake up and all would be back the way it was. Christmas came and all put on brave faces still mourning. There is always a date I really try to past by without to much thinking or remembering, this I am going to share with you now. The 29th December 1988 was just a average day. Then my sister splitting up with her partner, came to see mum and I, upset we went for a drive returning just before evening. Well my sisters now ex-partner still angry, upset and having spent most of the day in the hotel, decided to confront her. Not wishing to put to much detail in because that day myself, my mum, three nieces aged 11, 7 and 5 with my 3yo nephew were threatened at knife point. I was stabbed, while my niece 11yo received 16 s tit ches in her arm from this beast. He also threatened the 7yo saying, did she wish to be put with her grandfather. Luckily for us my sister fled out the front door to call for help. I've found hindsight a wonderful thing in life but you don't know how you will react or cope with something until you are living it. Not once through this heart wrenching time did I question my faith or love of God.
So hear is my question to you. Why with all these things that have pasted through my life. Why am I now asking if this man I have met through big church is who he has sent to love me and only me? Yours in Christ Polly6
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Lost and Looking to Listen Oct 26, 2008 3:40 am
Mood: crushed, 59 Views
I am at a place where Our Lords calling has been lost to me and so have lots of listening to do. I have so many questions and no answers, is this the case with many people? Do we see only what we want to see in life?? Are we only listening to what we choose to listen too??? And my biggest question of all.... How do I know when God is talking to me?????? I pray that I do what is right, I live as best I can, and I am an honest and true christian to the best of my capabilities. I know my boundaries and try to over come them, I work at being at better child of God. I still have doubts and bouts of unsureness and insecurity, I fault-er, stumble and fall, but there is Our Lord... Gently guiding me to .....................................what I pray I understand soon... My Prayers and Peace to all... Sue
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Happy to have Endometriosis Oct 1, 2008 6:21 am
Mood: Elated, 155 Views
Happy I'm Happy indeed.......... In fact I am so incredibly relieved it's downright fabulous... I have lived with these wave-like pains for three weeks every four, for well over eighteen months or more. And I am sure I'm not the only one and sure wouldn't wish it on anyone. But the relief of a diagnosis is incredible, to know that it is real and that I really have had these pains and aren't just in my head. I can't say it enough. It has been so long a time to get here and that part of my treatment is working so far and there really is a light shining brightly at the end of the tunnel. Wow I am so Thankful to God. So Thankful to everyone, if I could do a back flip or somersault I would I'm so grateful... TBTG. Yours in Faith. Sue
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The best time... Sep 13, 2008 1:42 am
Mood: happy, 104 Views
Well to start I had better tell you some history of it... I was a Home Carer and Personal Care Worker For over nine years and during my time I met up with a family, and fell in love with. Their Mum was a friend from school, she worked in the science lab and rooms, when I attended there. Then I would drive her Dad to a Daycare program a few years later. Then years after that coming in one afternoon a week to help with her twins(boy and girl 6 mths) , four year old son and six year old son with non-verbal Autism. I quickly got to know the two older boys, Nicholas, 4, would spend the afternoon with me. I ironed while he explained how the electricity was getting into the house and recording our chats... Or some days we would cook cakes and learn lots from each other. Anthony, 6, would like his video on or plan his escapes into the paddocks or get me the ice cream, bowl, spoon and the like. We also played many children's games and he was very ticklish. Well after being with these incredible kids and parents, Mum was found to have breast cancer, so all that and many months of all that goes along with it was her plight. Getting the all clear and on the road to recovery wasn't all so good, for their found a tumor on her brain. It was so hard for her but that was the person she was, strong, caring, a real fighter, and very faithful. Her suffering ended 8 years ago this November. That day at her funeral was something I shall never forget. Seeing the children, broke my heart to know that their Mum was no longer able to physically love them. I think thats when I was also diagnosed with depression. It was only a month or so later, I was unable to work, so leaving them hurt. I live in a country town and they are about thirty kms out, so we do see each other rarely, I see their Dad a little more.

