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 What happens, when the words dry up, and the inspiration is lost? If your gift is in the form of words and they fail you, you don't become like everyone else. You become something lower. Like an athlete past his prime. A widow to usefulness. So what happens when your words fail you? When they fail to express the bursting emotion inside your heart? When they are shut up like the century gate of a kingdom under attack, and yet have innumerable restless warriors trapped within its bounds dressed for battle. Such a heart lives and breathes by its words. By its venting. By its escape. By its attack on the mundane, and banality of its existence. In short...by love. Maybe it lives for "that chance encounter" that just might become something more. Maybe it'll blossom into something beautiful, and exotic. So that it may hitch its wagon, not to the stars, but to the essence of its spiritual counterpart. Yo know, something that is worthy of a hearts expression beyond life's menial tasks. Something to make life rich enough as to afford its keep. A pure heart is an expensive thing to maintain. It demands truth, and love and the painful...minute dissection of harsh feeling. And any heart worth it salt, demands...G-d. It requires its own little world where it is the belle of the ball. It demands a steep price- which many refuse to pay. The stomach and mind require far less...they often simply require- actual money. So what to do, what to do, when your hearts words fail you? Maybe it means something different altogether. Maybe it's some unconscious internal -and ingenious- ploy to make you long even more. You know, like pressurizing or priming your heart for an upcoming flood of words and emotion. Like some kind of wizardly cognitive dissonance slyly obscuring the path from heart strings to tongue. Or maybe it's a kind of internal fire drill in preparation for possible disaster. "In case of emergency, break heart." Maybe it's just me. Everyday is a battle against the numbing of the heart. And we need encoraging words to keep our internal fire stoked.. And when the ember burns down to its tiniest glow, when even you can barely see it, we must then seek for ourselves the strength to fan its essence again into a flame. Yes, I know, it's easier said than done. Doing it alone is rather like fining the homeless for living in a box on the sidewalk. In fact, it's almost exactly like that. But, inside each of you is that latent loving child, that harbors a habitation of purity for G-d. There's the very Kingdom of G-d within you. I know I cannot make anyone love G-d. But, I can offer you a glimpse into my life, and my heart. I can show you my inabilities and challenges. I can offer you a peek into the battle that rages toward the numbing of my heart. And the best thing I can possibly do is show you that it has no chance of winning. Not on my watch...not ever. And I'd love it if you'd join me. Especially when my words fail me... Love in Christ, sabrefire Copyright ©2008 MAS |
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9/26/2008 7:47 am |
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. When nothing is said, there is nothing to say, thoughts escape the mind, just love them all the more, for it is your actions then, that will convey your heart and define your emotions. . . Without Absolute Truth, there are only lies disguised as truth, if you know not the Absolute Truth and it is NOT within you, you will embrace a relative truth that fits your eternity, that is presently before you. Continue to be faithful, deliverance is near, obedience must be seen, be an unconditional blessing as He continues to bless you. This time is short, serve Him well, serving all. Without exception. Know? Yes? ? .
Meow?  .
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9/26/2008 8:43 am |
Wow, you pack so very much into one short post! So much that one could comment and expound on. Puts me in mind of John Eldredge's book 'Waking the Dead' which focuses on the battle for the heart. I hadn't realized, until I read that book, that the Bible addresses the heart more than any other topic. Saint Irenaeus said "The Glory of God is Man fully Alive." Tis no wonder that the enemy works so hard to numb our hearts then...but the battle is already won isn't it!? So the trick is to choose to believe that we have a new heart as believers in Christ...and to LIVE out of the new heart no matter how much the other guy works to deceive us about that.
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9/26/2008 11:07 am |
What do you do when your words fail you? I can say I've been in that boat before  In fact I'm still in that boat, having yet to dive into the deep waters of inspiration, just waiting for God to push me overboard (but I can't swim, so this is an incredibly inaccurate analogy lol). However, by the looks of this post you always have something to say. Even when you feel all the words of your mouth have been expounded, you then talk about how you have no more words to expound, and it's quite poetically done. So what to do, what to do, when your hearts words fail you? Hmmmm, and yet it also seems that its a matter of the heart that you stuggling to communicate. I've found that most often when you can't talk (or write) about something in your heart, or otherwise, it's because you don't fully understand what you're trying to say. All I can think to offer you is the simple advice - pray. Jeremiah 33:3 Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and will show thee great things, and difficult, which thou knowest not.
