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Tomorrow
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Sep 10, 2007 2:42 am
Mood: anxious,
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Tomorrow, the 11th, we head off to the hospital; can't say I'm feeling great today, quite anxious but I know that God is with us all still, just need to press into Him.
I will probably be off line for a week, will tell you all how things are going with my son when I get back.
Thank you all for your prayers, it's good to know that people care.
God bless
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Testimony
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Sep 4, 2007 4:16 pm
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I have just written my testimony on Buskydads blog. Reading all those people's testimonies on their lives that have been transformed by God ..it's like reading miracle after miracle, for we are nothing in our own strength, but through God's love we can conquer all.
It has been a journey, even to just write my story down, I was very emotional when writing it, particularly when writing about my mother, who died three years ago last week. I had a hyper manic episode after she died, was very ill, but God's healing power gave me the strength to seek help and to recover.
I just encourage anyone who is going through trials, to just trust in God for everything. Sometimes, we have to be brought to our knees and be humbled before God to actually grow in faith. I hit rock bottom before I realised just how much The Lord meant to me; that I could not live without His wonderful healing , compassionate heart. He renewed me, restored me and my faith grew.
God is at the centre of my life now and I feel priviledged that He should love me so; me, who is nothing compared to the Lord, this little scrap of humanity is deeply loved by our Creator!! He is my saviour, my friend and comforter, God is my all!
Here is my testimony:-
My childhood was difficult to say the least. My mother would send me to the methodist church on sunday mornings on my own, I didn't really understand about God then, there was no guidance at home. So I slipped away from church as I got older. I spent hours reading alone as a child, escaping into a world of imagination, that kept me sane, gave me hope for better times to come.
There was a lot of loss in my life, my brother was killed by a train when I was 8 years old....he was 20 years old and had been married for 5 weeks. My father died when I was 10. My mum and he had been separated and I didn't find out that he had died until 6 months afterwards. There was no grieving process just a numbness, was not allowed to grieve, nor cry.
My then stepfather died when I was 17, he had been abusive to me but it left my mother bereft and not able to cope, so I spent my teenage years trying to keep her out of trouble.....role reversal....I grew up very quickly.
I moved to another area with my then boyfriend when I was 20, and we married, then later divorced, all this time I thought about church but didn't stay long, when I did attend. I was searching for peace, but didn't know how to receive that peace in my life.
I remarried again, I was clinically depressed, with two young children, one of whom had special needs. I really struggled..then one day a friend of mine asked me if I would like to attend an Alpha course,a place where people could come and discuss God and learn more about Him. I said yes and I began to enjoy these meetings and the people, who seemed so kind and generous....
I went on something called the Holy Spirit day.......on this day I gave my life to God, I prayed the sinner's prayer and asked Jesus to come into my life and He certainly did, I felt elated, released from my pain, it was the most wonderful experience. When I arrived home, I spoke to my husband about this and said I was so glad he was my best friend, in whom I could talk about everything.....he then told me he did not love me and wanted to leave me. All I can say is that God's timing was perfect lol..He carried me through those painful months of separation and He has carried me through many more difficulties in my life since.
My mother died three years ago; She had been ill for many years, competely disabled, unable to walk or feed herself. She had many dark days, crying out for an end to her life. I found a local minister and asked if he would visit her because I lived a long way from her. He agreed and he would visit once a week and did that for over a year. Two weeks before she died she accepted Jesus as her saviour, she died a peaceful death, just fell asleep and went to be with Him. For that I thank God with all my heart, My mother, who had such a difficult life, full of loss, as I had, was now in Heaven, God is so good!
God has been so wonderful to me, even through the trials, I have always known He was there, lifting me up, in the palm of His hand. I cannot imagine a life without God in it.....He completes me, He is my all in all, my everything. Thank you Lord!!!
It has been through reading other's testimonies on here that has given me the courage to write this. Thank you to everyone for opening up and sharing their lives in God. What a wonderful God he is.
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Gospel choir
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Sep 2, 2007 11:28 am
Mood: happy,
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Oh My Goodness, I had such fun today! I have joined a gospel choir and it was such a blessing to be a part of it. The people in the choir were so gracious to me, being a newcomer and I felt so at home. We are singing at an event on Saturday, talk about being dropped in at the deep end! lol Fortunately I know most of the songs, so I think it should be ok.
I love being a part of worship, it is such a wonderful thing, makes you feel joyous, makes me want dance and I do lol...........
I will let you know how I get on on Saturday....so excited...it's good to have something to look forward to again. God is so good!
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Update on My son
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Aug 25, 2007 3:55 am
Mood: peaceful,
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I have been given a date for my son's operation. He will be going into hospital on the 11th September and having the operation on the 12th September.
Thank you to all who have been supportive at this time and thank you for your prayers, we appreciate them very much.
I know God is in this with us, as a family and I have faith that my son will come through this and be a testimony to others.
I have been concentrating solely on this for quite some time, praying and feeling God's peace in this.
There have been times when I have felt under attack and the enemy will try to get a hold, if you allow it, but I am staying close to God, feeling His peace and knowing that He is all I need to allow me to live a fruitful and purposeful life.
