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Is it just me or is there a pall about blogland right now? I guess so many of our friends have left the site, especially after these new changes the site has made. As for me personally, I've felt lately that my posts have lacked the anointing they have had in the past. I seem to be posting a lot of meaningless stuff...it's driving me nuts. In the past, I would get a word from God.....and I would post. Not only would it encourage me personally, but it brought encouragement to others as well. I guess lately I've been going through my own stuff so it's been hard to summon up a lot of positive posts......I've been trying, but I don't know.....feels kind of forced and flat. I don't want it to be this way. I love my Lord passionately......I want to express that in my writings. I want to express what He is doing in my life....I want my posts to be ones where someone who isn't a believer, or even a shaky belief...to yearn to have what I have. I want to draw people to Christ. I want to see people being blessed through stuff I've written. Part of me is thinking, perhaps it's time for a break from blogging.....kind of go and get refreshed. I just don't know what to do. What does God want me to do? Am I to stick it out? I'm not hearing anything from Him about anything....that's frustrating me! If Beth were here, she would say.....be patient...allow God to do what He has to do....don't push things....be patient ms_warriorthingy LOL! I took off from my buoy with anticipation, with gusto....convinced about new beginnings.....and here I am still flapping around, getting nowhere fast. I'm sick of crying, sick of the gloom....I want my laughter back, want ME back. Anyways this is where I am at right now......sick of myself, sick of my attitude. I don't want to be a defeated thingy. Got any advice? Penelope Captive of Hope 
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10/11/2008 7:10 pm |
We all have periods of heights of anointing, valleys and plateaus...there are reasons for each place; the key is persistence in our faith, knowing that God has not gone anywhere...that He will reveal the reason for where we are...and I think, no, I know, you encourage more than you realize...your posts are excellent and sometimes a little lightheartedness is exactly what is needed. I always check out your posts, because I do see not only your wisdom, but your wit...and the Lord's anointing on your writing. He is no fool if he should choose to lose the things he cannot keep to gain what he can never lose.....Jim Elliott Deena 
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10/11/2008 7:13 pm |
I've thought about it a little more...I think really what you need are some biscuits! He is no fool if he should choose to lose the things he cannot keep to gain what he can never lose.....Jim Elliott Deena
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 10/11/2008 7:31 pm |
pen I have always grown from what you write I never posted on much in the past . I am not good with word expression so what is in my head never makes it to the pages.GBY for sharing  Yahweh is my light and salvation.  
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10/11/2008 7:50 pm |
Chin up love, for all things there is a season... A time to weep, and a time to laugh A time to mourn, a time to dance, A time to cast away stones And a time to gather stones A time to embrace And a time to refrain from embrace..... Sounds like embrace time to me, Big Hugs!
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10/11/2008 8:23 pm |
Oh, gee....and I thought you're dilemma was gonna be over which chockey to eat first.........(did I spell that correctly)......I'm afraid  if I haven't it's cuz I went to the Prom with Dunky.....and you know him, he's got that disease......Dunkyitis and you can get it just from spending a little time with him.....you know the one where you all of a sudden can't spell a thing!!!!!  My thought is this.....you're funny and give a great pleasure with your zing!!! We all feel as if we're not serving the Lord from time to time.....but even in your off times.......you'll never know just who you touch!!! Pen, you've given me several bits of great encouragement or changed my mood.......ya made me laugh so much.....especially when Dunky gets involved.......he's something else!!! I think he taps your funny bone!!! What I do when I'm not so inspired.......is just be......soon enough God zaps me and off I go. Another way to look at it is it's like a looooooooong weekend......so enjoy the time off!!! PS.........I like your meaningless stuff.......it's like garbage .....you know what I mean, girl.......one man's trash is another man's treasure!!!!Gee, Pen, what other girl do you know who's meaningless stuff is GOLD!!!
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10/11/2008 8:29 pm |
Pen, I always gain lots from your posts, I'm just not commenting much due to my time restraints, but I still love to read them. I'll pray that the slump you are feeling will just be a passing mood, or valley, and that you can just rest in Him, and be refreshed for now. Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness!