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9/26/2008 12:43 pm |
Okay, I've looked up "banality". I like the way you challenge my vocabulary and broaden it. I agree that you have to let your emotions/imagination/inspiration marinate inside so it tastes better on the plate (paper). Too much output makes it seem watered down for most artistic people. I used to be artistic, once upon a decade. I feel your struggle with the fight. It is harder to keep a soft heart than to just let the world have its way and let it harden. But, as long as God doesn't give up on me, why should I? It is almost equally hard to keep trusting people and the world when they seem to turn and trample us so often. But, onward and upward, Christian soldiers.  Thanks, this will make a good start for my weekend.May we never forget Who keeps us, day in and day out. May the glory belong to our Father AKA Eloi, as Jesus called out to Him on the cross.
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 9/26/2008 6:36 pm |
And I'd love it if you'd join me. Especially when my words fail me... I love that ending. I love endings of writings. I can't explain it but there are often writings out there that end in a way that always causes a little smile to form and makes me think "that is beautiful". I love how writings end. The words used. It can even be an incredibly horrible poem but if it has beautiful words at the end that just have this flowing thing about them...for me it just does something inexplicable. Endings usually...I have no clue how to explain this. lol I will try. It's like you build up to a certain goal and then it reaches...ok, that makes no sense.  So much for trying to explain. LOL Well, some people like certain things. One of the things I like is the words used at the ending of writings. Maybe I should start writing again. I've moved and now I have no clue where I put my own writings. I can be better. I am not half as good as you or others out there. I remember a poetry contest by the National Library of Poetry where this guy won with his poem called Back and to the Left talking about the memorial wall(is that how it is called? Not sure right now). It was a beautiful writing. I agree with the choice made for the winner. Man, there were times when I would feel like I was about to burst from either pain or sadness inside and the words would come flowing out and I'd feel better. I used to listen to Bon Jovi when I was younger and there was a song where the lyric said: "you know I need you like a poet needs the pain" That was true for me. I was never able to write anything when I was happy even though I've tried. But when I felt sad the words would just pour out. It was this incredible release somehow. Made you feel better. That's when I was a teenager though. It's been a loooooooooong time since I've written anything. There's plenty that has happened between the last time I've written and now, but somehow I can't write. The words don't come like they used to. They don't come... So, what then? Was it a "thing" that was there for just a while and then it was supposed to leave? The tiny ability to write and let out what is inside? I can understand and relate to the part about it being like you've lost something when the words don't come anymore. I often want to draw and try to get things out, but that has never been an ability of mine. There is so much inside that can come out in beautiful writings or amazing drawings. I am able to picture it all, but the words don't come and the drawing ability certainly hasn't shown up. lol Maybe it can be learned. The same with the writing. I mean, everyday people have accidents and have to re-learn something they used to do well. Perhaps a writer whose words fail him does not have to be "like an athlete past his prime". Maybe. I have enjoyed reading this writing of yours. I do wonder something...  do you speak this way in everyday life? I also like that I learn some new words.  There was a word I've read in one of your other posts...I've already forgotten it. Ugh! It was a word I had never seen nor heard before. I am learning.  Let every thing that hath breath praise the LORD. Praise ye the LORD.(Psalm 150:6) 
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9/26/2008 7:28 pm |
I've tagged you: Tag! You're It: The Bible Game!
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9/26/2008 8:47 pm |
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. When nothing is said, there is nothing to say, thoughts escape the mind, just love them all the more, for it is your actions then, that will convey your heart and define your emotions. . . Without Absolute Truth, there are only lies disguised as truth, if you know not the Absolute Truth and it is NOT within you, you will embrace a relative truth that fits your eternity, that is presently before you. Continue to be faithful, deliverance is near, obedience must be seen, be an unconditional blessing as He continues to bless you. This time is short, serve Him well, serving all. Without exception. Know? Yes? ? .