But this is the reason for me telling this. On the 6th August I was 44 and my friends who teach old-time dancing to our local deb sets, asked if I would help them with the special school deb ball coming up. I would bring a young fellow out to be presented to the official party and if he wasn't able to dance then we could be close by. This fellow is Anthony who is now 18, tall and still a real sweetie. So turning 44 was one of the best days, seeing Anthony again. He looked into my eyes, smiled we tried doing the dances, he really wasn't interested in them so we stood beside the CD player. Every now and then he would grab my hands and play with the bracelets or my fingernails. But a few times her would get one finger and make circles on my other palm. This was one of the games we played all those years ago... And the other Mums their said that her reacted to me really well and we got on easily. Telling them about our times together, they thought we had had something to do with each other before. Well last night was the first ever Special School Deb Ball. I know Anthony had a great time, he clapped and rocked to the music and even jumped a few times and I'm sure the photo's his Dad will love. I have had so much fun seeing Anthony again, the twins are now teenagers and Nicholas is over in USA on an exchange program. Their Gran was there last night too and she is proud of her daughters children. I guess that now its over I will miss them all over again, but I know I will always love them forever.
Sue
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Believing is ........................ Aug 21, 2008 5:14 am
Mood: contemplative, 128 Views
Now I write this just because I feel so strongly on this matter. Not to start debates or arguments or the like. I have discovered in my 44 years of having God in my life that each person has their own ideas, thoughts and feelings when it comes to their faith. I am being tested most days on my faith, by the big "fella" and I believe that I come through it most times a better person. I not one for preaching at people, I am quite happy to speak to anyone on my faith. I feel it's a large part of who I am, I'm not afraid to tell others I am a christian, if they are happy in themselves then thats okay by me. I spoke to a young fellow the other day and he was saying he didn't think the was a God. My words to him were, you have your opinion and I have mine. There is a saying that when you talk to people NEVER bring up politics or religion. This is only because we each have very strong thoughts on both subjects and that they are so very much an individual thing. All I know, is that if it wasn't for God, I wouldn't be the person I am today. I know I am never alone and I am always loved... My favorite way to spend time with Our Lord is to sit outside with the sun on my face, eyes closed, enjoying the feeling of everything around me. With the knowledge and love of God.
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Have you Ever??? Aug 18, 2008 6:51 am
Mood: sheepish, 140 Views
Had one of those times when you knew that you should have stayed curled up in a ball for the last two hours...
I have had that today. A good day started out like many others nothing that eventful. Made over thirty mini pizza's for our group of ten or so. Same stuff just going along happily, then to the supermarket to get the essentials. Home lugging it all in, sorting out what goes where and on it goes. Then just as all is cruising "POW" putting the toilet blue in the cistern, not a difficult job. But now blue from ALL over the loo, me... WHY DO WE HAVE WHITE LOO'S................. NO NOT SUE... HERS IS NOW BLUE....BLUE... EVERYWHERE NOT NICE.. Okay got it cleaned up with a blue washer, now soaking in bleach and faint blue hand... Humph. I return to the rest of the items for the pantry... Oh No not a hole in the bag and the plastic bottle and contents hitting the concrete kitchen floor. Nearly all of the two litre apple and raspberry cordial, streaming over and under the fridge, cupboards, bin, slippers and vinyl floor. It's a sad and sorry sight me standing there, sticky and blue... I hope Our Lord is seeing the funny side of this... On the bright side, I gave Mum a call and we cleaned that sticky mess up, cleaned the fridge, inside and out, then a cuppa was our reward at the end of our toil. So now I sit here telling this to you, with my pale blue fingers and washed floor (twice more) seeing that Yes God is probably over me chuckling. I'm sure I would be if I were him...
Cheers Sue...
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You may not realize it, Aug 13, 2008 5:49 am
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Here is an email I received today and I thought others might like it... Sue

TEQUILA AND SALT

This should probably be taped
to your bathroom mirror
where one could read it every day.
You may not realize it,
but it's 100% true.

1. There are at least two people in this world
that you would die for.

2. At least 15 people in this world
love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you
is because they want to
be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone,
even if they don't
like you.

5. Every night,
SOMEONE thinks about you
before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. You are special and unique.

8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever,
something good comes from it.

10. When you think the world has
turned its back on you, take another look.

11. Always remember the compliments you received.
Forget about the rude remarks.

So.....
If you are a loving friend,
send this to everyone,
including the one that sent it to you.
If you get it back, then they really do love you.

And always remember.....
When life hands you lemons,
Ask for Gin and Ginger beer and call me over!!

Good friends are like stars.....
You don't always see them,
But you know they are always there.

I would rather have one rose and a kind word
from a friend while I'm here
than a whole truck load when I'm gone.


And don't tell me you're too busy for this..

