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My Testamony Part Three
8/27/2006 11:17 amLast Read: |
Disclaimer: I want first of all to let everyone know that what I am about to reveal is not because I am living in the past or because I am holding on to it. I am not still wearing my grave clothes, so to speak. A testimony is simply speaking the truth of what God has done in one's life, personal experience of His love, grace, power, glory. For a biblical example of a testimony please see Acts 26:1-23 I was about 7 years old when my dad went to prison, for indecent exposure to a minor I was to later find out. This would never have happened if someone outside the family had not found out what was going on and forced my mom to turn him in. It was around that time that I also killed the President of the United States. You see, I had become accustomed to being responsible for everything that went wrong in my world, because I was told I was responsible. I was raised believing that every time I thought or said something bad, if then something bad happened, I was to blame. Dysfunctional families have a tendency to turn things around so that abused and neglected children take on the task of protecting the parents and the family as a whole. My family was a classic example of this, with each member playing their assigned roles to the hilt. When I was 11 was when my mother tried to kill me, once by trying to run me down with a car and a second time by strangling me. This too was my fault, for not telling her about something that my 18 year old sister was doing. Something I knew nothing about. When the police officer pulled my mother off of me she fought back and was hurt, which was also my fault. There are so many times when others have lain the responsibility of their own actions on my shoulders and for years I carried that guilt. But praise God, He has set me free and made me realize that I don't have to carry it anymore. I don't even have to carry the guilt for my own actions if I will just take it to Him in true repentance and ask for forgiveness. And He is faithful to forgive me for my wrongdoing and gentle in His reprimands. He always lovingly shows me when and how I am going astray and guides me back to the right path with care and compassion. He is willing and able to do this for all of His children. He is waiting for each of us to return to Him. If you are not following Him today, do not think that you have to change before you can go home to Him. Do not think that you must clean yourself up first, for no matter how hard you try you can never do a good enough job. You can go to Him right now, in the condition you are in and He will give you everything you need to cleanse yourself, and help you get the job done as well. He will take away the sin, the guilt, the pain, every burden that loads you down. Ephesians 6:13 . . .and having done all, to stand 
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8/27/2006 2:52 pm |
Bird, Your opening paragraph is of literary award winning quality. You need to write. There's your way out...income and output...blessing others and making a living. You have to do it. Kristina
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8/27/2006 2:54 pm |
Bird, Your opening paragraph is of literary award winning quality. You need to write. There's your way out...income and output...blessing others and making a living. You have to do it. The Lord has showed me that same about my writing skills and personal history. I too, threw myself on a hand grenade to keep a bigger explosion from hitting my family....it's how I lived... Love, Kristina
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