Meow? . GB
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9/26/2008 9:04 pm |
Wow, you pack so very much into one short post! So much that one could comment and expound on. Puts me in mind of John Eldredge's book 'Waking the Dead' which focuses on the battle for the heart. I hadn't realized, until I read that book, that the Bible addresses the heart more than any other topic. Saint Irenaeus said "The Glory of God is Man fully Alive." Tis no wonder that the enemy works so hard to numb our hearts then...but the battle is already won isn't it!? So the trick is to choose to believe that we have a new heart as believers in Christ...and to LIVE out of the new heart no matter how much the other guy works to deceive us about that. I believe I would rather agree that the battle we face is largely for the heart. When G-d talked of the New Covenant as you no doubt know, he spoke of writing it on the inward parts of the heart. And one of the ancient names of G-d reflects his ability to search the hearts of men. Hearts and minds...certainly, but if it all starts with faith, I'd perhaps offer that faith is more a faculty of the heart than the mind. And perhaps this is one of the topics to be addressed in the discussion on the biblical saying of double-mindedness? Anyways... Saint Irenaeus said "The Glory of God is Man fully Alive." Tis no wonder that the enemy works so hard to numb our hearts then...but the battle is already won isn't it!? Great point...and I think you answered it rather perfectly yourself. GB!
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9/26/2008 9:27 pm |
What do you do when your words fail you? I can say I've been in that boat before In fact I'm still in that boat, having yet to dive into the deep waters of inspiration, just waiting for God to push me overboard (but I can't swim, so this is an incredibly inaccurate analogy lol). However, by the looks of this post you always have something to say. Even when you feel all the words of your mouth have been expounded, you then talk about how you have no more words to expound, and it's quite poetically done. So what to do, what to do, when your hearts words fail you? Hmmmm, and yet it also seems that its a matter of the heart that you stuggling to communicate. I've found that most often when you can't talk (or write) about something in your heart, or otherwise, it's because you don't fully understand what you're trying to say. All I can think to offer you is the simple advice - pray. Jeremiah 33:3 Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and will show thee great things, and difficult, which thou knowest not. Yes, I suppose I usually do have something to say. I'm actually a rather reserved person in real life. Mostly I think because talking about this kinda stuff with Joe-six-pack is not really an option. So, I hitch my wagon to the few. "it's quite poetically done." Well that is a considerable compliment coming from the Queen...so thanks. "I've found that most often when you can't talk (or write) about something in your heart, or otherwise, it's because you don't fully understand what you're trying to say." Ok, I'll accept that concept for what I might be experiencing. I have another post that I wrote at the same time as this post...but have yet to add it...and I think it explains a bit on this very thing. But your advice to pray is always sound, Mi'lady. Jeremiah 33! Oh, you're pulling at my heart strings!!! GBY GQ!
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9/26/2008 9:48 pm |
Okay, I've looked up "banality". I like the way you challenge my vocabulary and broaden it. I agree that you have to let your emotions/imagination/inspiration marinate inside so it tastes better on the plate (paper). Too much output makes it seem watered down for most artistic people. I used to be artistic, once upon a decade. I feel your struggle with the fight. It is harder to keep a soft heart than to just let the world have its way and let it harden. But, as long as God doesn't give up on me, why should I? It is almost equally hard to keep trusting people and the world when they seem to turn and trample us so often. But, onward and upward, Christian soldiers. Thanks, this will make a good start for my weekend.May we never forget Who keeps us, day in and day out. May the glory belong to our Father AKA Eloi, as Jesus called out to Him on the cross. Yes, I'd agree. I find myself nearly always having to cut things from my writing, it's the worst part of posting. I try to condense it for a better read in this format. It's not like a paper of a book where people want their money's worth in words...here people want in, and they want out. It's challenging in this way, and still enjoyable. I think the point that I would place on things is that we should never give up on keeping that heart for G-d. I find it's impossible to read the Bible, through all the People's battles and History and all...and not long for G-d. This is the most important thing. That longing for G-d will keep you in His ways. It is the most beautiful thing...but the description of it is entirely difficult to grasp. Well I hope the best weekend for you and your family. And you know we'd all love to hear your words. "Eli,Eli, lama shabachthani?" My G-d, My G-d... GBY!