God bless
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Wonderful News!!
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Aug 16, 2007 4:18 pm
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I've had some wonderful news. My son's operaton will go ahead. He had some abnormalities in his blood tests, which resulted in the operation being cancelled in June. The findings are that he may have a naturally high billirubin count, which was shown in a liver function test, as some people do or he may have a syndrome but the anaesthetist is happy to go ahead with the operation.
I know that many have been praying for my son and God is wonderful! He has answered my prayers and my son will be able to have a normal life after the operation on his spine.
Thank you to all the prayer warriors out there, prayer does make a difference and I now have faith that my son will be fine after the operation.
All praise to God for giving me the strength to cope in this situation and I know He will be there , every step of the way, through the operation and the recovery.
I will find out soon when the operation will be and will give updates.
Many blessings to you all
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Church Event
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Aug 13, 2007 4:04 pm
Mood: rejuvenated,
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I took my son to a church event this evening. Throughout the summer holidays they hold an evening called Stomp! The children can do a range of activities from arts and crafts to learning percussion, playing football and singing in a choir. My son decided he wanted to play the african drums and enjoyed it very much. I decided to help with the choir. We sang songs from Joseph and had a wonderful time.
We all shared a meal at the end of the evening and I looked around and saw the smiles and the laughter from the children and thought how great my church is; these children will have many happy memories of church being a fun place to be.
Many of the congregation have put in long hours of preparation and work for this event and I appreciate them so much.
We need to invest in our children for they are the future of the church, and they are so important and have so much to give.
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The Fishing trip
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Aug 13, 2007 1:13 am
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I've had a good break from the blogs and decided to continue writing them. I am feeling a lot better now.
I've been away on holiday, to my sister's in Cheshire. I took my youngest son and my eldest one went away with a friend .
I took my son fishing, we caught four tiddlers and he was so excited! We sat on the canal towpath and watched a storm developing over head, fortunately we were close to a bridge and decided to take our equipment underneath the bridge and shelter there. There was a cacophony of thunder claps, right overhead and flashes of lightening. Whilst sat under the bridge, a swallow, flitted to and fro, feeding on the wing , dancing in front of us, darting in and out of the tunnel. A Heron, landed close by and the horses whinnied, startled by the noises. The lightening forked and the rain started to fall in heavy splotts; slow cumbersome rain. We had very little rain in fact but the most beautiful double rainbow, reflected in the canal's waters.
We got back to my sister's house to find that her little town had been awash with rain and quite a few of the shops had been flooded. She couldn't believe that we were not completely soaked.
That evening, I saw God's beauty and marvelled at it's sheer magnificence. When we examine God's beauty, from the surface it looks so simple but take a moment to observe and we can see how wonderfully intricate everything is, how everything fits together.
God has a plan for each of our lives, we need to trust in Him and let Him take control. Look how beautifully orchestrated nature is, how much more so will God move in our lives.......
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Rising rapids - tranquil waters
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Jul 27, 2007 3:27 pm
Mood: hopeful,
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Wow, been in a funny old place for the past week. I was quite ill on Tuesday, rather verbal and aggravated, something I always feel embarrassed about later. After that, I decided to take my meds as I should. I had stopped taking one during the morning because it made me feel so drousy and I have two children to look after and their needs come first.
I have come to realise that this was a mistake. I have taken the meds as instructed for the past week and the drowsiness has gradually worn off and today I actually felt like tidying up and feeling hopeful again, instead of hopeless.
The thing with depression is it zaps you of energy and confidence, then as you start to feel better, gradually you build yourself up again. It's a bit like a rollercoaster and sometimes I want to get off!
I have to say, good friends and friends here at BC have helped me through this past week, I don't know what I would do without their love, support and care.
Today is a good day, and God is so good! Here's to tomorrow, and hopefully some sunshine, so that I can go for a walk along the river and feel like myself again.
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Sun
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Jul 26, 2007 3:06 pm
Mood: gloomy,
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I have a dream; it involves a beautiful beach, white sands sifting through my bare toes, sun, drenching me with warmth....the reality is England has had rain now for almost 2 months, with barely a glimpse of sun. It's making me feel depressed. Then I think of all the people in the world who do not have enough water to drink and I feel a bit guilty.
But still, I just want some sun......please!!! Anyone who wants to send me some by red cross parcel, just put your names on here ....lol!
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The Christmas Concert
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Jul 23, 2007 4:53 pm
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Make my way to the stage
Stand in front of the mic
And take a deep breath
Try not to notice the 300 people
Sitting in front of me
Oh No! I think my voice will waiver
The nerves are still there, in my throat
My legs are wobbly, can hardly stand
The music starts and I feel different
Solemn in my endeavours to tell
This story to the best of my ability
The room is silent; the spotlight is on me
I wish it were on someone else!
I start to sing and the nerves evaporate
And I feel invincible
It's the high note next and gosh, I hit it!
I'm on a roll now, immersed in the story
Of the child Saviour of the world
That wondrous tale, that makes me
Weep with joy, but not tonight
I'll save the tears for later.
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