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10/11/2008 8:55 pm |
Hang around, many here read your posts. Life is cyclic, we go up and down. Sometimes we feel creative, and the fingers flow over the keyboard, others we are reflective and lack the ability to put make sense of the present, much less to describe it. Give it time and patence, pray and meditate on what God says in His word. Something to think about. thanks,,,N
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10/11/2008 8:56 pm |
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. Keep writing, your are just fine. . . Saying I am sorry is WORTHLESS without real repentance. True or FALSE ? Without a personal and intimate relationship with God, how can you ever realize the true identity and person of God? Continue to be faithful, deliverance is near, obedience must be seen, be an unconditional blessing as He continues to bless you. This time is short, serve Him well, serving all. Without exception. Fleeing ? Know ? Yes ? ? .
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10/11/2008 10:35 pm |
We ALL have highs and lows Pen, just keep being yourself, it ministers to those you least expect. Dont know about you, but I'm a work in progress and you know, I dont think anyone ever is really "there" , or a finished work. Just some are more honest than others ... keep flapping, that wind will catch you and up you'll go!
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10/11/2008 10:54 pm |
sometimes Pen, I dont post, I just read & respond  Its all good sis When you're dry, go for a swim  Luv is patient, kind, unselfish, hopes 4 the best...
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10/11/2008 11:23 pm |
Your Honesty in writing your heart and soul is a blessing. Please keep blogging, God speaks through your writing-allow Him to continue. Love ya, Pen
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10/12/2008 4:44 pm |
Just keep being yourself P when you feel you have something to say from the Lord then do so. When you feel like making others laugh with that very unique sence of humor that God gave you then use it and bring some joy and laughfter into the lifes of others here too. He gave that to you also as a gift you know! You have the uncanny and delightful ability to see things from a humourous perspective and be able to write it into written format to share with all the rest of us. So many are hurting at different times and sometimes just a kind word or message will speak to them and bring them hope and comfort other times just to laugh again even if for the briefest of moments can be a soothing balm upon someones heart and lift a little of the burden off of them too! A time and a season for everything and I just know Jesus had some moments of fun with his disciples we never heard about especialy knowing Peter was there to give Him and the others a good laugh from time to time. You young lady, yes I'm feeling very generious with the compliments today, are the funniest person I have met in my life so don't, pleaaaaaaase don't stop being who you are and forget that very precious and much needed gift in the body here okies??? The true test of a man's character is what he does when no one is watching. Former U.C.L.A. Coach John Wooden
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10/12/2008 8:41 pm |
Hey Pen - I don't do blogs all the time, I don't have something to say all the time, I knew when I started that that is what I'd do, this writing everyday - I just don't have that much going on in my life to talk about!!! (All right - you can put the violin away now!!  )I really like reading about everyone's day to day life though - I'm in a great church with great messages but what really inspires me is hearing how God is at work in peoples lives... that is always an encouragement and quite often a challenge. I'm giving you permission to ease off - and suggesting that you not be so hard on yourself. OK One thing I have desired of the Lord, that will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire in His temple. Psalm 27:4
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 10/13/2008 11:56 am |
Pen, when I read your blog I got very sad. Sad to think that you think you are not annointing to other people through your words and writing. THAT IS NOT TRUE!! Your blog posts are all wonderful AND ANNOINTING! You are short-changing yourself girlfriend! I can tell you right now what your problem is... you are not putting enough trust in God to realize that He is using you by you just being you. Love you sweet sister!  Bloom Where You are Planted
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10/14/2008 12:45 am |
Hi Pen, I would personally like to request that you continue to blog...I would miss you terribly. You lack nothing...you are perfect in Christ. You bless us each time you post. He uses you here...go back and read some of your own posts my friend. You have blessed me. Love you, Barb 
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10/17/2008 3:17 am |