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9/26/2008 10:07 pm |
And I'd love it if you'd join me. Especially when my words fail me... I love that ending. I love endings of writings. I can't explain it but there are often writings out there that end in a way that always causes a little smile to form and makes me think "that is beautiful". I love how writings end. The words used. It can even be an incredibly horrible poem but if it has beautiful words at the end that just have this flowing thing about them...for me it just does something inexplicable. Endings usually...I have no clue how to explain this. lol I will try. It's like you build up to a certain goal and then it reaches...ok, that makes no sense. So much for trying to explain. LOL Well, some people like certain things. One of the things I like is the words used at the ending of writings. Maybe I should start writing again. I've moved and now I have no clue where I put my own writings. I can be better. I am not half as good as you or others out there. I remember a poetry contest by the National Library of Poetry where this guy won with his poem called Back and to the Left talking about the memorial wall(is that how it is called? Not sure right now). It was a beautiful writing. I agree with the choice made for the winner. Man, there were times when I would feel like I was about to burst from either pain or sadness inside and the words would come flowing out and I'd feel better. I used to listen to Bon Jovi when I was younger and there was a song where the lyric said: "you know I need you like a poet needs the pain" That was true for me. I was never able to write anything when I was happy even though I've tried. But when I felt sad the words would just pour out. It was this incredible release somehow. Made you feel better. That's when I was a teenager though. It's been a loooooooooong time since I've written anything. There's plenty that has happened between the last time I've written and now, but somehow I can't write. The words don't come like they used to. They don't come... So, what then? Was it a "thing" that was there for just a while and then it was supposed to leave? The tiny ability to write and let out what is inside? I can understand and relate to the part about it being like you've lost something when the words don't come anymore. I often want to draw and try to get things out, but that has never been an ability of mine. There is so much inside that can come out in beautiful writings or amazing drawings. I am able to picture it all, but the words don't come and the drawing ability certainly hasn't shown up. lol Maybe it can be learned. The same with the writing. I mean, everyday people have accidents and have to re-learn something they used to do well. Perhaps a writer whose words fail him does not have to be "like an athlete past his prime". Maybe. I have enjoyed reading this writing of yours. I do wonder something... do you speak this way in everyday life? I also like that I learn some new words. There was a word I've read in one of your other posts...I've already forgotten it. Ugh! It was a word I had never seen nor heard before. I am learning.  You know nearly everyone I think has a means of expressing themselves as individuals. I'm not an so much an artist as I am an admirer of art. I used to paint quite a bit, but I found it rather frustrating because in the time it would take to finish a painting I figured I could have written a novel. And if someone were to read a novel they would have to spend more than a few seconds to critique it..lol. But, yeah, find something that inspires you and stick with it. Somehow you'll find a way to express yourself. Maybe it will inspire you to do something charitable. Or something political...who knows. But, here's one thing that I've noticed that you seem quite astute at... and that's adopting the form and style of the writing your commenting on, in your comments. It's rather impressive. I would suspect this is something that translates into your real life interaction with people. I remember a writing professor of mine who told us of a certain writer who had this ability and was entirely famous for it...I just can't remember the name right now. Maybe I'll do a little digging for it. That might give you the ability to talk to a wide range of individuals...and that's quite an unusual art itself. Have faith in yourself!GB and thanks for the comment.