Happiness keeps You Sweet,
Trials keep You Strong,
Sorrows keep You Human,
Failures keeps You Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing !
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Just Thinking Aug 12, 2008 7:13 am
Mood: giddy, 138 Views
I was happily unwrapping my newest gadget(mobile phone) this afternoon. When I thought I had better get my phone call over with before I settle in for the frosty night. While we were talking I was taken a back by being asked if I would mind if she (Louise) nominated me for our Australian of the year for our Australia Day celebrations. This is so mind blowing that I guess that I was and am unsure of being capable of any such honor. For those of you who aren't really sure of our Australia Day and celebrations, it takes place on 26th January. I live in a small picturesque town about 3 hours drive west of Melbourne. This call was about six hours ago and I still can't believe it happened. You are the first people that I've told, NOT even Mum knows.... Wow that's pretty big for me not to tell her yet. I know that I probably will, first thing in the morning. It is now past midnight and I have things to do before I go out tomorrow, so goodnight my BC family, sleep well and take care. Yours Together in Faith. Sue
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TWENTY NINE LINES Jul 30, 2008 6:17 am
Mood: cheeky, 173 Views
TWENTY NINE LINES TO MAKE YOU SMILE

1. My husband and I divorced over religious differences. He thought he was God and I didn't.
2. I don't suffer from insanity; I enjoy every minute of it.
3. Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them.
4. I used to have a handle on life, but it broke.
5. Don't take life too seriously; No one gets out alive.
6. You're just jealous because the voices only talk to me
7. Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder.
8. Earth is the insane asylum for the universe.
9. I'm not a complete idiot -- Some parts are just missing.
10... Out of my mind. Back in five minutes.
11. NyQuil, the stuffy, sneezy, why-the-heck-is-the-room-spinning medicine.
12. God must love stupid people; He made so many.
13. The gene pool could use a little chlorine.
14. Consciousness: That annoying time between naps.
15. Ever stop to think, and forget to start again?
16. Being 'over the hill' is much better than being under it!
17. Wrinkled Was Not One of the Things I Wanted to Be When I Grew up.
18. Procrastinate Now!
19. I Have a Degree in Liberal Arts; Do You Want Fries With That?
20. A hangover is the wrath of grapes.
21. A journey of a thousand miles begins with a cash advance.
22. Stupidity is not a handicap. Park elsewhere!
23.They call it PMS because Mad Cow Disease was already taken.
24. He who dies with the most toys is nonetheless DEAD.
25. A picture is worth a thousand words, but it uses up three
thousand times the memory.
26. Ham and eggs...A day's work for a chicken, a lifetime commitment for a pig.
27. The trouble with life is there's no background music.
28. The original point and click interface was a Smith & Wesson.
29. I smile because I don't know what the hell is going on.
Appreciate every single thing you have, especially your friends!
Life is too short and friends are too few!
I received this from a friend via email. Cheers Sue
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Restoring Jul 29, 2008 5:29 am
Mood: refreshed, 147 Views
I have just got home from a three hour trip to Melbourne. During my two day stay I was eager to get back to my country town life. I often hear people say that this town's people are "clicky" or "gossips" or just plain weird. I try not to have my say but can't help myself by adding it's not only in that town it happens everywhere. And then of course others say in the cities people would walk right passed you if you were in of help. Well I have witnessed two things that have restored my faith in human-kind. The first was over a week ago when Mum and I had to get to a hospital appointment in Melbourne. We were told how to get there by tram and what stop to get off from the train staff, but about a month ago the hospital has been relocated. So we were standing out the front of the closed up building and a passer-by asks if we are needing help and tells us how to get there. Very grateful and a bit frazzled off we go on the next part of our journey. That day ended fairly well, but today really was the highlight of my third time in ten days. I was on a very crowded tram, when this lady stood by the ticket machine looking lost, turned and asked a young woman how to work the machine. She stood and explained how it all worked and added that it only takes coins, more people coming on and off didn't make it any easier. But this young woman watched while the lady placed in the coins, the lady was short of coins so the woman gave her a coin, she sat and nothing happened. The young woman then gave her another coin and the lady had her ticket, thanking the woman and trying to give her the $5 note. The young woman said no it's fine it doesn't matter. But I think it does... She was someone I would be proud to know and pleased to have as a friend. If others saw what I did, I pray that one out of them, would do something like that for someone else. Truly Sue
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He guided Jul 24, 2008 6:22 am
Mood: anxious, 177 Views
So part two of my Melbourne trip has gone very well. The day was filled with coffee and waiting, but not as bad as I first thought. I saw the nurse, the anesthetist and surgeon in about an hour and a half, not three usual three hour period. They made me feel a lot more at ease with the next stage, I also got the towns community car and driver to bring me home... So my day was was much less stressful and time consuming than expected. Thanks be to God. So now my aim is to travel to my brothers on Sunday, bus then train and out to his home for the night. My sister-in-law said she can bring me into the hospital by 7am (early day again, yuck) I hope all goes well with the surgery and an over night stay. I will be hoping to catch the afternoon train home Tuesday. And then my life will be PAIN-FREE....
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