I am going to go out on a limb, and say that I agree with most everything in your own post. What others have said, much of it is expressing how they feel about you, and much of that is all right. Having spoken with you, you seem more level than some of your zany writing, and so I found a deeper appreciation for you as a person. I have not liked the majority of people I have met, I think, but I miss you, and have been. But enough of what we think and feel about you. I think your post here is speaking to you the truth. And don't let anyone dissuade you from believing it or encourage you to minimize it out of human kindness. I say that I believe it is for the most part the truth because before I saw it, and before you wrote it, I myself had been thinking similar thoughts about some of your Blog posts. So I believe it's not far off the mark. The only thing I certainly disagree with is that "God" was silent in this. No, your own post here speaks of what was being impressed on you. Don't doubt when He is trying to guide you into more-inspired expression. You already have that faith, and you have stated it, now let it cause you to grow. I am not entirely certain, though, about your feelings about yourself. There is a place to weep and to mourn over our own failings, and lack of discipline, and loyalty to principles or faithfulness within the stringent requirements of attention that walking in the Spirit must at times entail. I suspect it has something to do with a lust for chocolate, lol, but I am being partly serious when I say that. Elohim would not want us to be overboard in areas where self-control is precious. "He who is faithful in little will be faithful in much". "He who is unfaithful in little {things} will be unfaithful in big {things}". While eating or not eating does not "commend" us to God, our self-control IN eating or not eating does. There has been a lot of joking around in this area, at times, but Scripture actually treats the subject fairly seriously. Paul took this subject so far that when he speaks about eating, he uses nearly the strongest words in the New Testament. For he says, "He who eats" -- not by Faith -- "is condemned/judged if he eats". (This is NOT in context of food sacrificed to idols. Different book.) And while there is a specific context to this, it is clear that for a Christian who is to walk by Faith, "WHATEVER is not of Faith is sin". This Faith -- even in eating or drinking -- is not some generic, Bible-says-I-can-do-whatever kind of "faith", but according to SPECIFIC leading from YHWH elohim. What and when and how much. And even leading to fast and pray. For the person who walks in the Spirit, It says, will not fulfill the lusts of the flesh (or the eyes, etc.). There is nary a word in the assemblies I attend about being faithful in daily things such as eating and drinking, certainly not enough. Paul again writes some of his strongest words in another place when he says, WEEPING!!, that they are the enemies of the Cross of Christ, people he refers to whose god is their BELLY, even their appetite. (This can also apply to other appetites and desires, not just to food and drink.) The "church" is in great need of repentance in these areas. And many Christians today focus way too much on "pleasant", and convenient -- and on friendly personalities. Humor (or Brit., humour, lol ) is practically the #1 thing people ask for in others. The focus I spoke of often gets to a point of almost being a cult of personality, though the Scripture says to not hold the Faith with any kind of favoritism, but to have "the same Love" for one another. It is a dilemma. People want to Love God, supposedly, and their brothers, but certainly not as much as Scripture seems to say, and not so much for the less desirable personalities. I've said enough. Your post above is filled with your beliefs, and my own belief before I read it I feel is a confirmation. And not doing a lot about it can make us feel shallow, and unreal, and can make our own words sound to us somewhat hollow. Even when we are willing to do something, we may feel this way. But remember to be faithful in the little things. And give thanks to the Father's Name with your lips, continually (Heb. 13: 15 ). Act, so that you don't become "dull of hearing". And pray for me, because you know I myself am struggling in some key areas of "faith" and belief. Take Good care. I Love you. (This post applies to others as well.) © Feel free to come see my Blog. And Enjoy! If you want to meet me or just get to know me. Hallelu-Yah! Praise Yah! wpx1 ©
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You are absolutely right!! 
I think you hit the nail on the head, Pat. Relying on my own understanding rather than God. I read all these wonderful comments and I ask myself, why I don't see the same thing everyone else seems to? I guess it comes down to relying on my own ability rather than what God conveys to each one, even through my scrabbling around in the mud posts! Thank you my friend..this is really humbling and convicting 