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9/27/2008 6:21 am |
"Yeah the ending is crucial. It's got the job of tying everything together, and making the final impression."  You understood what I was trying to say. lol As you've noticed I was not that successful at explaining what I like about endings.  "You know back in the middle-ages in Europe they beheaded people for ending a writing poorly! Ok, I'm totally kidding! That's probably not true...or is it? " You know, you got me for a second there. But, yeah, perhaps it is true and maybe not. But there are a lot of extremely strange things that happen on this planet, so things like that are possible. Weird, but possible. lol "Or something political...who knows. "  Political?! No way! lol "But, here's one thing that I've noticed that you seem quite astute at... and that's adopting the form and style of the writing your commenting on, in your comments." It's always strange what people are able to realize about others. Maybe you can explain how it is that I do that? (with an example). I like to know what others see so that might help me to know myself better? Maybe. I will be waiting for the name of that writer you are trying to dig up. Have a blessed day. Let every thing that hath breath praise the LORD. Praise ye the LORD.(Psalm 150:6)
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9/27/2008 6:27 am |
Ok, so what's with the 'amp' after the sick face? I thought BC would have that fixed by now. Let every thing that hath breath praise the LORD. Praise ye the LORD.(Psalm 150:6)
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9/27/2008 12:51 pm |
Simply devine (M).. ♥ Maryann ♥ He Who Kneels Before God Can Stand Before Anyone Feeling STRESSED Out?!?
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9/28/2008 1:23 am |
lol @ myself..goodness I can't even spell now..!.. ♥ Maryann ♥ He Who Kneels Before God Can Stand Before Anyone Feeling STRESSED Out?!?
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9/28/2008 8:52 pm |
"Yeah the ending is crucial. It's got the job of tying everything together, and making the final impression." You understood what I was trying to say. lol As you've noticed I was not that successful at explaining what I like about endings. "You know back in the middle-ages in Europe they beheaded people for ending a writing poorly! Ok, I'm totally kidding! That's probably not true...or is it? " You know, you got me for a second there. But, yeah, perhaps it is true and maybe not. But there are a lot of extremely strange things that happen on this planet, so things like that are possible. Weird, but possible. lol "Or something political...who knows. " Political?! No way! lol "But, here's one thing that I've noticed that you seem quite astute at... and that's adopting the form and style of the writing your commenting on, in your comments." It's always strange what people are able to realize about others. Maybe you can explain how it is that I do that? (with an example). I like to know what others see so that might help me to know myself better? Maybe. I will be waiting for the name of that writer you are trying to dig up. Have a blessed day. So you want me to tell you how your astute at it? Well one example would be in the very same sentence where at the end you, finished with the one word sentence. Maybe. I think I used the word about times above. Why do I feel like I'm grading a term paper...lol. So, yeah. Have a blessed day. Are you ready for Prom. Do they have prom there?? GB!
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9/28/2008 8:56 pm |
lol @ myself..goodness I can't even spell now..!.. Yeah I didn't want to say anything...but I think it's spelled "Davine," right???. Lol...Jk... It happens!!
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9/29/2008 4:14 am |
I'm still diggin! So you want me to tell you how your astute at it? Well one example would be in the very same sentence where at the end you, finished with the one word sentence. Maybe. I think I used the word about times above. Why do I feel like I'm grading a term paper...lol. So, yeah. Have a blessed day. Are you ready for Prom. Do they have prom there?? GB! I don't even try to do it. It just happens. Perhaps I do have a talent. We don't have prom here. So it'd be my first. But with globalization things from outside tend to be copied. I know the younger generation does prom now. Globalization has its pros and cons, I believe. Blessings. Let every thing that hath breath praise the LORD. Praise ye the LORD.(Psalm 150:6)
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9/29/2008 6:07 am |
lol I hadn't even noticed that I had done that. And yeah, I now know what you mean. I do that. Now, I know what you mean. I don't even try to do it. It just happens. Perhaps I do have a talent. We don't have prom here. So it'd be my first. But with globalization things from outside tend to be copied. I know the younger generation does prom now. Globalization has its pros and cons, I believe. Blessings. I remember talking about that certain writer, and someone suggested that it was it's own intelligence. Meaning that it might have ties to lots of other area's of talent. So, yeah I might agree. Yes, globalization and Westernization certainly seems to have its pro's ad con's. In many ways Westernization has (sometimes) elevated standard of living in countries and brought medical advancement...but, it's also endangered alot of really neat cultures. But, I think was written about in the Word huh CF? So, we can be comforted in that fulfillment! So First Prom?!?  GBY, sabrefire
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10/7/2008 9:37 am |
Lol... yikes well I sure hope I used it correctly...haha, jk. Yes, I'd agree. I find myself nearly always having to cut things from my writing, it's the worst part of posting. I try to condense it for a better read in this format. It's not like a paper of a book where people want their money's worth in words...here people want in, and they want out. It's challenging in this way, and still enjoyable. I think the point that I would place on things is that we should never give up on keeping that heart for G-d. I find it's impossible to read the Bible, through all the People's battles and History and all...and not long for G-d. This is the most important thing. That longing for G-d will keep you in His ways. It is the most beautiful thing...but the description of it is entirely difficult to grasp. Well I hope the best weekend for you and your family. And you know we'd all love to hear your words. "Eli,Eli, lama shabachthani?" My G-d, My G-d... GBY!
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10/8/2008 2:00 am |
Truly it is impossible for me to read the Book and not long for my Father. The most important thing would have to be accepting Jesus and what He did for us, though. That is first and foremost, but I know you know. "Eloi, Eloi lama shabachthani". (My God, My God, why hast Thou forsaken Me?)I love reading that part because it is still in the original language and untouched. It makes me feel closer to Jesus. I just want to go home and get my Bible now... But, I'm sure you've done this, so you keep that longing in your heart for Christ Jesus, and you can't go wrong, sister! So how is life? I'd love to hear about your favorite thing these days! You live such a full life it's enough for two! I hope the domestic issues are going better for you sister. GBY, and thank you!!
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10/8/2008 8:56 am |
Yes indeed Sister! I know you have accepted Jesus, so I guess maybe I should have said the 'next' thing...or something. Thanks for pointing that out, I was indeed trying to say the most important thing, after you accept Him as saviour is... But, I'm sure you've done this, so you keep that longing in your heart for Christ Jesus, and you can't go wrong, sister! So how is life? I'd love to hear about your favorite thing these days! You live such a full life it's enough for two! I hope the domestic issues are going better for you sister. GBY, and thank you!! How is life going. What are your interests, other than being the poetic compassionate blogger at BC? You remind me of David, too. I wanted to tell you that.
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10/8/2008 8:57 am |
Yes indeed Sister! I know you have accepted Jesus, so I guess maybe I should have said the 'next' thing...or something. Thanks for pointing that out, I was indeed trying to say the most important thing, after you accept Him as saviour is... But, I'm sure you've done this, so you keep that longing in your heart for Christ Jesus, and you can't go wrong, sister! So how is life? I'd love to hear about your favorite thing these days! You live such a full life it's enough for two! I hope the domestic issues are going better for you sister. GBY, and thank you!! How is life going for you? What are your interests, other than being the poetic compassionate blogger at BC and cycling?
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10/9/2008 8:11 pm |
Life is good. We went to see a dance show Monday night. The kids loved it but CC accidentally deleted ALL the pix from that night. I haven't been doing much other than that. Just staying home, for the most part, other than running the kids around and working. I've been getting back in to cooking more often. I love to cook, but don't like to do the dishes. How is life going for you? What are your interests, other than being the poetic compassionate blogger at BC and cycling?I really like to cook to! I'm told I'm rather good with seasoning's so I like to get a little experimental, and see what might work out! Yeah, I used to hate doing dishes...for some reason, in my old age, I've become more tolerant. Interests these days lets see. Reading, writing, sports!, I love basketball and football and I'd drive to the next county for a pick-up game. Yeah, since my diamondback got stolen, I've since borrowed one of my brother's Treks. But, I'm anxious about having that stolen if I park it so...bummer. So, I run mostly now. Lol. Glad to hear life is good sister! Blessings to you and yours! Mike
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